what we shud call her?

this going to be v short as im updating using my hp n the mcro kebod is killing me. just to tell that mommy n baby doing great n today mark the 6th day i fully bf zahra elena..yeay! oh ya, we have little problem here, suddenly we dunno what to call our pwincess, zahra or elena? what do u think? i know we've been calling her zahra but since yesterday mcm tersasul panggil elena..so confused. please share w me ur thought..thanks. p/s:i still browsing ur blogs only cant comment much. see, i dont even know how to make paragraph using this phone grrrrr. so keep on blogging ya. mommy here need updates. and dun forget to cast ur vote, zahra or elena. mwahhhhhhh

The First Time Parent

Hi all,

I wanted to update about my delivery experience but later-later lah.

Anyway life has been very hectic to both of us and we are coping it, not better each day but we are trying. Thing is very different once the little one pop-out. Most of the time because we don't know what she wants! It's more like trial and error experience.

I know baby's principal is very easy, feed her-make sure the diaper is clean-tak kembung-burp her.

The thing is, I'm having problem with the feeding part. Like other mothers, I'm very enthusiastic to direct breastfeed my princess but she's taking the whole time in the world to finish one feed! By the time she falls asleep, I'm already turn into a tired and cranky lady. And tell you what, the normal feeding will averagely take me about 3 hours!

3 hours ok!

I don't know what I did wrong, is it the way I hold her, or the way she sucks, or the way the milk flow, I just don't know. Why can't she finish the feed in a jiffy, like she does with the bottle?

For the first few days it has been very stressful and energy consuming, especially when people around me keep on saying "your milk is not enough". I know it's enough only it takes a long time for her to suck it out and it's not good for both oh us - tired and cranky to get the outcome.

I failed my mission to exclusively bf her on the early motherhood due to stress and pressure but now I'm coping better, I gradually learn the way she feeds and one of the solution is to express my breastmilk. So for every feed I'll offer her the real thing first while MrComot will warm up the EBM and then feed her with the bottle (where she finish it in a blink - huhu nampak sangat kelaparan :( ), burp her and doze off. This will take us about 1 hour. Not too bad I think.. There are still few nights I made her milk from the free sample hospital gave, so I have to pump harder...

And there are also when she still crying after been fed and we don't know why. One night is because she pooped right after the feeding (and it turns out that she is back hungry, so I have to feed her for another few hours -- again), then there is a night where we thought we burped her but apparently we didn't, then last night the nose stucked up because she cries too much and we didn't buy the nasal aspirator - had to hold her until the blockage gone, etc etc. Wish the babies come with 1-2-3 manual and don't act randomly hehehe

Okla..enough of mommytalk. Anyway basically that's what happening since the first day she's arrived until today - me learning about babies.

And below is the picture of MrComot trying to burp Zahra. It was on our first night at the house and handling Zahra (kalau kat hospital the nurses do everything)



I couldn't help it but laugh and snap this picture instead of saving Zahra. Apprently MrComot is choking her, not burping her. Look at her reddish and stiffen face ha ha ha! And look and MrComot, very serious like he's doing it correctly ha ha ha! OMG sorry darling, mommy let daddy bully you.

Since that night, we change our way to burp her, by putting her on our shoulder - it is easier that way.

Okla..gotta rest before the little one latching on me - forever. Will try to update as soon as possible. U guys take care, mwahhhhh!

I miss my baby :(

As I mentioned before, Zahra is admitted in TMC due to jaundice. However I wasn't so worried before because they said it will only take 1 night. So I was really expecting her today when MrComot went to the hospital to send the breastmilk, but hubby came back later only to tell me that doctor want to keep her another night!

I was like, what?

Apparently the reading already went down (borderline is 150 and Zahra's at 120) but the paed said it is safe to keep the reading below 100, so they want to put her under that freaking phototherapy for another night and monitor her. I know the paed meant well and I trust them but I can't help it, feeling pissed off and so angry. I want my baby!!

I miss her so much sob sob..

Pics taken by MrComot when he went there

To make thing worse, I didn't go to he hospital with MrComot so I didn't get to smooch her and tell her everything's going to be alright. MrComot said he told Zahra 'mommy misses you' but it's not enough *cried*

I even had a dream this evening where MrComot bring back Zahra and she's already a toddler, can walk somemore! It's like I missed a whole chapter of her life.


God, I really hope that she'll be discharged tomorrow morning :(

Hello World!

Hye darlings!!!

How are you?? I'm doing just fine here. I think most of you already aware that my little one already see the world! Hehe.. Thank God everything went smoothly only that we are coping with the changes pretty hard - irregular times of crying, feeding, changing napkins, burping, etc. Sometimes I just don't know what to do or what she wants and feel so frustrated *sigh*

So introducing to everybody...

