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Busy Bee

2012-01-20T18:46:00.002+08:00

I am very busy this whole week. A lot of big thing happened, with lotsa pictures but oh time..I need more time. I'll try to update more after this long holiday.

So happy chinese new year to all of you. We are going to celebrate like usual but I'm not sure if there's gonna be lion dance at the house this year. My MIL already bought Zahra the cutest cheongsam and Emir belum jumpa lagi. He's too small, hard to find the size.

If you are not celebrating, this holiday means longer sleep time for you! Hope you have a good one!

MyNOG 2012

2012-01-16T11:17:00.001+08:00

Anybody else here?

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Movie of the Night: The Green Lantern

2012-01-15T00:49:00.002+08:00

The power of will, and no fear!

Anyway, senangnya nak bunuh parallex. Just took one green lantern. I thought have to combine the whole 3600 GL. The ending was too rushed.

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Typical view during the weekend

2012-01-14T11:11:00.003+08:00

Semua Zahra punya kerja. Now she's playing outside pulak, ignoring the mess ish ish ish.

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The Big Angry 2

2012-01-10T10:35:00.004+08:00

My youngest sister posted this compilation of Zahra in her fb this morning. Yes darlings, Zahra turns TWO!

Anyway we didn't have a good night last night, let alone to celebrate it. Zahra was so stubborn and keep on crying because I scolded her throughout the night. Kesian dia, emotionally bruised on her birthday. I was so strict with her last night because my judgement was clouded with the babysitter's report. She said Zahra too degil. So I macam marah dengan Zahra pulak because being stubborn. It is so wrong! I have to dig out why she acting like instead.

*sigh*

Sorry sayang, mommy was so hard last night. I siap pukul hanger at the pintu and you know la how loud the sound is. Pang!! Terkejut Zahra but she didn't stop crying. Instead, lagi kuat dia menjerit nanges. I was so upset. She supposed to be scared and stop crying. So stubborn.

But I have to remind myself again, stubbornness will be negative trait if you don't manipulate it to be positive. And this also remind me with 'The Nanny' show (not the Nanny Fran, but new one - a reality show how the nanny save the insanity in family), being a mom is not about competing with your kids, who is more in control. It's about understanding and supporting each other.

After a tiresome drama (and my little princess slept with tears), I woke up this morning with calmer mind and change my trick. Instead of scolding her when she cries for something, I soothe her and manipulate the situation. Like this morning when she wanted to BF, I said 'kejap..Emir nak minum dulu, kesian Emir dia kecik lagi', she was so mad and throw tantrum (I think partly because she slept in anger last night), so I change it to, 'Zahra big girl kan? Zahra jaga Emir..haa cepat pegang Emir..sayanggg Emir'. Magically, dia terus stop menangis and lie down next to Emir and rub Emir's head.

Apparently the tantrum is about control, and all she wants to be is, to be in control.

This is another phase I need to tackle. Mommy will try my best ok, sayang?

Last but not least, happy birthday my little tottila!! Mommy loves you very much. I planned to make a proper birthday bash (about a year ago), but little Emir came into the picture, so mommy tak larat lah.. we'll have a small celebration with mommy and daddy only ok?

Again, mommy loves loves loves ya!

3-months Emir

2012-01-09T11:52:00.002+08:00

Update of my newborn, he's 3 months old! And guess how we celebrated it? By giving him rotarix vaccination and 3-months injection! Haha.

He finished the 2nd dosage of rotarix and due for pneumococcal later. We have option whether to do it when he's 4 months or straight to 6 months, so he can skip one dose. Still thinking about it, last time Zahra kitaorg buat mcm tu, skip one dose, but at that time, the risk was lower too. Now ramai budak..so contemplating. But the doctor mcm recommend to skip it as he said 2 months fly real fast. Hmm...

Emir with his rotarix

Anyway he took it so well, the oral and the jab. His temperature rose a bit after the injection but since Emir tak merengek, I didn't give the paracetamol. A day after the rotarix, he passed motion 5 times instead of 2. Now dah back to normal.

At 3 months, Emir starts showing signs to turn. He will try very hard to turn himself and manage to lift half of his body already. Sometimes more than half and hour he's pushing himself to turn. So funny muka dia, siap terjatuh2 from bantal/comforter. Masa Zahra dulu tak segigih ni, tiba2 je pusing sendiri.

He is in the phase of eating his own hands. Selalu masukkan the whole fist and sometimes siap nak termuntah.

Burp a lot.

A very smiley baby. The babysitter cakap 'ramah'. Memang ramah, buka-buka mata je senyum. Terjaga tido pun senyum dalam mamai-mamai. So sweeeet. And talk a lot. Like a lot lot lot. If I tegur dia sikit pun berjela-jela dia reply. This is very exciting to see, that my two kids have different characters. It's so true that every baby is not the same, and we human is very unique.

Other than that, Emir is pretty much an easy baby. He sleeps well, kalau dalam kul 11PM tu, sampai pagi lah around 530AM for the next feed. Itu pun tak menangis, just pusing sana sini and rubbing his face. Drinks well.. finally he drinks the milk via bottle at babysitter, good boy! But kalau kat rumah I bagi, terus cebik-cebik.

Even though this entry is about Emir, gambar Zahra and daddy tetap menyelit :P

While waiting for our turn in the clinic, Zahra busy reading to MrComot, siap tangan gerak-gerak.

Emir with mummy

Emir dah terpusing-pusing trying to turn. He was on the pillow and properly sleeping on the comforter. Siap terjatuh-jatuh from it.

Happy 3-months darling! You sure grow up so fast, that mommy and daddy barely catch up. But one thing for sure, we love you so much. Be a good boy ok! Mwah!!

Laundry Day

2012-01-07T07:58:00.002+08:00

As usual, weekend is our laundry day and I just realized that we have 3 same red laundry basket. All from IKEA. One for MrComot n me, one for Zahra n Emir, and one for my sister.

Happy washing day!

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Greedy Morning

2012-01-05T10:25:00.002+08:00

I had a greedy stomach this morning where I feel like eating nasi lemak, not one, but TWO at one go.

And accompanied with one cup of hot milo, apples and golden kiwi.

Anyway, just wanna tell you that the nasi lemak PEDAS GILER NAK MENANGIS. First time rasa panas telinga hahaha which reminds me old iklan by FINAS where the monkey want to eat chili and kura-kura ke apa ntah advise not to, but he is so degil and makan jugak, lepas tu keluar asap kat telinga dia haha. Do you still remember that ads?

The spicy nasi lemak

I was tempted to have another cup of milo to combat the spiciness but, that will be so unhealthy. So have to tahan pedas buat-buat tak tahu. Now dah ok! :D

So what is ur breakfast today?

Oh ya, don't skip your breakfast (I do sometimes! bad bad bad) as morning meal is the most important actually. Tapi macam orang kita selalunya have big portion during dinner kan, which is a no-no because you are going to sleep after that. Like a famouse quote:

Breakfast like a king, lunch like a queen and dinner like a peasant

What I want for 2012

2012-01-04T14:24:00.006+08:00

I wrote my wishlist in 2011 here, and looking back, I only get one! Anyway, it's fun to list down all the material thingy and somehow it makes me feel jumpy in greeting 2012.

Before we proceed with 2012, lets recap last year's wishlist.

Wanted stuff:
1) color printer - tak beli
2) sewing machine - I got one! Yeay!!! But still tak guna til now. Hmmmpphh!
3) bread maker - tak beli
4) second diamond ring - obviously tak beli hahaha
5) oversea trip - didn't manage to. Zahra sakit and I was pregnant
6) wooden swing - tak beli, tak jumpa yg suka lagi
7) cute utensils for kitchen - tak beli

Needed stuff:
1) Finish entry on Japan trip in 2008 - not yet!
2) Finish album compilation on the honeymoon trip - not yet!
3) Finish making my pregnancy journal with Zahra Elena - not yet! Sampai Emir dah keluar!
4) Edit all the honeymoon trip videos and upload them in youtube - not yet!
5) Print the wedding pictures - Belum!! :(
6) Make 2010 album book - Obviously tak buat huhu. Gotta make it up for 2012 ;)
7) Kemas bilik art (the 3rd bedroom) - Again, obviously tak kemas haha
8) Start my online business - in the middle! :D Gotta sell some of my craft supplies. Will reveal the link nanti.
9) Settle my PTPTN issue - in the middle! Dah bayar some amount to release ;)
10) Gain weight for second child - Dah dapat Emir, tak sempat gain weight
11) Pray better - this will be on-going process :)

Ok so lets jump to what I want for 2012. Some of them are repetitive and some are not, like breadmaker because I don't feel like having it now ;P

What I want for 2012:

1) A color printer

2) Silhouette Cameo

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3) Timber flooring for hall

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4) Wooden swing

And plus what I need to do:

1) Finish my entries on Japan trip in 2008
2) Finish album compilation on the honeymoon trip
3) Finish my entries on Langkawi trip in early 2011
4) Finish making my pregnancy journal with Zahra Elena
5) Finish making my pregnancy journal with Emir Qalef
6) Edit all the honeymoon trip videos and upload them in youtube
7) Print the wedding pictures
8) Kemas my craft stuff
9) Launch my online store - it's simple on blogspot je, but I have to take pictures, packing, etc etc. It's tedious to me :(
10) Start 365-project!

Two things that most wanted/needed will be:

* Silhouette Cameo - it's retailed at USD$299, well korek tabung insyaAllah cukup nak beli tapi... I feel unfair to buy it because I still haven't use my sewing machine, like WTF kan? Beli mesin jahit tak pakai pastu nak beli mesin potong2 pulak. Even though it serves different purpose, but it drills down to the same thing, do I have the time? So, before I buy it, have to prove to myself that I will use it. In short, I should start sewing! #Mustfindtime&strength.

* Starts 365-project - it's a daily project where u snap pic in your everyday and print it and compile it (can make it short or long, doesn't matter). I plan to compile in paper album (notebook) and put short caption. Over a year, I will have 365 pics of my daily life in 2012! Actually it's the same thing I wanted to do like 2010 album, only the different, I snap everyday and terus print, instead of waiting to compile it in 2013. Already snap the pics, cuma nak tunggu print this weekend. See..procrastinate :P

And funny thing, I don't feel like going anywhere this year. Well, it's too early to tell but for now, I'm excited to start lots lots lots of craft/sewing projects, especially for Zahra and Emir!

Wow.. I am less materialistic in 2012. We'll see hehe.

So how about you guys? What do you want/need in 2012? Share it with me! U can give the link to ur blog entry too. I'm so kepochi to peek into your wish list! :P

Another blockage

2012-01-04T11:51:00.002+08:00

I am down with plugged milk duct and this is my 3rd time in 3 months! *sigh* Anyway, it's not that bad yet, like the first time I had when with Zahra. Maybe because I dah pernah kena so macam cautious sikit. Dah rasa sikit2, terus treat it.

The previous two, I quickly ran hot shower and comb the breast to ease the milk duct, and nurse Emir a lot, and the plugged gone the next day. But this time, it still clogged even I did the hot shower, combing, massage, nurse, pump.. sigh. And it's getting worse. I pump pun dah tak keluar susu. Nasib baik sebelah je.

Later this evening will stop by at the shop to get cabbage and try it. Ni petua orang-orang tua, letak cabbage sampai kering. It will suck out the stuck milk.

Hopefully it will be gone the next day. Now nak dukung Emir pun dah tak boleh, so painful.

New Year Haircut

2012-01-03T10:06:00.002+08:00

How's ur 2012 so far? Mine biasa-biasa je. We didn't go anywhere or even stayed up late for the fireworks. But we still didn't sleep that time, just because we sleep at 1AM everyday. As usual, I have a lot of wishlist and resolution for 2012, which I'm gonna share later ;)

Anyway, 2012 also embarks Zahra with new haircut!!

