Planning and pening

Ohh how I miss my blog..but I've been very very very busy. Hmm not that busy actually but I can't really put myself to write. So many things in my head already.

Anyway the latest news will be Zahra nak kena sunat esok!!! Hmm takot ok. I dunno..this is my first time handling such situation and macam seriau sket orang utara cakap. Will she feels any pain? How much the doc going to cut? Hmm hopefully everything turn out good. Pray for her will ya?

And I'm planning Zahra's majlis kesyukuran on 2nd of May. It's not aqiqah but only more to makan2 thingy for family and friends to celebrate the newborn, at our house. Also not going to do the cukur jambul. Just makan2 and chill out :D It's going to be lunchtime. All are invited. To my friends yg dekat KL nanti I invite personally ok..but in any case I miss out, just beep me and jangan berkecil hati, manusia kan pelupa :) I'll give you the invite.

By the way, we only plan it in our head but still no action. Alang-alang ranting, I just jot down here so maybe can help me pushing myself to do it hehe

1) Catering - Decided but not confirmed yet. No payment made yet.
2) Canopy - Tak ada lagi!
3) Favours - On the way. Something really2 sweet. Nanti I post up
4) House - no deco, only need to borrow the carpets from aunty..going to do it on 1st May
5) Baju Zahra - Pakai apa yang ada je boleh? I don't think I have the time to find nice dress for her.
6) Baju mommy and daddy - Baju kurung and baju melayu yg sedia ada. But it's so buruk already and tak ikut tema. Worst come to worst we pakai baju nikah boleh? Hmm..
7) Finger food - ordered from MamaFami
8) Invites - Belum jemput anybody formally, even the family! Gotta do this fast!
9) Table and bekas makan for side dishes - Tak beli/fikir lagi
10) Flowers - On Saturday I cari kut. Worst come to worst no flower la huhuhu

Hmm what else? Tell me eh kalau ada apa2 I need to add.

And looking at the list, OMG I only siap 2 out of 10. Dah la yg penting2 macam catering ngan canopy tak book lagi. Ok by today I must take out few items from the list. MUST!!!

Tired tired tired

Zahra much better today. No more crankiness, alhamdulillah. But now mommy pulak yang cranky sebab penat sangat. Dah dua malam she poops at 3am while feeding. Normally kalau dia berak pun, during sleeping I tak sedar, so tunggu pagi je la basuh. But these nights, during I was about to pump la, to feed her la..so macam tak sampai hati nak paksa dia tidur without clean it first. After cleaning + feeding it's already almost 5. And the thing is, her poop and fart stink! Like seriously. Tak pernah busuk macam tu ok. In fact I had to change her pant as well even though tak kena kat seluar, but the bau melekat! Punya la kawwww. For the first time jugak I had to hold my breath when I clean her ha ha ha

My babysitter cakap it's normal for breastfed baby, because it's depending on what mommy eat. Hmmmm makan apa yer smalam? Makan udang sambal ngan kangkung goreng. Busuk ke?

Oh ya..just a rant here.. I am so tired that my muscle rasa sengal2 macam nak demam tu. Otak pun macam active separuh je..

Cranky Cotton Candy

Zahra Elena is officially 3 months old last Saturday! She had her second triple antigen jab together with rotavirus vaccination a day before. The vaccine is taken orally and it was her first time tasting another 'taste' aside from the milk. The doctor gave the vaccine via shringe with two small sips. Zahra made faces for the first sip, like she is eating something weird (rugi tak snap pic huhu) and the second sip, she's already full of tears ready to cry that, doctor, nurse, MrComot and me had to pujuk-pujuk her "jangan nanges sayang..sikit je..telan telan cepat"

When at home I didn't give her the paracetamol because she didn't show any sign of fever and be her usual self. But she started to get unexplainable crankiness 48 hours after that. She refuses to sleep, drink and lie down. All she wanted is being carried and me be with her all the time. Coincidently I was on annual leave today so I can entertain her. Whenever she's hungry, she will latch and pull, latch and pull..it's more like she's biting off my breast - a show of discomfort. But she'll back normal, smiley and giggling after she poops. Then I feed her while she's ok, she'll fall into sleep, wake up after an hour and back cranky - repeat 3 times for today.

At first I thought because of I the pizza that I had yesterday (maybe because of the extra cheese intolerant) but today my diet is normal and she still being cranky, so it must be something else.

I don't think it's because of the triple antigen as well. My hunch strongly says she's reacting on the rotavirus. I searched online and there are few cases of crankiness and even diarrhoea after taking the vaccine. Different babies act differently though.

I know she'll be okay after a while, but for how long? I'm more worried about tomorrow as she'll be going to babysitter. The thing is, she still has unresolved issue with taking bottle (her babysitter has to pujuk her, like real pujuk and she'll cry before she drinks via bottle) so this just will make thing worse. A cranky baby whom refused to drink directly from her mom, and has to take from bottle pulak. And her mother won't be there to attend her. Lagila mengamuk + sedih budak tu :(

This is her being cranky and sad today :(

How about you mommies? Your kids ada extra reaction after taking that vaccine tak?

