I had my latest checkup last week, and about 23 months now. Almost 6 months already, it's just incredible to think how fast time flies, and I barely do anything.
My Ramadhan days went smoothly as I managed to fast almost 30 days! I missed one day because I didn't take the sahur and worried about the baby, then that's it, after that puasa all the way. Rewind back, it was a miracle because I hardly have any heartburn or uneasiness feeling. Alhamdulillah, kuasa and rahmat Allah memudahkan perjalanan puasa. Compared to after fasting, right on the first raya I had heartburn, everyday, up till today! Maybe my stomach still adjusting the food intake.
Ok below is update on the pregnancy.
Baby is growing according to normal growth. By right we can see the gender already but unfortunately that day little one refused to show what he/she's having. Baby keeps on kicking and moving, fighting back the ultrasound movement, so the gender part is shadowed by the leg. We were excited to know but since baby tanak tunjuk, then oklah, we'll try to peep on the next checkup :) Currently baby standing at breech position (head's up, feet down below kicking my bladder! Asyik rasa nak kencing saja), it's still early, hopefully baby will go down when the time is right. Oh ya, I can already feel frequent movement. Sometimes hard kick, but most of the time is a subtle movement, like spinning inside. Whenever baby do that I always say out loud
"Heyyy baby buat apa niii, flutter flutterrr!!"
Not that I scold the baby already, only wondering..apahal la budak kecik ni..mcm ada toys pulak inside :P
My belly is making drastic stretch where everybody can point out already the obvious bump. Last August, we barely see it there. I can't fit in most blouses already and more comfortable in maxi instead of pant. Even though I tried my best to prevent stretchmarks by pouring lotsa oil, I can see visible lines at the right and left waist :( Hopefully it will go away after sometimes. My skin also at its most sensitive as everytime I scratch it will leaves black mark like, immediately! Have to refrain myself from scratching *sigh*
No more nauseas or headache (yeay!), only heartburn after raya :(
Constipation also quite bad especially during fasting month when I had to go only after 4 days. But now it's slowly catching up when I drink a lot of fruit juice and milk. My stool is very black due to iron in my supplement.
I rarely talk about my emotion as for the past few months nothing really change. I accept this pregnancy with open arms. But somehow this few days, I have this feeling of 'unreadiness'. It's like, can I be a mommy? Can I wake up early and take care of the baby? Do this and that. Hmm not can, but DO I WANT to do this? I mean, it's a big responsibility for me and I am so afraid. I think my selfishness starts to come out already. Sometimes when I see my big belly I feel violated bolehh? Like, heyyyy what happen to me? And then a lot of stuff to think like confinement, nanny, feeding baby, etc etc. I guess the feeling is normal since this is my first baby. But I hate to have such kind of feeling, it makes me feel bad!
Since I don't want to be carried over, I will immediately tell MrComot whenever such silly thought cross my mind. And he will sooth me,
"Don't worry sayang, you'll make a wonderful mommy. You ingat me tak scared? This is my first time too. We'll make it through together"
Not that I suka-suka thinking about it, I can't help it, sometimes terlintas kat hati, simple as that. Maybe it's just the hormone, so I hope it will go away when I reach my 7th months.
Oh ya, I haven't start my pregnancy scrap book yet. Angan-angan mat jenin sangat. But at least I blog about it here, so it's tracked. On a crap note, I enjoy my maternity wear so much bolehhh? Especially the dresses. So far I have 4 long dresses yippie!
To all mommies, have you done the preparation? I'm still at gear 0 wawawawawawa