Not from a posh salon or professional hairdresser, it was from her grandma! Haha.

Actually, Zahra's bang dah panjang, we keep on procrastinate to cutting it mainly because of time. By the way, we never cut rambut Zahra outside pun, it always done by me..I'll just snip depan tu to avoid masuk mata. And last few days, dah masuk mata but too busy, by the time I want to cut, dah malam, so macam tak best nak potong malam-malam.

Hair before. Dah cucuk-cucuk mata.

But last few days, my mom tak tahan tengok and she took a pair or scissor and SNIP it at one go! Hahaha.. She wanted to trim a bit but I said tak payah la! Sebab dah malam kan. And Zahra pun can't sit still. Lepas tu asyik gerak-gerak. Dapat potong sekali pun jadi la. As long as tak masuk mata, it's fine to me.

But my mom cut it too fast and too short that equal to penan-lookalike hairstyle! Haha kesian my baby. It's so weird that make her look like a penan-boy. Anyway, both mommy and daddy too lazy to fix it, so biar je la yer.

Seems like she's going to have her birthday with that haircut! Redho je la yer Zahra. It will grow up again, in 3 months time ;)

Missing my Pwincess

2011-12-30T14:02:00.003+08:00

It's almost new year and I was looking back my life 2011, wanted to recap about it but couldn't.. when I found Zahra's pic during her peak with Nephrotic Syndrome. It's too saddening and heartbreaking. I'll write about it..but later, not today.

And looking at the pictures also make me miss my princess so much. I miss Emir too, but I miss Zahra more, at this moment.

Zahra playing masak-masak

Wearing mummy's house-slipper at the porch

Zahra-daddy-iPad time

Happy Friday everyone, and happy new year in advanced! What's ur resolution? It doesn't matter if it's recycled from many past years, mine too! At least we have one right? ;)

Obi Wan Andes

2011-12-29T11:34:00.000+08:00

I was feeling a bit princessy last week and decided to wear my jeweltone poplook dress which I bought right before gave birth to Emir. I haven't wear it, and it was my first time. After giving some thought, I decided to pair it with a runched long darker tone cardigan.

And being excited with the new dress, I keep on parading it in front of MrComot while we are dressing up and asked:

Me: Cantik tak? Cantik kannnnnnnnnn

MrComot: Hmmm...macam obi wan kenobi

Me: Haaaa? Yeee keeee *tapi still tersengih-sengih sebab feeling cantik jugak*

MrComot: *tak puas hati with my expression* Sayang tahu tak siapa Obi Wan Kenobi?

Me: Tahu la! Star Wars!

MrComot: Wahhhhhhhh terernya sayang!

Me: *senyum-senyum..still feeling princessy*

MrComot: *still tak puas hati* Kalau sayang tahu, siapa dia dalam Star Wars?

Me: Hmmm..ntah? Anak darth vader?

MrComot: Ish ish ishhhh sayang ni.. cikgu Luke Skywalker la

Me: Ye ke? Mana la me ingat..me bukan fan Star Wars. Whatever la siapa dia.. Tapi..cantik kan this dress?

MrComot: Hmm.. cantik, tapi macam Obi Wan Kenobi la

Me: Hah?

MrComot: A'ah sebijik. Minus the saber light and belt. *and terus googling the image via his phone and show me sambil tersengih-sengih*

Apparently, this is how Obi Wan Kenobi looks like T__T.

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Well, I know that he's wearing a cape or whatever it is, and some sort of man-dress underneath, but I totally forgot the color, and my combination is exactly like his, dang!

And he keeps on calling me Obi Wan Kenobi after that. When I show no interest with the tease, he changed it to Jar Jar Binks, boleh?

And this is how Jar Jar Binks looks like. Grrrrr...

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Winky Wednesday

2011-12-28T12:55:00.002+08:00

As promised, want to show the other day-romper - Winky Wednesday.

Happy Winky Wednesday everyone! From Emir ;)

Click here to see Emir in Toad Tuesday :D

Masalah

2011-12-27T10:25:00.004+08:00

Happy Tuesday everyone! I had a great weekend as my parent is in town! Yeay! I missed them soo much and when my parent is around, means everybody will be around too! My brother, my uncles, will come at my place :D

We had few celebrations, first up, my FIL birthday where we celebrated at Ayers Rock and then when my parents came down, we had big dinner at Muhibbah Sg Penchala.

Happy events aside, I have two problems with my babies now

1) Zahra - TANAK MAKAN!!! Eeeeiiii I don't know la she's going through a phase or simply hate eating? She's been busy playing and distracted by a lot of thing and refused to eat whatever I gave her. I even give real adult food, tanak ok!! Dia makan a few spoon then don't want to eat and continue playing. I think dia makan pun just to alas perut because of hunger. And she's basically living on milk now. That day when we went to Muhibbah, I tried to feed her with all our food and in the end tahu dia makan apa je? Peanuts!! All the way through dinner. Sigh.

2) Emir - TANAK MINUM BOTTLE!!! Eeeiii ni lagi sorang pitam! Before going to babysitter dia memang refused, tapi minum la jugak. And after back from there, terus tanak. I think it's just a matter of preference, macam dia tahu, after balik babysitter can direct feed and he prefers that. But during the long holiday, I still tried to give the milk via bottle to avoid a total refusal, and guess what, memang tanak habis2, sampai sanggup tidur without minum susu, boleh???!?! Memang tak cukup minum la Emir last few days..I keep on giving him bottle and he will tolak2 with his tongue and cry his lung out. Then I let him calm a bit, and offer the bottle again, reject jugak and last2..nak tidur. I tried to change the teats, the milk temperature, the environment, I sang to him, etc..but semua tanak. I don't know lah today macam mana with babysitter, hopefully dia minum la :(

Anyway, to treat my Tuesday blues (and maybe yours ;) ), below is Zahra's video taken by my brother, when we were at Muhibbah. I think dia kenyang makan imaginary food dia kut.

Movie of the Night: The Sorcerer and The White Snake

2011-12-23T01:40:00.002+08:00

#1 comment: Jet Li dah tua!

#2 comment: Senangnya role Jet Li this time, tak penat

I thought it is action + mystic movie but it's a love story actually. But not enough to shed my tears.

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Bawang Girl

2011-12-22T16:06:00.003+08:00

One of Zahra's current hobbies is kopek bawang! I'll give the one without skin, and she will peel each layer to the core.

Yang peliknya, tak pedih mata pulak. Mummy dia yg pedihhh

This can keep her occupied for quite sometimes! She won't stop until her hand is sore.

Gigih ok

The max shallot she peeled was three at a time and lepas tu kuku dia pedih and came to me while showing me her hands

Zahra: Mummmyyy...sakett...
Me: Sakit? Sape buat?
Zahra: Bawammm bwat
Me: Ye ke? Mummy babbbb bawang

And I have to make action like babab the bawang with my hand. Selagi I tak babab bawang tu, selagi tu la mengadu tu me. Totti..tottii.. sayang yg pegi kupas bawang, tapi bawang yg buat sayang ish ish ish

My Funny Man

2011-12-21T15:36:00.003+08:00

I already started working and I miss my babies so much! But surprisingly I'm okay leaving Emir at the babysitter's, takde la blues sangat, maybe sebab Zahra ada. So in a way macam lega, at least they can accompany each other.

Anyway MrComot was very funny last few days. MrComot ni kan.. BM dia takde la buruk..tapi takde la bagus. Haha keji tak? What I mean by not that good is, normal BM-KL ni ok la..tapi kalau perkataan yg jarang pakai, dia macam terbabas sebutan sikit. Last few days, 3 kali dia sebut perkataan salah in a day.

#1 - during the night, we are packing the kids bag

Me: Kita kena tanda la towel Zahra ni. Towel Emir tak beli lagi. Me nak tulis nama dengan marker nanti
MrComot: Me thought sayang nak ULAM (he's trying to tease me with my craft thing actually)
Me: SULAM!!!!
MrComot: Lebih kurang sama la tu
Me: Mana sama, sulam tu jahitan, ulam tu makanan haha
MrComot: Alaaaaaa...tapi u faham kan apa me nak cakap *geram*

Kann....nak cerca wifey la konon, tapi lepas tu kena cerca balik hahaha

#2 - The next morning on the way to work

MrComot: Sayang nak anything for breakfast tak?
Me: Hmm..nak beli apa eh?
MrComot: Karipap PULAS nak?
Me: Haaa?? PUSING!!!!
MrComot: Pulas dengan pusing sama la

Hahaha..so funny ok, because karipap pusing is his fav kuih, and yet...

#3 - Right after karipap pulas incident

MrComot: You know.. that day me dengar gotcha dekat hitz tau, they gotcha this one college student. Tak suka betul me dengan budak tu, dia BANGKAK sangat
Me: BONGKAK!!!
MrComot: Haa? Apa-apa la..sama la tu! Dah nak sama bunyi dia

Hahaha..lawak ok kalau MrComot kantoi. Mesti cover gila-gila. But the best part is, I can guess exactly what he's trying to say, in a snap. Ya la...nama pun hubby wifey, mesti tahu kan. But he's so adorable in that way *loves*

Choc of the Day: Ritter Sport ala Mousse au Chocolat

2011-12-19T14:31:00.002+08:00

...with fine cocoa.

Another ritter sport in my fridge. Expiry date: Oct 2011 :p

Anyway I love this one! Surprisingly sedap and suit my tastebud. Not too sweet but not bitter either. And yes, the chocolate tastes sooo fine that it stands out on itself without any other accessories like nuts or filling like caramel.

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Movie of the Night: The Last Airbender

2011-12-18T01:10:00.003+08:00

Dah lama x tengok movie together, hardly have the time and I think we missed almost all movies since 2009. Managed to watch this one sebab first time the kids sleep a bit earlier. Itupun because Zahra didn't have her nap tgh hari tadi. And only watch on laptop. Jadilah...

But boringnya cerita ni. Biasala cerita m.night shyamalam..

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Emir King

2011-12-16T17:27:00.003+08:00

Guess what I did today?

Went to The Curve with Emir! *lap peluh fuh fuh fuh*

This is my first time doing it, going out with my kids without MrComot. Yeah, I've becoming dependent on him since Zahra is born. Tak berani betul nak keluar sendiri. Well, technically I'm not alone, my sister is on leave, so we went out together, but still! MrComot kan lelaki, gagah perkasa, tukang bawak stroller, keluar dari kereta, lipat masuk kereta balik, naik turun escalator with the stroller... So without him..I'm a bit scared. Hehe..

Anyway we were doing well and Emir was sleeping in the car. But the moment he is in the stroller, terbeliak mata asyik tengok environment. The Christmas deco already up so he must be fascinated with the lights.

Throughout the outing, he refused to sleep even though I can see he's so sleepy. Nevertheless Emir is a very good boy, takde menanges ke apa, provided, the stroller has to be on the move! Hahaha. Kalau berhenti lama sikit je, start la ekk ekk ekkk.

Emir and mommy in front of the deco

Had this yummilicious grilled hotate at Sushi King, Ikano.

Again at Sushi King, Emir refused to sleep in the stroller because tak bergerak kan, dah la I ni bijak pandai tak bawak bantal ke lapik ke apa..kalau tak boleh letak on the bench. Nursed him twice and managed to eat peacefully. Nasib baik bawak nursing cover, so that I don't have to stop eating and find nursing room.

Emir going to taste the hotate later ok, in your milk ;)

I love going out during weekdays, less crowd, faster lunch (no queue, server pun laju), and parking is a breeeeeze! We managed to park right in front of the lift.