And to Zahra, please please drink your milk tomorrow ok. Mommy worried lah.. :(

My Baby Girl and Me :)

Baru je complaint penat, today is Friday. TGIF! Last night I though it's Thursday. Bestnya weekeenddddd.

Anyway now I remember that after so long I still haven't posted my pic with Zahra. In fact I don't have any proper pic with Zahra! I was too busy snapping her pics instead. And another thing is, we barely have the time to pose for it. Pagi-pagi kelam kabut pegi keja, balik dah malam. But last night my younger bro came to my house and and this morning while watching our kelam-kabutness, he offers to snap my pic with Zahra.

Zahra muka masam sebab baru bangun dah kena paksa tengok camera

Zahra Elena in the car, on my lap, still sembab from her slumber. Look a little bit like baby boy eh?

We tried to put Zahra on the car-seat and she seems ok with it, good girl! But she couldn't last too long in it, max is about 30-45mins I think, then started to get restless. We tried it last week, when we balik to Manjung :)

Zahra Elena being jolly in her car-seat

I plan to bring Zahra out this weekend to the mall (gathering with some Teratorian babes) and it's gonna be her first time in the stroller. Hopefully she'll be fine as well.


Have a great weekend darlings, and kalau terjumpa Zahra, tegur lah yer! Mwahhhhhhh

Drained

I am very exhausted this few days. The new time-table really drained my energy till end. Even though Zahra is behaving, I still find myself don't have enough rest.

After the maternity leave, we start our day very early. No more 9AM morning for us. After Subuh, I have to prepare Zahra's milk berapa-berapa oz in 4 bottles, then feed her a bit in her sleep while waiting for MrComot finish his shower. Then my turn to take shower, MrComot will cut apples for me, prepare my choc milk, dries up my breastpump and pack it, etc. Then after I dressed up, I will wake Zahra up, tickle her a bit here and there, change the diapers and we are good to go - averagely at 730am.

Stuck in jam for like 1 hour no matter which road we take, Zahra will be on my lap all the way instead of in the carseat because I want her to manja2 with me..she will latch on me even though she's already full to the brim. Then reach babysitter around 845am, play with her for a while and then off to the office.

Then after office, pick her up, again she'll be on my lap and latch, stuck in jam for another 1 hour plus, reach my MIL's or my house around 745pm.

At home, I'll play with Zahra a bit then feed her until she falls asleep, then pack her stuff siap-siap in the bag for tomorrow, have the 'me time' with MrComot watching Big Bang or Chuck (almost finish! Tgh dload V and psych pulak), occasionally MrComot will do some work, reply emails, etc. Then I pump the milk at 12am and sleep.

Basically that's our routine now. Simple kan. But I still feel tired to the max! In fact this week I didn't manage to stay awake until 12am, I just simply doze off while feeding Zahra! MrComot woke me up for my Isya' last night at 12 and I was tooo sleepy that I straightly sleep after prayer without pumping and akibatnya, I was awake at 3am because my boobs too full and already sakit.

MrComot told me that I snored and tell you what, I only snore when I'm tired. I even drooled ok! Bangun-bangun basah je my sleeve. OMG..I don't know why I'm so exhausted. I think I need to take Pharmaton or something like that lah..

On a ceria mood, this is Zahra this morning when I woke her up. She's about 3 months now and she will smile everytime I wake her. EVERYTIME ok. Comelnyaaa sayang mummmyy! Ok ok a bit over la pulak. But you know the feeling... when that person give you the sweetest and most sincere smile whenever they open their eyes. It melts your heart and gives you the warmth feeling down to your spine (it also bring me to tears on the early days!)

Senyum senyum lepas kena kejut

Something that we always forget to do. Bila dah besar-besar ni, instead of senyum, muka masam, grumpy, cranky and marah when people kejutkan kita, kononnya kacau tidur hahahaha. A note to myself, I will pose the sweetest smile when MrComot wakes me up after this gagagagaga

Hubby playing with Zahra before off to work. Ketawa mengekek-ngekek budak tu.

She can laugh already so we have to find the spot - mostly armpit, neck and chest area. Sometimes we didn't manage to hit the spot but still, she will nganga-nganga like trying to be there, you know, like orgasm tak sampai haha

We make it a habit to play with her before and after work, even though I am tempted to put her to sleep so that we can rest, because kesian ok kalau tak main ngan dia. After all that's the only time we have to spend with her, so it's better be good.

It's true when they said, hilang penat balik kerja bila tengok anak. But still, I need more rest!! How I wish we only work 4 days a week. Lepas tu mintak 3 hari pulak, pastu terus tak kerja ha ha ha. No lah..how I wish we have shorter working time, so that we can spend more time with her.