Zahra Elena bt Elias

Born on 10/01/10 at 11:40PM via normal delivery

Weight at 3.40kg and lenght is 50cm

Soundly asleep after a while

My first time holding her after being cleaned up. Look how big she is, I can't believe she came out from me!

Right after delivered, placed next to me with her eyes wide open

Anyway I have a lot of thing to say about the birth experiences, sleepless night with the baby and all, but will try to update as soon as possible when I'm coping better and have more time. And to tell you the truth, the reason I can update now is because my little princess is admitted in the hospital due to jaundice. Haaa and the mother is happily updating her blog ish ish ish. Anyway nothing serious, the reading is just slightly over the par (185/150) and insyAllah admission will be 1 night only (please pray for her as well, thanks)

Okla..till now, will update again. Mwahhhhhhh!

The Anxious Mommy, The Cool Baby

I've been meaning to update about a lot of thing especially on baby thing but things is pretty hay wired now because I am ready to go into labor anytime! There are so many checkups and I am at home, with my crappy lappy whom can't upload any pic due to its old age - it will hang if tried to to read my camera! There..so the real reason for no update is because I can't upload pics hahaha.

But I have to write here details of the checkups and my situation, or I'll forget.

Anyway, since I'm seeing two gyneas and both gyneas see me every week, that means I see doc twice a week. It's quite hectic for me and as I have to be there here and there.

Last week has been pretty good only that I'm starting to develop Carpal Tunnel Syndrome (CTS) where I feel needle point all over my fingers and it happens during the night. It's quite normal for preganant mommies especially during the late pregnancy where we got swollen and press the nerve. At first I thought I was allergic to something. Anyway after 4-5 days, it's gone, I don't know why and it is a relieve.

I had my first vaginal checkup last Tuesday and was surprised to find out that I am 2cm dilated! Since I don't feel anything, doc said it is a latent opening (passive), could be weeks or days or anytime, I have to watch my contraction period to confirm on it. Doc Zahna said my cervix is really soft and ripening. It's ready!

I started to have bloody show after Maghrib on Wednesday and was pretty messed up because MrComot and I were gaduh that time, bolehhh? Eiiiii..saiko sangat, we didn't have misunderstanding quite for sometimes and yesterday he's being extra sensitive because too tired with works and I was with my 'Suka hati lah nak fikir apa, malas layan!' head, so both had lunch in silence and terbawak2 sampai balik. He tried to make it up on the way back asking me why I acting so cold and all and mommy don't have mood for berbaik-baik ok! I said give me some times as I don't feel like talking hahahaha. What a day. Then the next morning terus MrComot made me air yassin ok. Hahhhh rasa bersalah la tu :P

Then I had another checkup yesterday and had another vaginal checkup, I am 3cm dilated! (This time with Doc Fidak). She's very elated to find out about it and said I could deliver anytime. She told me to come again to the hospital to do CTG this morning if I still hadn't deliver.

This morning, MrComot made me two halfboiled eggs and packed the hospital bag into the car in any case I will be admitted. We went to the hospital and did the CTG thing and alhamdulillah everything is ok, only that I still don't have contraction!

Haiyahhh...baby u still don't want to come out kah?

Anyway according to the last scan, baby is fine, the water (air ketuban) is at comfortable scale (about 12-13), placenta still doing well - not too ripe/matured, baby's head still engaged and facing down so nothing much to worry only that I have to be aware of baby's movement--> I hate this task because everytime people/doc ask baby moves ok tak, I don't know what to answer!! Because I think macam ok, but I don't know if it is enough or not. It's not like baby moves all the time u know..and most of the time I just forgot how much she moves already *sigh*

On the other note, I love to see both doctors because they like to explain a lot to me expecially about the scan thing, what I see and all, not only said "ok...everything is ok". Sometimes I feel like I am in biology class haha.

Oh ya, we also managed to see the heart, already in grape shape and can see the 4 chambers. Alhamdulillah...

Since I don't feel any contraction yet, doc recommend me to do a some exercise to promote natural labor feel

1) squatting

2) pelvic floor massage (to soften it more) --> susah ni and I give it a pass boleh?

3) nipple stimulation

Doc put 12/01/10 as new due date and might consider of inducing me if still have no contraction by that time but it will be more painful than normal labor pain as she will give me Pitocin. My body won't produce endorphin (somethings like natural morphin) as the painkillers as Pitocin won't trigger the brain for this. So I really hope that I get the contraction ASAP so it will be natural as possible, and less painful! Aminnnn...

I still having the bloody show until now, so I'm not sure how much I dilated already. So baby, please come out as soon as u can ok, mommy don't want you to be induced.

Friends, please pray for me. In the mean time, I'll try to update again! Mwahhhhhhhhh