Anyway, I'm going to start working next Monday, so welcome back reality!

Have a good weekend everyone! :*

My 23months Darling

2011-12-15T13:40:00.000+08:00

Dah lama tak update pasal Zahra.. I have so many stories to share but susah betul nak ambil gamba dia, so keep on tangguh..

My little princess is now 23 months! One more month to become 2yo toddler.

Now dah cerdik and banyak akal. Knows empathy, will console us when we make sad face, and laugh when we laugh. Knows when I merajuk and will pujuk me. Tapi boleh tahan ego and degil. Not degil, strong will :) Kalau she upset and cry, and if I don't pujuk her, she will keep on crying until somebody call her up and pujuk, barulah berhenti. Sejam pun sejam la..sampai tersedak-sedak. She won't go to you asking for a pujukan.

Her favourite food is mushroom soup, not the creamy one, but the clear one. I just roughly mince the grey oyster mushroom, sauteed some garlic and onion, add water, add mushroom, sprinkle some salt and coarse black pepper, that's it! Suka betul.

Her medicine also going to finished by next week. She's on 1/2 a tab of prednisone. Doakan no more relapse for her yer..thanks.. *sniffles*

With the tapered steroid, her mood also getting better nowadays. Loves to play and less cranky.

Sleep at 1230-1 AM every night..this one I don't know how to do it dah.. She can sleep a bit earlier if I bagi my bak and peluk dia sampai tertido. The thing is, Emir pun nak susu time tu, so memang susah sikit la. So she will watch the iPad until I'm available for her or by 1AM memang tak boleh tahan mata, so tertidur sendiri. Poor baby :(

On the speech, still babytalk a lot.. can string two words already. Ni lambat sikit, I tengok orang lain relax je cakap full sentence kan. She just want to sebut the last sound..like if 'mamam ubat' she will say 'bat', 'Zahra berak' will say 'yek' only. Now ada a few things dia dah string it like 'mana mummy?', 'Emir bangun' and 'cat geget'.

Current obsession is upin ipin, no more boboiboy hehe. And barney! Woww..barney tu lama betul dia suka, until now! Loves to play masak-masak..I have to spare real pots and utensils for her and her most fav ingredient is bawang haha.

Current teeth, dah a pair of gigi taring upper and lower.

Oh ya, obsession on upin ipin and barney tu for video je. But for cloth, dah start being choosy and so obsessed with Minnie Mouse! Sikit sikit nak Minnie, sikit sikit Minnie. Kalau nak pujuk keluar from bathroom, kena bribe with baju Minnie. Baju siang Minnie, malam pun Minnie! Haishh.. I don't have the time to buy and nak cari lagi..but my MIL la beli banyak betul baju Minnie, thank you ma! And let say baju tu dah habis kotor, have to tell her and show to her baju Minnie in laundry bag and she will said 'Minnie..syuk! Ewww' sambil pinching her nose. Haha so cute. Then she will stop asking for Minnie. Also obsessed with Angry Birds, but not as bad as Minnie.

Another obsession is wearing hat! Ok, not exactly hat, tapi apa tu topi yg baby pakai. I bought for her masa dia baby dulu from pumpkin patch tapi sekali pun tak pernah pakai because it's hot ok. Motip sangat beli topi bulu2 tapi duduk tempat panas kan. Well, I was naive and excited to get a baby and it's freaking cute hehe. Anyway berbaloi jugak, now she wants to wear it. Of course it doesn't fit her, but it's stretchable so pakai main-main boleh la.

Yes you make your daddy smile! So happy ok pulling that thing.

Suka blame cat. Kalau tangan sakit 'mummy..cat geget..', padahal dia garu sendiri. Bila masa cat gigit ntahh.

Loves dancing. She will move her hips and henjut2 badan while watching any dancing video on the youtube.

Oh ya, she can jump already! About a few inches from the ground. Excited betul budak tu when she discovers it.

Talking about youtube, Zahra is an explorer. Kan when we watch any youtube clip there will be another recommended/related link by the side. She always tap tap tap the iPad and sometimes I saw her watching weird2 clips, like boroi man tiup balloon? It's a challenge series, the big man is topless and will tiup belon every day, different2 shape. Like apakahh..mana dia jumpa ni. Then pasal dentist, then budak2 swim in the pool, ok that's not weird, but I never put it in search engine, dia cari and jumpa sendiri.

Dah pandai skype with my parents. Dulu2 dia macam tak kisah when I ON the skype, I have to hold her in front of the camera, now dia dah understand, she will tersengih2 depan tu and do some sort of actions like flying kiss.

I still breastfeeding her and haven't potty train yet.

That's all that I can remember. Stay well my princess. Be strong and grow up healthily.. Nanti kita pegi jalan-jalan ok? Mummy loves you soooo much!

Feeling Blue..

2011-12-14T09:53:00.003+08:00

I'm busy sorting out my craft thing, especially my felt stash and found that..

I have blue felt in 5 shades!!!

Ok, boleh tak, tak ingat pun ada menda ni? *pitam*

Already finished cutting some felts to sell, but unfortunately not in all shades. Biru ni small cut je, so going to keep it for myself *loves!*

Toady Tuesday

2011-12-13T15:33:00.003+08:00

I'm on leave again today! I think nak cuti terus la habis this week. Next week baru start kerja. Emir is getting better, only some cough and just now he vomited out a batch of phlegm. Bagus baby! Kasi keluar itu semua.

Anyway, Emir Qalef is 2 months old! Well, 2mo 1w by today ;)

So let's see what he's up to.

Still pretty much a baby - sleeping! He sleeps through the day..and will wake in the evening and stay awake until 11PM or so. This time penat sikit because Zahra pun tidur lambat kan. I have to entertain both babies. Then he will sleep through the night until 5 or 6 AM in the morning, good boy!

Feeding pattern pun easy..maybe because I still direct feeding him, so just give whenever he wants it. I already introduce him to bottle and he's ok with it...SOMETIMES! Ok now that's a problem. A few days ago dia nak bottle, and today tanak pulak. You have to take sayang!! Nanti babysitter marah ok. Hmmm..so my milk went into the sink, 2 oz pulak tu. Confident sangat dia nak minum. I'll try smaller amount this evening.

Very happy baby! He smiles a lot, like a lot! Nak tidur pun senyum. I have a lot of his smiling pic compared to Zahra, I have one only I think. Zahra susah betul nak senyum...

He loves to chat and response to every sound I make. He coos, goos, gaas, laugh (seriously, I think I heard he laughs that day) and loves affection especially when I put him on my lap, support his head with both hands and look into his eyes, he will smile and start talking. Such a talkative sweetheart.

Doesn't mind if I don't carry him. Ok this one I don't know true or not but it works for both my babies, my mom said jangan ajar carry dia sangat, nanti asyik nak kita carry. So I leave them on the comforter or lembek since day 1. Jarang sangat dukung, I think I dukung dia time dia batuk je kut..just to comfort him, then lepas batuk terus letak balik. Well, it works! So I can do my own work and nak tidurkan pun no need to riba.

I managed to cut his nails, ummm twice! Not bad hehe. Last time punyala takut, my mom had to do it.

Poos twice a day. Pees a lot. Oh ya talking about this, that day dia sunat kan. Haa lalink Khairiah, penjagaan dia senang je. Just wash it like usual with warm water, no soap. Then letak the eye ointment (I think work as antiseptic) everytime you change the diaper. Awal2 tu sometimes I let him diaperless for awhile, sebab tanak kepam je dalam diaper kan, kalau mcm ni kena stand by la takut dia kencing or berak, lapik with pelapik getah tu siap2.. hmm that's it I think. And seriously baby senang lega, by day 5, the ring fall off by itself! It's a bit swollen after that, I just put ubat gamat for 1 day, then the next day totally healed, like magic. Seriously cepat sangat, u can see the transformation in a day. Macam hari ke-5 tu, the ring tercabut quarter..tgh hari dah half..and by night..eh eh tercabut semua!

So let see how smiley he is!

Don't you think the romper is the cutest? I bought it from FOS. The moment I found it, terus rummaged for another day but managed to find Wednesday and Sunday only. Nanti Emir pakai I show off ok.

Btw I love love love rompers from FOS (they carry babygap, carters, okiedokie, old navy brand, reject or tak ori I don't know but the material is superb) as they have the softest knit cotton ever! I ada beli jugak baju Emir from Baby Kiko, Pureen, etc..but still no match. Knit cotton jugak but not as soft and stretchable. If you found this Monday-Sunday romper, share it with me! :D

Dr Firdaus yg handsome

2011-12-12T11:50:00.001+08:00

Ok this entry is so not me, but couldn't help it so have to write about it.

Emir's cough and flu is quite bad on Saturday and he barely can sleep, woke up every 4 hours with blocked nose and can hear the phlegm. I know they normally don't give any medicine for 2 months baby, but maybe ada something for the blocked nose? We wait for a while but see no improvement on Sunday, so I decided to go to our regular clinic. (I stop using iliadin and nasal spray because it looks scary to me even though designed for infants).

So we went there and Dr Chua is unavailable, ada dr ganti. Terus kitaorg keluar from the clinic, tanak lah the dr ganti, had a bad experience with him. Last time about 2 weeks ago, Zahra got big nanah kat kepala and pecah, so bleeding quite bad, habis all the wet wipe soaked in blood, so pergi clinic and he don't even touch the head to check, just suluh with torchlight from far and suruh the nurse, clean here, clean there..hmm besar wound ni? kena warded..IV drip. Like wth.. I know he is a dr, tapi I dah lap the wound before so I know it's not that bad, cuma blood tanak stop. And my friend dah kena 2x with him, demam sikit je anak dia and suruh warded. So weird. Anyway we didn't admit Zahra to any hospital (I think it's ridiculous) and I just put ubat gamat, the dr don't even give us any antiseptic cream. Esok tengok ok je kepala Zahra.

Ok, so that's why we walked out the moment we heard dr ganti tu on duty that day so we just gamble went to other klinik.

We were the 1st patient and the dr is not there yet, have to wait for a while. Masa tu I was..haishhhh apa ni dr lambat. And then ada a young guy clad in tracksuit and jersey came in and bagi salam. I was like, ok..this is the dr ke? Baru balik jogging ke apa haha.

So yeah, when our name called, that's the dr. So I told him so and so..how Emir's nose blocked, every 4 hours bla bla..I gave him iliadin, nasal spray bla bla bla..

And the conversation gets interesting!

He explained to me a lot of thing that I feel like we are having some medical discussion for exams! Hahaha. And the best thing is, the way he talks, sooo sesuaiiii dengan I (ewwww apakah iniii? haha) I mean, he's so sweet, soft spoken, tak kelam kabut, good structure, easy to understand for a layman person like me, and very informative. He treat me like I'm a well educated person (you know..walaupun I bukan doctor, dia takde la anggap macam I dont understand what he's saying) and took the effort to elaborate even though it's simple matter, like how should I keep my room airy and reduce the usage of the aircond. Pandai betul dia cakap, I don't feel like dia anggap I stupid ke, and make me feel glad that he pointing it out.

He asked a lot and the most important thing, he listens a lot too! I cakap macam makcik ke, cakap ayat tak tersusun ke, he listen and respond well to my query. Ohhh I suka ok orang yg bijak macam ni. What a refined man.

And the plus bonus, he is quite handsome *cough* *cough*

Dah la dia tak suka bagi ubat suka-suka. U know what I mean? Even though I keep on saying kesian Emir I takut ada infection etc, he said it's ok. What his concern is, even though the medicine can help, tapi he more worry the sedative effect in the medicine. So kalau 2 months better not giving anything, unless he's irritable and very bad. Emir pee and poo like usual, doesn't reject feeding, so it should be ok. The phlegm also only at the throat, not in the lung. And he refused to give me antibiotic. REFUSED ok hahaha. He said, he can give, but he doesn't see why Emir needs it. Sbb it's more to viral, not bacteria since Emir tak demam. Just high temp when he is stress. Ohhhh I love this doctor. So detail and concern. Yeah..concern is the word! Btw, he gave Bisolvon (1ml dose) to break the phlegm, only if it's so bad. He even taught us how to break the phlegm naturally. He asked if I know how to, I said I know..tepuk2 kat belakang tu, but maybe my face mcm tak sure or he likes me *puke*, that he said, let me show you.

Awwwwwwwww so sweet lah youuuuu! Haha..

Then I told him, I'm worried Emir can't sleep because he spent most of the time coughing and nak termuntah, but tak muntah, you know lah baby they don't know how to spit it out yet. And Emir = not sleeping, seriously worrying me.

He just give the sweetest smile and said 'Don't worry, he will catch up'

Awwwwww..he knows what to say to erase my worry without bagi ubat to Emir.

Other than that, he's quite young you know..maybe around 30 top. And ingat tak he gave us salam first, masa dia masuk the clinic. Double awwwwww. I know it's common, but is it really common? Honestly nowadays dah jarang jumpa orang bagi salam..normally will say, 'pagi!' or 'morning!'.. Ni lembut je dia cakap, 'Assalamualaikum..'

Alahai..cairnya hati I haha..

And you know how melted I was? The moment I am out from the clinic, the first thing that came across of my head is..Is this dr has a girlfriend? If not I want to introduce him to my girlfriends! Punyala high prospect ni :P

Btw, I didn't know his name until we are at the counter to take medicine and the pharmacist answering a call, apparently somebody asking who is the dr in charge that day and she said, Dr Firdaus. Awwwww...so that's his name!

Anyway back to Emir, the phlegm still so bad that I decided to give 1 dose of the medicine (on the evening). Last night he vomit out a big batch of phlegm (thank God!) and I decided to take EL today. Kesian pulak Emir nak terus hantar ke babysitter. Lagipun nanti budak lain jangkit, I will feel very bad. But Alhamdulillah so far so good, he managed to sleep through the night, no more blocked nose and cough sikit je, and still sleeping until now! Wow..that's really a catch up!

Unwell Prince

2011-12-09T15:43:00.003+08:00

Emir is unwell. Fever, cold, and cough, all in one package. Kesian dia nak tidur pun tak boleh. I tried to suck out the hingus but still sangkut and resort to iliadin drop (just bought and read the pamphlet inside, scary ok the side effects of OD or for sensitive people, which include vomiting, nausea, cardiac arrest --> wth!) Anyway after a drop of iliadin, he coughs so bad and vomit out all the milk, siap keluar through hidung lagi. First time macam tu, kesian dia. But I don't know was it because of his cough or iliadin.

Anyway the blocked nose clear and he finally fell asleep now.

Zahra first time demam masa she was 3months old and Emir masa 25 days dah kena, and now is the 2nd time, about 2 months. Takpe lah, in a way it will help him to build up the antibody. Only that I'm a tad worry because we are going to send him to babysitter next Monday. Hopefully he is well by that time. And I can't afford to take any leave because have to finish some work *sigh*

Get well soon my little prince!

The Prince Story

2011-12-08T09:25:00.007+08:00

Cepatnya masa berlalu, my confinement period is over and going back to work next week *sigh*. How I wish I can stay at home longer.

Before I bury myself in the workload, I better write about Emir's birth story.

I had a very tiring pregnancy with Emir. Maybe because the age factor, and a toddler in hands. The EDD was 6th Oct and MrComot already anxious since a week before. He keep on saying I have to take leave because I'm not that fit anymore and he has this hunch that my delivery will be very fast and he's afraid that he couldn't send me to the hospital on time if we are working.

I said no laaaa...sebab during Zahra I got signs, like bloody show, a week before! And then I started rasa sakit sikit2 since morning, tengah malam baru deliver, so it's like 12 hours sign, should be enough for us to rush to TMC.

I had checkup with Dr Fidak on 4th Oct where we did the CTG monitor, there is some contractions but irregular, so kitaorg macam, ok la...lambat lagi ni and next appointment will be on the next Saturday (8th Oct).

I went to work like usual on 5th Oct..bla bla bla..normal stuff. Pick up Zahra after work, went to my PIL for dinner, had some yummy Sari Ratu's gulai tunjang, seriously sedapnya.. my MIL tapau-ed the food. Finished the dinner and lepak2 at my PIL when around 930PM I started to feel some pain. I feel so uncomfortable and excused ourselves back to home.

At home, the pain is stronger but I'm afraid it's false alarm, so I keep on tawaf satu rumah because I read, kalau nak tahu betul ke tak, try to walk when the contraction comes, if still sakit, means betul lah. I tawaf tawaf tawaf but still sakit giler that I had to bend down and cringed in pain everytime the contraction hit me. My face must be look so sakit that Zahra came to me and said, 'Mummy..dah dah..' while patting my body, macam nak console me. I cried because terkejut, tak pernah Zahra buat mcm tu. Sooo sweet... And Zahra pun macam terkejut tengok my condition.

The most shocking part is, I time my contraction while tawaf dalam rumah and it's 3 minutes apart, like seriously? That time around 1030PM macam tu, and I think that's it la, it's real! So I said nak pegi hospital, took my time to had hot shower while MrComot prepared the half boiled egg. I tried to eat the egg tapi half je, sakit sangat sampai nak termuntah.

My PIL came to the house to take care of Zahra (thank God they are around) and we rushed to the hospital. Dr Fidak request me to SMS her if I'm about to deliver, but I still degil tanak SMS that day because masa Zahra I admit 830PM, deliver 1140PM, so banyak gap kan..I want to do the vagina check dulu, takut tak buka lagi, sakit je beriya, malu lah I. Hahaha boleh lagi fikir mcm tu. I planned sampai sana they check and then baru call or whatever la depends on the situation.

Sampai dekat ER, the nurse was shocked tengok my face during contraction that she said, 'she's in high contraction!' and quickly shove me into the wheelchair and run to the delivery room. RUN ok! I was like, betul ke minah ni? Teruk sangat ke my face.

Sampai je delivery room, the midwives check me and said I'm almost ready, it's 6cm! Masa tu semua dah panic. They call Dr Fidak and I already feel like to push, the midwives ask me to hold on because my waterbag still intact, so takut the womb bengkak. She also told me sorry no painkiller because already 6cm, it's too late, no point giving me, or I'll muntah afterwards. So I said ok lah..I want the laughing gas. But it was so painful, nak sedut laughing gas pun tak larat. I think sedut less than 10 times kut. After contraction je I terkulai layu. Then rest kejap contraction balik, must be 1 mins apart I guess.

Oh ya, I cried ok masa dia cakap 6cm tu, sebab..I feel too rushed! Rasa macam tak ready sangat nak deliver.

Then around 11 something I guess, the doctor came and guess what? I tak kenal okkk siapa haha. Apparently Dr Fidak is somewhere a bit further than Kota Damansara that time and they don't think she can make it, looking at my condition, so they replace with standby doctor. The dr gave salam and introduce herself (thank God for lady doctor! I segan sket with dr lelaki) and after checking me dia cakap I dah ready. She puts on her glove and break the water-bag and the baby already crowning! The doctor tak sempat pakai apron pun, eh what we call it, baju surgery tu.

I already feel the urge to push so she just sit in front of my leg and I push so hard and Emir came out, and Dr Arifah sambut the baby, in her t-shirt and jeans haha. And no episiotamy, sebab seriously tak sempat nak potong ke apa.

As simple as that!

Anyway talking about the delivery, it's totally different than Zahra. This time I can feel every single moves during the delivery process. I can feel the head come out from my V, and the the shoulder, and I can even feel the placenta going out also! Subhanallah, it was so surreal, such a miracle moment. Masa Zahra tak rasa sangat semua tu, maybe sebab high on laughing gas..

Then the nurse put Emir on my chest and again I cried, he feels soooooo warmmmmm...memang a bun from the oven. Dr Arifah proceed with withdrawing the cord blood, we finally opted to do the stem cells, with StemTech, a sister company to TMC.

Everything else also was so quick, Dr Arifah and the nurses cleaned me up and that's it! She congratulate me and said no stitch required. Even natural tear pun tak ada. I was so surprised.. but Alhamdulillah..

Cara deliver this time memang funny. Dulu masa Zahra siap ada letak kaki on the tempat kaki to hold my feet during pushing, letak CTG kat perut to see the contraction, kira proper la, semua lengkap. Time Emir, so basic, I just hold my legs with my hands, CTG pun ntah ke mana, local painkiller tak ada, Dr Arifah pun duduk bersimpuh elok je depan my kaki, and sambut baby. And done. Lepas tu boleh borak2 with MrComot and I keep on telling him that I can feel Emir keluar from down there. Macam tak percaya. And the first thing I ask after that is a cup of hot milo. So hungry! Haha..

Oh ya, I also tak sempat ambil the ubat berak. Forgot what is the medical term for it, kan before u deliver nurse will give so you'll clean ur bowel, takde la terberak during delivery ke apa. It was too rushed but I remember about it so I siap tanya 'Ok ke saya tak makan ubat berak tu lagi, nobody give me'. Hahaha the nurse marah gelak2 ok..she said it's ok, u dah nak beranak dah ni, u berak atas ni pun it's ok, don't worry about it'. Darn funny.. too sober, too conscious.

So Emir is born at 11.40PM, same time with Zahra, and on 5th Oct, a day ealier than the EDD, also same like Zahra! (Zahra's EDD is 11th Jan, delivered on 10th Jan). So cute la derang ni..

Below are few pics during the event:

My maternity room - Ostrich!

And next to Zahra dulu, Owl room :D

Emir on 7th Oct

Emir on 6th Oct

Zahra on 6th, came to visit me and the first thing she cari is bak. Adoi.. macam dia pulak baby, sleeping with me on the bed.

My first meal in the morning, bihun goreng kosong with fish porridge. I finished all and still feel so hungry!

My mom and dad came down the next day but I stayed at the hospital for another 2 nights because my mom is not so well, so macam tanak susah kan siapa2 to cook my lunch and dinner. Makan kat hospital la senang. Lagipun Zahra a bit cranky, I wrote about that in past entries.

MrComot suka lah.. he said his hunch is always right and this time, that I'm going to deliver that soon, and fast, betul2 jadi. He said the next time could be less than an hour. He keep on saying, 'tu laa.. taknak dengar cakap hubby, nasib baik beranak malam, kalau siang kat ofis, memang tak sempat dah sampai tropicana. Next time kena ambil cuti bila dah dekat2 ni'.

Ya la..ya la..I'll listen to you ok? And what's this next time? Pengsan..tunggu la 2-3 tahun lagi, insyAllah.. :)

Oh ya, teringat pasal bagi ubat. The next day (6th Oct) is medicine day for Zahra. Nobody can give her, including the nurse. Sebab Zahra datang hospital kan, so the nurse try bagi, siap wrap her with blanket, still she can struggle out. Lagipun I think the nurse takut kut, Zahra nanges giler and takut tercekik. In the end MrComot and I jugak yg bagi, and if only we can amik video how we force her to eat the medicine. Awal2 dulu I nanges, now not anymore. But kesian kat dia, dah almost 6 months, still degil tanak get used to it, so nak buat macam mana, terpaksa la 'kejam' sikit.. Sampai skrg still MrComot akan peluk ikat dia and I picit hidung dia and tekan her cheeks and she will ketap2 gigi and menjerit2, and I have to paksa jugak dia buka mulut and shot sikit2. The skill is, not to make her muntah. Sigh..Zahra...

Girls..

2011-12-07T16:42:00.002+08:00

..will always be girls. No matter how tough and independent you are. At least in my case.

Tengah pump susu tadi and suddenly the lightning strike twice. And everything is off, fan, internet, fridge, etc. I was like..aaahhh sudahhhhh. I don't like it.

Well, I know I can do it, tap the power back, like I can change bulb, only IF I HAVE TO. Other than that, I'll gladly leave it to gentlemen.

So first thing first, whatsapp MrComot, playing damsel in distress. Hopeless and scared which lead to question

'sayang know how to do it tak?'

Then, action!

Of course la I know, tapi lengkap ngan glove ok, as resistant. Dalam hati debar je padahal the safety switch is..safety enough for you to push it back with your bare hands hehehe.

We don't have torch light btw, hmmm we do, but I don't know where is it, so I used Zahra's torchlight hehe. So comel!

SuperDad

2011-12-06T11:08:00.002+08:00

I'm so busy these few days. Emir punya bird is healing. Cepat betul, but I was cautious so takleh fikir nak tulis apa. Asyik risau tengok bird dia hehe. And Zahra pulak got flu bug since Friday and last night complete with cough and occasional high temp. Kitaorg kalau Zahra demam ke batuk ke apa ke, stress sangat sebab takut Nephrotic dia naik. And smalam gigih tunggu her to pee and after dip stick, the result naik sikit +1. Rasa nak nanges pun ada. Semua orang jadi tension giler. And this morning check, it's back to trace, Alhamdulillahhhhhhh...

Not to mention we had to make her cry to go to sleep because she simply refused to sleep walaupun dah yawn berkali2 and mata dah bengkak2! Tak faham betul. We thot because of the iPad, macam kita la..dah mengantuk tapi ada movie best, so gigih tengok ni. So kitaorg siap jerkah marah (uhh sorry baby, so tired already) and sembunyi the iPad..menanges giler2 nak jugak. Last2 she slept at 1.30AM *sigh*

We were so tensed last night with the combo, flu cough dont want to sleep and Emir pun can't sleep if Zahra tak sleep. Derang ni macam kembar ok. The moment Zahra full volume, automatic Emir pun cries his lung out. Kalau Emir nanges, Zahra pun sibuk menangis. Sometimes nak tergelak, but kalau time penat, mmg geram sangat.

Before sleep, MrComot whatsapp me

'We try to sabar k, me love u, always'

Awww...thanks for keeping my sanity. Even though he is tired as well, he always remember about me.

Well that's family right. Macam-macam ragam. And kids..they are our sunshine, sometimes the shine is too strong that it burns your skin, sometimes the shine is so soft that lull your soul. Mommy always love you guys :*

Anak Bujang

2011-12-03T11:32:00.002+08:00

Emir officially anak bujang now!! The procedure done yesterday, Friday morning with Dr Hamid Arshad and Alhamdulillah everything went well.

Anyway I thot it would be simple and easy. Yes..it is simple and easy actually, they use plastibell, only that I don't expect it turn out to be a bit disturbing to me haha. Especially masa trim tepi2 plastibell tu, the kulit kan tebal..mcm trim kain pulak. Halfway I rasa nak pitam ok, like seriously! I had to sit on a chair to calm myself. I'm not afraid of blood or surgery or whatever..tapi sebab tak expect mcm tu kut, so dizzy haha.

Anyway the doc gave eye ointment to put around the cut as antiseptic. They also gave local anesthestic. Emir tak meragam langsung malam tu thank God. Only siang tu, after 3-4 hours dia merengek2 sikit, I think the bius dah wear off.

No pic although I brought the camera, tapi bila nak ON je, battery flat! Haishh..my camera pun dah old..battery pun tak tahan padahal baru charge. Then my phone pun flat! Terlupa nak charge. And my hubby's phone can't take pic sbb email byk incoming, memory full. Macam2 ok.

So I leave this entry with happy picture instead.

Zahra singing twinkle twinkle little star to Emir. Tengok jari dia tu, siap ada action

Oh ya, they gave us back the skin in a jar for us to tanam, just like u tanam uri kan. I don't have the heart to snap a pic of it, as it is disturbing! Haha...

Enjoy ur weekend everyone!

Just another rant

2011-11-30T16:03:00.002+08:00

Sedar tak sedar, dah almost 2 months I in confinement and am supposed to go back to work next Monday! Pitam. Plan to take unpaid leave tapi kelam kabut tak buat. And am using my annual leave now.

Well, nak hantar Emir to the babysitter pun dah ok now, he seems so big and tough. And he's fine with bottle feed, so settle satu masalah. But ada masalah2 lain pulak, like I haven't urut with k.Ain (for the last time before masuk kerja), Emir takde baju!!!!, Emir tak sunat lagi, etc etc.. sigh

We plan to sunat Emir mmg since baby, but dekat Tropicana takde dr laki muslim, so balik rumah ting tong ting tong tangguh until now. So now or never! Haha takde la never..now or tunggu nanti dah besar. I prefer now sebab I dont want to deal with drama nak menanges apa ke menda nanti besar nanti. And it's easily healed pun kalau time baby. So Emir baru 2 bulan, ok la..dia tak meniarap lagi, still can do.

And now kelam kabut call this hosp that hosp to check the availability. My gynea recommend Pantai (Dr Zain) and his charge is RM850!!! I never know it can be that expensive. Then I asked around, call again, at clinic around 250-300 je. So decided to do at clinic je, with dr Hamid Arshad. Dr Zain tu general surgeon, that's why mahal kut.

So settle satu hal, then urut nanti la..and beli baju..nanti la. Emir ada 4 helai sleepsuit je, and baju siang pakai je apa yg ada mismatch naju Zahra. Most of them dah tak muat, panjang jugak budak ni. So have to buy for babysitter. Skrg ni ok lagi as I can wash during the weekdays.

Oh ya, I use my annual leave balance for another week. So maybe hantar Emir to babysitter middle of Dec. Hopefully by then all settled. Anyway babysitter pun satu hal. She has to take care 7 kids now. Banyak kan.. MrComot cakap nak buat trial 2 months tengok Emir ok ke tak..sebab ada another baby there. And then lagi 2 bulan ada another baby. And next 2 bulan another baby!!!! Kebetulan semua yg hantar kat situ mengandung. So nanti ada 11 budak include 4 babies!! I dengar pun macam nak pitam. Tengoklah mcm mana. Kalau tak ok or kitaorg mcm tak sedap hati sgt, kena find solution lain :(

Bunnies

2011-11-30T08:12:00.000+08:00

Zahra got new house slipper! And it's freaking cuteeeeeeee!!!

I bought mine long time ago and Zahra lovesss to wear my slipper. It's too big for her so I bought her the smallest size I could find.

I couldn't find the same bunnies btw, so Zahra punya comot sikit hahaha. But anything in smaller size is way cuter!

Anyway the smallest size still a tad big for her that she keep on slipping it off. So I sew a black 3/8" elastic at the back. Ala...macam getah pinggang tu. I've seen my mom using it dulu but for what, I dah lupa. Bought for a pack from Daiso at RM5.

And it's ready! Snugly and fit her nicely. When she's bigger, I can cut the elastic off.

Cute oversize bunnies on my feet!

Zahra in action! Hehe sneaky betul, can't take a proper pic of her that day. Lari sana sini.

Btw, she still prefers my bunny instead of hers! Nak jugakkk pakai yg mummy isk isk isk...

And the Routine Begins..

2011-11-29T09:15:00.003+08:00

After a few months on pumping vacation (I stopped pumping around April 2011), now the routine begins. In fact this is a bit late compared during Zahra. I started to pump when she was 3 days old! Talking about semangat. And I managed to stock up a lot..like, A LOT! I was thinking that if I die, the milk can last Zahra for a year (my freezer freeze at -20, so macam deep freezer), that's how a lot. But most of them went to waste because she started to reject my EBM when she was about 13months.

So afraid sejarah mungkin berulang, I decided not to overdo it. I plan to just stock up a bit for emergencies and give Emir freshly pumped everyday. Kalau cukup. No no no. Can't say kalau cukup untuk breastfeed, MESTI CUKUP! I have to motivate myself, my body and brain that the milk is gonna be enough for daily supply. InsyaAllah..semuanya dengan izin Tuhan jugak..

Anyway talking about breastfeeding and pumping, honestly I feel a bit tired of it *sigh*. It is just a small feeling that linger in the air when I'm worn out. You know..something like this 'haishh...kena pam/susu again :('. Maybe it's part of the postpartum blues. Hopefully I can get it over soon. Breastmilk is the best and purest source to nourish them.. I'm keeping that in mind as my motivation and hopefully I can BF Emir at least for a year. Then we'll move to another a year *positive! positive!*

This morning session. So sleepy and have this strong urgency to go back to sleep after say bye-bye to MrComot and Zahra, but Emir is still sleeping, so I have to pump out, else susu kurang nanti, rugi.. Semangat! Come come to me!

And my sweetpea's latest pic! He is one smiley baby!

Ahh I forgot to write about Zahra and Emir punya progress. Later later..

Anyway, salam Muharram to everyone! What's ur resolution? Mesti Islamic punya sebab bulan Islam kan hehe. Mine as usual la, want to do more in ibadah, be a better person, a better wife, bla bla bla..same old story :( Must try harder to achieve it! And I was intrigued by one of my friend's status in FB, he says that Muharram means we have 9 months to Ramadhan! How fast time flies! Hope dipanjangkan umur for this Ramadhan, amin..

Buttons Overload

2011-11-25T10:19:00.002+08:00

Remember when I created paypal account to buy craft supplies? Well..the parcel is already here... and it's an overload!

Well, I know I ordered quite a sum..because that's the minimum buy *see see see fell for their trick* but I don't expect it's gonna be, too much? Hahaha. Now scratching my head what I'm going to do with it.

Actually I'm ok with the amount because..well, I like it so much. Even though I couldn't finish it. I like to have the stocks and simpan like forever haha. I know I'm weird like that.. But the moment MrComot saw this package, he exclaimed,

'Sayang nak buka kilang ke apa?'

Haha dia xdela marah, surprised kut, ok ok..so I know I went overboard *sigh*. And now I'm thinking of selling some of these. Only that, I'm too lazy to sort it out and snap pic and pack and sell.. and the hardest, to calculate how much each button cost me and how much should I sell. Susah okkkk.... haha. I'm not a businessman by nature.

But but..kena let go jugak kut..not to mention my felt and ribbon stock lagi. Sigh sigh sigh.

So watch out this space crafters. I'm gonna sell some.. only that I don't know when! Ok..maybe before end of this year, since I'm in 'holiday' kan. And before MrComot menyampah tengok my craft supplies. Haha. Seriously, I'm so takut nowwwwwww!!

Morning Sunshines

2011-11-25T09:14:00.003+08:00

Zahra...zahra...pagi2 dah mintak Emir to sleep on her stomach.

'mummyyy..babyyyy..bum!' while pointing to her stomach.

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Another busy days

2011-11-25T07:29:00.003+08:00

Am not complaining..cuma kebetulan kan..so rasa penat sangat. That day the bbsitter's brother passed away, so seminggu me with Zahra. And this morning got a call, her niece pulak passed away. And kebetulan I did't send Zahra to bbsitter yesterday because MrComot had important work in CBJ so tak sempat nak send dia. And I dah berangan2 dlm otak smalam, bestnya Zahra pegi bbsitter today, as I need to clear up some work. Hmm seems kena tangguh la. So this means thursday - monday, another 5 days with her. I don't mind really, it's just am a bit worn out. Tenaga, mariiiiiiiiiiiii cepat. Ok gotta wallop big breakfast, long day to go.

Oh ya..everyday ada update, including today at 10, semua tu scheduled ok. Byk sgt cerita bertangguh nak tulis dlm ni.

Salam hari jumaat everyone. Semoga hari kita diberkati Allah SWT. Selamat bekerja ;)

Baby Junk Food

2011-11-24T10:18:00.000+08:00

Dah lama tak update about Zahra's food. Well, we still make her soups everyday. But lately the babysitter said she doesn't want her soups anymore. I guess because she sees everybody else eating different meal? Sebab kat rumah ok je dia makan. Last week when she is with me the whole week, pun ok je. So we still cook it.

We still don't give her any junk food, bukan la sebab strict sangat but I saw her eating some junks at babysitter even though I dah bagitau tak boleh salt/junk food to Zahra..but sometimes we caught her in action, so takpelah..I am thinking, since dia dah 'termakan' kat sana je, kat rumah no-no. Anyway, we gave her sumi jelly when she was on 4 tabs prednisone to pujuk her after the medication and she keep on asking for the sumi jelly after that. It's not that bad because dia makan pun 1-2 je but somehow macam tak best so I decided to make our own junk food.

This kristal jeli tastes exactly like sumijelly! But not as sweet... and less chemical (I guess, haven't studied on it).

And the best thing is, for one packet we can get approximately 8 x 50ml cube. So everytime Zahra asking for sumi, we'll give only 1 cube.

But I don't give this to her everyday. Normally on medicine day, depends on her situation. There are days when she keep on asking for sumi and I don't think she really wants it, so I just said 'sumi dah habis..nanti daddy beli kat Giant ok?' and she'll reply, 'Jaaaayeeenn, yeayy!' sambil angkat tangan macam shout hooray, tanda excited.. haha so comel.

This is my 3rd packet and I can see that Zahra not that excited with this 'sumi' anymore, like the first time. Maybe because one flavour jer, Mango. Ada lagi satu flavour strawberry, but tak berani bagi because dah 3 incident she has allergy with strawberry flavoured food. Real strawberry ok pulak.

So maybe I should start thinking other junk food that is..less junk?

Ohh agar-agar dia tak suka! But maybe I can try do it again with different flavour/approach.. Hmmm... So what's ur kid punya junk food?

Mystery

2011-11-23T10:03:00.000+08:00

Remember when I told that MrComot has this pain at his fingertips and tapak kaki, and some red spots? Well, he's all fine and thank God it wasn't measles. But at the same time, it remains a mystery to us!

The doctor said it could be allergy, and the pain is because water retention at those area, causing the skin to swell. He was prescribed with antihistamine but it doesn't work. Normally if you have allergy reaction and you take the antihistamine, the allergy will off like, almost immediately. MrComot punya last more than a week. Mula2 the red dots at fingertips and tepi2 tapak kaki, then it climbing down..ke tapak tangan, etc. So weird...

And after the red dots gone, the skin peeling off. The picture below taken 3 days ago, only at fingertips, and now the peeling is moving to the fingers and under the feet.

And another weird thing is, MrComot only consume normal food, so we are wondering what causing the allergy. MrComot punya theory lagi dahsyat, he said he think blood poisoning. He cleaned some fish that day, and got cut and the fish blood seep into the cut. Haha..well..it could be, but don't you think it's a bit exaggerate?

Not to mention this is our first time to witness such allergy. Normally ada rashes or hard to breath, but pain at fingertips and feet + red dots + water retention? Sooo weird and it remains mystery to us!

Blistering Blue Barnacles!

2011-11-22T10:12:00.000+08:00

Tintin the movie is here! Well, that's old news I guess, and I don't think I will have a chance to watch it at cinema so I'm not pretty excited about it but when Wahdi wrote about his trip in Brussels where Tintin is originated, uwaaaaaaaaaaaaa jelesnya!! I want to watch Tintin! Well, I want to go to Brussels too, but that is far impossible hehe.

If you read my blog since early days, I've wrote about Tintin and I think I wrote more in blogdrive (but the account was deleted by admin because I was inactive for so long :( ). I started collecting Tintin since I was in uni days..that is like 6-8 years ago! And tell you what, I have all the series!! Mwahahahahahaha

My mom used to say, 'apa ni beli buku kartun mahal-mahal'. Ya lahhh..I am like 20 plus already and maybe she thinks Tintin is kartun budak2? And it is expensive! At least to me. Those days, it was priced at RM29.90 or so, and I went high and low looking for the best bargain and found my love snuggled in Chowrasta bookstore! It's a secondhand bookstore, not really a store, more like a shabby place filled with books and magazines from floor to the roof. But they also selling new books, and my Tintin all is newwwww...at only RM20!!

Oh my..I miss that place so much. This is one of the entry about it. I used to spend hours and hours on every outing and the uncle siap kenal I ok. But now I'm not sure if he still remember me, as it was years ago. Funny thing is, I kinda miss him too. He's so knowledgeable and good with books. If I looking for some titles, he knows exactly where to dig it and if he doesn't have it, he will recommend me another title/author but more or less is sooo my taste. Terer uncle tu! Last time I saw him when I went there with MrComot, he's so old already, and gained some weight. I hope he's doing well now... Oh ya, this is also the place I bought all my Sidney Sheldon's! Those were the days..

Anyway, after reading Wahdi's entry, I quickly went to upstairs to find my Tintin and could only find 4 of them!!! Dangg! I forgot that the rest is in Terengganu. I'm gonna bring all of them here! ASAP! Haha.

The only 4. Still in mint condition and crisp like new! I handle and flip it like holding a baby, so precious and carefully :P

You can see all the titles behind. I have them all except the last one, Tintin the Alph-Art. That one is special, not the comic itself, I think more like the sketches collection of Tintin. Anyway I couldn't find it anywhere, even in MPH/Kino/Borders/etc..

This comic also translated to dozens of language worldwide!

Oh ya, blistering blue barnacles is Captain Haddock's famous expressions :D

Weaning Zahra

2011-11-21T14:00:00.000+08:00

As promised before, this is the story how we managed to wean Zahra! Yeayyyy!

Err...but but..we decided not to wean her. Boleh? So complicated. Nevermind, cerita satu2 dulu hehe.

As I wrote before, weaning a toddler (2yo) is hard because breastfeeding has become an emotional attachment to them, not as the drinking source. Kalau orang Melayu cakap, macam ketagih ganja! It's true..the moment Zahra latch on me, berpeluh-peluh dia macam syok giler sampai I pun saiko tengok ok. Are u ok? Are u ok? Haha. And now that she latches on me after come back from babysitter, normally the milk is gone already, I susukan Emir siap-siap, dia tak kisahh..bukan nak susu, saja je nak melekap. The first thing she asks when she steps into the house is 'bak' not mommy. Grrr....

I already can adapt 'two' babies and pretty much okay with Zahra bf-ing but during sleep time, it is very hard..because Emir will wakes up and I have to BF Emir and Zahra pun sibuk nak. I BF Emir with mengiring position and Zahra sanggup climb over to latch on the other boob. Gigih ni. Kalau kejap-kejap I won't mind, sometimes she's so sleepy so she is not that sober and doesn't feel 'kelenguhan' tonggeng nak melekap, so it will take sometimes, but I feel it, sakit pinggang ok. So I said, that's it, kena wean jugak.

I've put a lot of thing at my bak before, even ubat gamat, dia tak kisah ok. And this is the only thing that works for her...

Asam jawa!!!

It works on the first try, and until now! The moment she latch, she was stunned with the taste and stare at me and said;

'bak...yekkk!' (mommy's boobs got poop)

Apparently she thought that's how poop tastes like ahaha. Then I quickly said:

'hah? Ada yek? Suruh daddy wash'

And she rushed out from the room to her daddy while crying asking MrComot to carry her and wash her mouth. Hahaha.. for the first time I managed to sleep peacefully. Then when she woke up in the middle of the night, she asking for a latch, I will say, tak boleh, ada yek. Then she will say..'yekk..' with a very sad tone and went back to sleep. I'm so sedih too...see...I told ya, it's emotional attachment. Even myself not ready to let her go :(

Anyway she keep on asking for BF the next day, but then she will stop and told me my bak got yek and ask me to wash! Wahhh budak kecik ni dah improvised! Because she knows she can wash her mouth kan. So I just said, 'mommy dah wash, tapi ada yek jugak'. Then she will look pitifully at me and said 'bak..yek..washhh..eeeeeeee' and forget about bak after that. Haha that part tak sedih, dia cakap with cheeky tone.

By the way, I didn't do everytime because she never stop asking, and I have to go to the kitchen and open fridge and sapu and then basuh again when Emir pulak nak susu, so a bit hassle. So whenever she asks and my boob is empty, I just give it. So I think it gives her a wrong message that sometimes the yek is there, sometimes not. Whatever it is, the trick still works. I only do it during the weekend because she'll be with me the whole day kan..sikit2 mintak, susah la. During weekdays, I just layan her, only that I have to be smart, like BF Emir siap-siap before she comes back or pump some milk out for Emir later.

Talking about why I didn't wean her totally yet..well to be honest, I'm not ready. And I can feel she is not ready too.

And she has become a very good girl and sister. Sometimes, she just come and asking for bak, latch for a while, less than a minute and back continue her play. She doesn't get angry or upset anymore whenever I feed Emir and she understands that Emir need to drink.

Paling sedih after dia makan ubat in the morning, the medicine is so bitter that she'll ask for BF immediately. It's the only comfort source for her, for now... I have no heart to stop it yet. She's gonna finished the medication next month..so I'll see where it will take us from there. For now, I'm not gonna wean her totally.

So yeah, that's my story. If you are about to wean your kids, you can try this method! It's natural and harmless :D

20112011

2011-11-21T10:15:00.004+08:00

Congratulations to my darling friend, Cik Kopi on her big day yesterday. She finally become a Mrs on 20.11.2011 at 11.20am!! I wonder how much she bribed the tok kadi to make it on time hahahaha. Anyway didn't get to witness such a wonderful event as Emir is only 1 month old, stay at home it is! I am scaredy cat like that. Sorry darling, but you know my prayers are always with you.

Anyway I am a bit sad today. It's medicine day, and have to struggle with Zahra as usual. But today slightly different, she gave this sad, soft cry and muka dia all the way sedih until tied at the car seat. I sit beside her and explain to her slowly, 'Zahra..mommy so sorry Zahra kena makan ubat. It's gonna be over soon. Sikit je lagi ok..Zahra strong girl kan' and she just looking at me with her teary eyes, I couldn't help it but cry as well. Dia dah pandai sekarang, 1y 11m, dah faham banyak menda. Kesian dia..mesti dia confuse, 'why I have to eat ubat even though I don't have cold/flu/fever'.. Sabar yer sayang..1 more month, insyaAllah..

Choc of the Day: Ritter Sport Whole Almonds

2011-11-20T22:32:00.002+08:00

Another old stock bought from Langkawi. Filled with frangrance crunchy roasted almonds. Dulu this is my most fav choc but now falls to #2 after I tasted the previous one - whole hazelnuts :D

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Sunflower vs Sweet Pea, Turkey vs Spring Chicken

2011-11-18T12:50:00.000+08:00

Giving birth to Zahra and Emir open my life to two different world. Both of them are different in so many ways. Even the birth experience I had also different. Oh ya, I haven't share Emir's birth story. Tu nanti2 lah..

Talking about them, the moment I see them, different feeling flows into my heart.

Macam kalau Zahra, if I see her, I see sunflower! Sparkly and bright, shining me with all happy thing and full with energetic vibes. As for Emir, whenever I look at him, I feel like staring at sweet pea. So gentle and soft, giving me the calming and patience effect. My little sweet thing.. In a way, I find it amusing, as Emir manage to give me the feeling. Because he is a boy, yet so sweet, melt my heart. And Zahra, a little girl that rock my heart.

My Sunflower!
She did that face when I ask her to smile hehe

My Sweet Pea!

And both of them

By the way, we also have inside joke where we call Zahra, turkey and Emir, spring chicken because both of them were born with the same weight 3.4kg and yet so different. Zahra was so bam-bam and Emir on the other hand, so skinny that there is barely meat hanging on the leg. His face might look normal or quite chubby but wait till you see the kaki, seriously ayam kampung! Haha..

Kaki ayam kampung after a month. Before ni lagi kecik! Forgot to snap a pic of it

Happy Friday everyone. Have a good weekend!

Love ties

2011-11-17T18:31:00.002+08:00

Wahhhhh...ada masa pulak update blog today. Not really la..both babies are sleeping now, and I can't sleep on the evening, nanti sakit kepala. Ayway they finally asleep after

1) emir - bf more than an hour
2) zahra - kena marah sampai nanges2

My MIL brought her back around 230 as she's so sleepy and throwing tantrum, so i thought yeayyyy senangla, terus tido je nnt. TAK okkkkkk... She asking for bak, so I bagi je nak suruh dia tido, tak ada maknanya, she keep on rolling, pulling my hair, climbing on me, biting, kissing Emir yg dah halfway nak tertido, terus terbuntang2 mata, etc. And Emir dah restless want feeding, so I have to baring mengiring BF Emir and Zahra climbing2 on me. I just let her, because normally she will sleep after melekap mcm tu, tapi sampai 330 tak sleep2 and my pinggang pun dah lenguh, so sheikh kemarahan sudah tiba. I pun jerkah sekali kat dia, terus nanges and BAMMMM she fell asleep. Like that can?

Oh ya pasal tajuk..actually pasal last night. Betul la orang tua cakap anak tu pengikat kasih sayang. Not to say without anak, kasih sayang tak terikat...ikat jugak, but bila ada anak somehow u have to let go ur ego more than usual, hence the love kembali terjalin faster :p

Macam last night...both babies are in the room with me. It was around 1030pm macam tu and MrComot as usual with his laptop but Zahra n Emir still not sleeping. I was feeding Emir and Zahra boring kut ngan iPad dia so she walkout from the room and pegi kacau daddy, asking to sit on the lap and watch youtube from daddy's laptop. MrComot was so busy and stressed out and said;

'Zahra, zahra nak daddy tido kul 4 ke? Daddy kena buat banyak keja. Daddy ambik maid la macam ni. Zahra duduk ngan maid tu'

I was tired as well and hearing those really ticked me off. I feel like, helooooo ur work is more important than ur anak ke apa? But I know he always busy mcm tu, cuma bengang bila part cakap nak letak kat maid tu.

Emir tengah BF time tu, I terus cabut my boobies and went out and heret Zahra away from my hubby with half-yelling

'Zahra jangan kacau daddy!'

And Zahra of course la crying.

Then MrComot ask me why I am mad, I said mana ada marah, dah u busy sangat nak tido kul 4. Hahaha..ntah apa2 my reply.

In my heart pulak, fineeeeee tanak layan Zahra sangat, i wont let zahra go kacau him again. Baru tau nanti rindu zahra la apa la..seee keji kan the thought?

So pagi tadi balas dendam bangun awal..after BF Emir n tuck zahra back to sleep (they both suka sangat woke up at the same time) I senyap2 pegi dapur masak nasi, buat sup for Zahra, readykan beef for my lauk, konon2 mogok with MrComot tanak dia buat all that because he is busy with work haha..and then MrComot bangun, marah la takut I x cukup tido.

So both of us end up mad at each other.

Then i fell back to sleep and when i woke up, he already gone to work.

He did ask me to eat breakfast, he fried some sausage for me and that's it la no more communication after that.The msg pun very short one not like usual. I pun lancarkan perang dingin la. No whatsapp pics or whatever, normally kejap2 sent pic Emir la..kejap2 report Zahra so clever la.. Kejap2 cakap me love ya la hahaha. But today i senyappppp je.

And after lunch, i was excited that Zahra eats carrot and babycorn, because before that the babysitter cakap Zahra doesnt eat bekal yg kitaorg buat..ada those vege la.

So i quickly whatsapp MrComot.

'ok je zahra makan sup sawi with carrot n corn'

And got some replies. And reply more, so on and on...

Dengan itu secara rasminya the cold war end hahaha. If not because of that i wont be messaging him...hmmmm til much later in the evening? Something like that lah.

Yeah..things we do for our anak kan. No more ego2 ni.. Sob sob..

Oklah dah bgn dua2 tu. Melalak cari mommy.

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I survived the day!

2011-11-17T11:53:00.004+08:00

Thank God, I survived yesterday!

And today a bit free because my MIL is around, so she came here to pick up Zahra around 11am for lunch and will send her back for nap later. Zahra ni memang can't nap without me..

Anyway a little details about yesterday, MrComot readied my lunch and totti's soup in the morning, nasib baik! Kalau tak, memang I tak makan la the whole day. I mean, proper food hehe. All in all, it's a very exhausted day. But all taken care as in, three of us well fed, mandi (sekali je..jadi lahhhhhhh..normally Zahra mandi 2x, tapi I dah flat huhuhu) and no drama crying or whatsoever. Only that Zahra woke up from her nap at 3pm! Normally around 5pm baru bangun, so terpaksa la mommy melayan.

At a point I feel like SUPERMOMMY! Perasan sangat because I'm not kan. Of course la perasan because on the evening, my right hand is suap Zahra makan petang, and on the left tengah pangku Emir menyusu. Rasa nak menangis pun ada haha.

All and all, I managed during the day, but not at the night! MrComot came back and I was bf-ing Emir that time, and said

'U look thinner than yesterday..hmm kalau macam ni sampai next week, me nak bagi Emir formula lah'

I knowwwwwwwww...I look haggard. And rumah macam tongkang pecah. I was so tired and at a point is considering giving Emir formula ok! So bad of me! Zahra 1st experience I manage to BF for more than a year, and with Emir is like 1 month? Even though it's only a thought. I feel so bad. But I understand MrComot as well, he's so worried about me *sigh*

Btw, we were thinking of hiring a maid. It's more like MrComot la..as I don't favor the idea. I don't like having stranger in the house but ntah la..I kesian my hubby too. He has to do most of the work and I think tired la.. dah la penat jam from KL like more than an hour everyday, pastu balik rumah pun nak buat kerja (him and work, tak habis2, but that's his work, I can't complaint) and Zahra pulak sibuk nak play. Zahra sleeps at 12 midnight, every single day. I really don't understand her. Why tak boleh tidur awal like other kids :(

We tried everything, cut her nap, tuck her in earlier, but failed. Nanti lah I fikir macam mana...hmmmm..

I hope this only a phase where we can ride on it til the end. Ya Allah...kurniakanlah kesabaran yg tinggi for us.. I really don't like the maid idea.

I need all the luck in the world

2011-11-16T12:52:00.002+08:00

Haha tajuk bombastic sangat, mcm end of the world. Actually got a call from my babysitter last night, she has to balik kampung as her brother passed away. Takziah for her..innalillah..

On the other hand, that means I have to take care Zahra and Emir alone, until end of the week. Owowowowww..now that's scary. Hope I can manage..of course I can..but hopefully it won't be so hard for me. Luckily it's already 40days of confinement..so xde la letih sangat.

Wish me luck!

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Choc of the Day: Ritter Sport Whole Hazelnuts

2011-11-15T16:46:00.004+08:00

My first chocolate in confinement period. Dah expired pun actually..in July haha but I think should be fine. Bought in Langkawi. Look at the whole hazelnut, so crunchy so big and so generous. I love nuts!

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Homemade Playdough

2011-11-14T11:54:00.001+08:00

MrComot had to go to PD last Saturday due to kickoff one of his project. I wanted to follow but it seems a bit unwise of me because Emir is too small and we are still not 'brave' enough to let Zahra play with the sand/sea/pool/etc due to her condition. That was my first time with two babies at home too. Thank God everything is alright, and my sister was there, so she can layan karenah Zahra :)

Since daddy is not home, and Zahra macam boring, I decided to make playdough for her. Not only that she get the end result, she also get to play masak-masak with me since the steps are so easy! I let her pour the flour, salt, water..and yes it was a bit messy as Zahra tertumpah kan flour la apa la..I yelled few times but then..sigh, it was the real purpose of me letting her play kan? To get messy. Let her do thing her way and have fun, not marah2 her. So I just sit back and enjoy the whole process.

Zahra helping mummy with the dough.

The playdough recipe is taken from here: http://www.minieco.co.uk/natural-dye-for-homemade-playdough/

I just use food coloring as I am too lazy to do the natural dye. Furthermore, Zahra is too small to enjoy the science. I might do the natural dye version when she's older. So here is the recipe altered. I double up the recipe since I think the original recipe is quite small.

1 cup flour
1 cup water
1/2 cup salt
1 tbsp cooking oil
1 tbsp cream of tartar
1 tsp food coloring

Mix flour, salt, oil and COT, then mix food coloring into the water, and stir with the dry mixture. Then put it on stove, medium fire and keep on stirring until it becomes dough like and doesn't stick to the pot. It is a very fast process (on the stove), mine is about 1-2 mins only. Wait until it cools a bit then knead on well floured surface.

I don't have real measurement cup, so I just use a small normal drinking cup (you can see in the picture above, the yellow glass cup behind Zahra, with a spoon inside). It works too.

Since I want Zahra to join me kneading, I just floured the floor instead of the worktop. Giler bersepah, lepas tu menyesal sebab nak kena wipe the floor haha.

End product - is very elastic playdough and hold shapes well, just like a real playdough, only that it has some grainy texture due to the salt. Not all over the dough, only some part that lock the coarser salt. I bought the cheapest salt in Giant and the grain is a bit coarse and uneven. For the next playdough I'm gonna grind/blend the salt for a finer texture.

The best thing is, the playdough can last lifetime (might be.. I read in the comment one grandma have the playdough for 10 years!), all you have to do is keep it in clingwrap or ziplock after use. And the texture gets better each time you play.

The playdough on second day.

Ohhhh ni mesti la mommy buat, Zahra tak pandai lagi :D

Zahra still doesn't know how to shapes thing or roll or whatever with the dough. I make some random shapes for her and she plays it as her imaginary cooking stuff. She said..'bawanggg'..then put into the pot, then cut and cucuk the playdough with cutlery and suap to me and everyone else in the house, MrComot, my sister, including Emir! Haha so cute.

One funny happen yesterday she was cooking with the playdough then suddenly she put her hand on the pot and quickly snap it and put on her chest and said aaaaawwwww while looking at me. So I asked ' Why Zahra?' and she said 'Panasssss'. Hahaha.. she's cooking soup rupa-rupanya.

I'm gonna do other color later. But next weekend la. So she can join me in the kitchen again :D

Terabai

2011-11-10T15:22:00.001+08:00

Kesian Emir today, he woke up at 10am, then I layan2 kejap then I was so sleepy, and baring2 ngan dia, now he back sleeping, without mandi. I pun x mandi lagi, tak masak lunch lagi. Baru nak masak, the beef slice on the stove now, waiting for air kering.

Mood confinement dah ke laut. Dah boring pantang sorang2 :(

Ok...nak menyeru mood rajin kejap.

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Postnatal Checkup

2011-11-08T23:40:00.001+08:00

Emir and Mummy!

Today is my first outing in my confinement period, for postnatal checkup. Everything is normal, the womb is already shrunk and goes behind the pelvic bone, only through the scan can see still got some blood in it (darah nifas) but dah x keluar sangat, in fact I already mandi wajib yesterday. So doc prescribed cytotec 3x a day to flush the remaining blood out. Other than that I got obimin,obical, and fish oil as breastfeeding supplement. We also talked about family planning. Can't decide yet. Doc recommended the injection, it can last for 3 months but the withdrawal will take quite some times. Tengok lah macam mana nanti.

Oh ya, finally I get to urut with K.Ain today and felt so much better! She got an appointment somewhere nearby so she can come and urut me. She also said everything is ok only that my womb is a bit low, and that causing my back pain. I only need to urut with her one more time before I start working.

Both babies doing well. The cold gone, Alhamdulillah..only Emir ni pelik sikit, dia dah ada 3 wound..1 big bisul at his shoulder, then 2 nanah at the scalp. Gonna ask the doc when we see him for the 2nd jab, that will be in 2 weeks time. In the meantime hopefully nothing serious lah.

Ahhh it has been a month, another month dah kena masuk keja. I plan to take leave until end of the year but I haven't check my leave balance yet. Kalau susah sangat maybe ambil cuti tanpa gaji. My company don't have the 3months maternity leave policy :(

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2011-11-04T16:17:00.000+08:00

I was clearing my phone and deleting some pictures (i've been bragging about my phone a lot now dia dah buat perangai. Banyak pics hilang and sometimes just can't open wawawa..I think it's because of the external memory card. After all it's more than 2yrs, tahan jugak la phone ni) and found few pics when we brought Zahra to the office. Forgot what occasion, it is dated August 9.

My office is like a big playground with mirrors all around, and lotsa treasure (side tables, Zahra suka sangat main ni hehe), and super cold too. The aircond is centralized and it's even colder on the rainy days. Anyway, that explains her with the green sweater completed with hood lagi hehe.

And her toys of the day, daddy's shoes! Sibuk nak pakai.

Picking daddy's shoes and bring to a corner

Trying on one foot first

Yeay! Managed to wear both!

The pics are not so clear anyway because she moves so fast. Daddy buka kasut sebab nak smayang Maghrib time tu.

Looking at these pics make me go 'awwww Zahra dah besarrrr'. Sometimes I miss her time kecik2. And it makes me so thankful that I get to observe and be part of her life. Even though I'm not a full time mom, I try to spend as much as I can with my kids.

Oh ya, happy aidiladha to all Muslims. Talking about Raya haji/qurban, I still remember clearly what the ustaz pesan during our kursus nikah, he said, lepas kawen, buat la qurban every year. Tak payah banyak, just letak satu envelope at the back of the door, every month put rm30 inside (it's like rm1 per day) and after a year we will have 360 kan, dah boleh qurban 1 part. Then do it alternate, this year for the wifey, next year for the hubby. So you wont feel the burden. Something like that lah. Nice tips ka. Bless the ustaz.

Anyway kitaorang tak buat pun this year hehe. InsyaAllah nak start next year. Semoga dipermudahkan..

Happy raya and hope you have a good time!

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Pukul anak

2011-11-03T16:19:00.002+08:00

Just to share something that I learn throughout my journey as a mom, and also as a reminder to myself.

Having two kids is not easy, I wonder how other moms doing it. Anyway I tend to loose my temper in a snap lately, maybe because a lot of thing, Zahra with her ubat, weaning issue, new baby, etc. Zahra a bit mengada too but it's acceptable because she is adapting a new addition in her life, a brother who is stealing the attention. So she cries a lot on the first week the baby came especially when she is sleepy and I'm breastfeeding the baby. I think dia bengang kut. Anyway, it makes me bengang too! Ada one time she papppp Emir because Emir is latching and automatically I scold and papppp her hands. Ok that one not so bad, ada one night she suddenly woke up and want bak, but at the same time Emir wants too, so of course la I bagi Emir and she cries her lung out, I was so tense espc hearing the cries, and couldn't help it terus sepak her face. Instead of stopping, she cries harder!

Ok that's my story. Kebetulan lak that week, a few of my FB friend post up about how to deal with tantrums and pukul anak. There are 2 things that I remember clearly.

1) never sepak the face, it'll make her more stubborn
2) pukul at her kaki and below, never above

So I tried the methods and it works! I mean, it's easy for me to get her attention. Kalau I pukul tangan, she will resorted and pukul me balik or cry..the stubborn cry. Kalau I sepak lagi la..macam no point, dia lagi nanges ada la. I think if I sepak dia 100 kali pun she won't stop..she can be that stubborn! But if I pukul her leg, she will stop and the most pun cry, the sad cry and I'll hug her, the she's all fine.

Another tip that I think paling berjaya is, use other thing to pukul her, not direct skin to skin. This will make the kid less stubborn too. Kitaorg takde rotan, so I just grab anything nearby, mcm that day, she was angry with something and pour the anger to Emir in the rocker, so I took fan remote control and babbb her kaki sikit and said 'zahra no!'. And she stopped immediately and gave me unsatisfied look, then come to me and mengadu Emir bully her, 'mummmmyyyy..babbbbbyyy' while pointing to her fingers. That's a big difference, kalau tak dia macam lagi degil.

Oh ya, having 2 kids make me shout more too. Haishh no wonder la mak2 suara kuat, have to! Kalau tak, tak dengar kata!

I am building up my patience. Don't want the kids to grow in angry environment. Please God give me the strength! Haha..rasa drama pulak but ahh..that's what I'm experiencing now.

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Love Song

2011-11-02T16:35:00.006+08:00

It has been such a long time I haven't listen to the music, or radio, or any kind of that. I am more into reading these days, maybe it's a sign I'm getting older haha.

Anyway stumble upon this 2 songs that I am in love now.

Jar of Hearts

Funny thing is, I like cover version by BoyceAvenue ft more than the original singer - Christina Perri. CP punya version mcm more like angry and mad but the cover version is more to sad and heartbroken.

Original version by Christina Perri

Cover version by Boyce Avenue & Tiffany Alvord

I Love You Like A Love Song

By Selena Gomez & The Scene

I never like her (maybe because I find Bieber is annoying haha, so dia kena tempias sama), but somehow I love this song. Her voice suit the song well, and so romantic in catchy way.

Talking about romantic, I whatsapp MrComot this afternoon dedicated this song to him, even though I know he has no idea what song is that haha. And to my surprised he dedicated a song back to me and it is so funny.

I love you barney song!!! Hahaha dah tatau nak bagi lagu apa la tu. That's the only song he knows probably :P

Btw, Emir is getting better, I think. Because he can sleep and only wake up few times when his nose is blocked. Meaning his nose not blocked all the time. Hingus pun dah kurang Alhamdulillah. But last night he had to sleep in the rocker as it is tilted high at the head so he can breathe easier. Kalau lie down biasa he can't sleep. And Zahra woke up 4 times last night want a comfort (BF!). Haishh...Emir bangun sekali je.. But all in all, mommy kena bangun 5 kali. Hehe.

Emir is sleeping now, I want to lie down for a while. Oh yeah, this update is using laptop..ahhhh best ok, boleh taip laju. Kalau pakai phone or iPad rasa mcm susahnyaaa. Have a good day everybody!

Current Stuff

2011-11-01T17:17:00.003+08:00

I want to write lenghty entry but a lot of thing is going on now, not good one. Below is the random thing happening and thoughts I have in mind

#1
MrComot is not well. His feet are painful espc whenever he walking as presurring the feet kan. It feels somewhat numb but painful at the corners area. Also his hand. Got few red spots. He went to see the doc today and doc said it could be measles or allergy to something. Praying for something mild like allergy, not measles as we are afraid it's going to affect the kids.

#2
Zahra has a cold. And this give us shudders. She is in very critical stage recovering her Nephrotic Syndrome and we are monitoring her urine closely. Current dose is at 2 tabs. Doc already warned us she is not like normal kids, every single cold/fever/flu/cough/anything has to be treated without delays. Already gave her 2.5ml chlopeniremine twice a day for the cold. She looks fine but other kids at the babysitter also have cold. Hopefully all won't take long to get well :(

#3
Zahra passes the cold to Emir. Now Emir keep on ada the hingus and can't sleep well. Sleep kejap about an hour..then tersedak-sedak with the phlegm. And then suddenly will cry sampai merah muka because he can't breathe well. What worry me is because he is too small, only 25 days. So no medicine for him yet. I just rub some virgin coconut oil at the ubun-ubun and off the fan. He also refused BF sambil baring, maybe rasa sangkut hidung. I have to carry him most of the time, but it's ok, as long as nothing serious.

#4
I can't have my nap because afraid I will miss Emir punya tersedak-sedak. And I didn't get enough sleep last night because Emir can't sleep. Hopefully Zahra is ok tonight, no drama, and yg penting urine test come out good. Last night was negative for protein. Alhamdulillah.

#5
It's been raining cats and dogs every evening this week and our roof back leaking. Sigh. I don't know where to find roofman lagi dah. Dah 4 orang repair but the leakage still there. Lama-lama boleh runtuh tau!

#6
I'm so pumped out and fueled with craft thing these few days. I still buying lotsa craft stuff *sigh* and thinking of selling it back hahaha. Created paypal account last night, well not to sell stuff, but to buy stuff overseas! OMG...addicted betul beli barang craft, so mmg kena jual la. Anyway I create the account because I don't have credit card and debit card pun pinjam my sister punya, so I'll just transfer the money later to her. Previously all shopping either direct tx or pakai cc MrComot, but since takut kena marah asyik beli menda tapi tak buat apa, senyap2 create paypal hehehe. And last night when I was busy with my paypal he asked 'what do you buy? Jangan kena tipu tau..dah check ke belum? Is it from China? you know ada businessman report kat MCA kena tipu dia beli online barang frm China..bla bla'. Yeahh I read that news, thank you.

Haha he is nice like that. Takde la tak bagi I beli, just takut I kena conned. I was a bit malu jugak la when he said like that because normally I will ask him first, but nowadays I just buy without telling him. Especially since I'm at home, where I can expect the postman anytime :D

And main thing because I don't want to disturb him anymore. Sikit2 mintak tolong transfer duit from his maybank or cc. I know it's only a 5 mins thing, but to add the lauk on his plate? No lah..he's full to the brim already, dengan nak jaga totti, nak buat keja rumah. So tak payah pening2 kan kepala dia.

#7
Not only craft stuff, I'm also stuffing myself with other online shopping, especially clothes. Maybe because I don't have time to browse at shops already, so online shopping is really gotten me. I just bought another 7 pieces of garment in a month! Hopefully all can fit me well after my confinement, kalau tak sia-sia je hehehe.

#8
Also hooked up with pininterest.com!

Alamak, kenot type anymore, Emir dah nanges. Daaa!

Oh ya, wish us well. Espc the kids, cepat2 baik. Thanks! Mwaaahh!

My Little Gardener

2011-10-30T14:45:00.002+08:00

MrComot went to Giant to do groceries, leaving me with Emir and Zahra. Emir is sleeping so I only have to keep my eyes on Zahra. She asked to go outside and it is scorching hot afternoon, so I have to put her hat on.

And here she is, busy plucking the ixora flower. Tengah hari buta! Haishhh panas okkk. The hot weather doesn't stop her there, she's busy pushing her cart pulak. Kids, they can play anywhere they feel like to.

Mommy on the other hand, waiting anxiously under the roof. Sorry! Mommy puteri lilin :D

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The Sleeping War

2011-10-28T14:58:00.002+08:00

I would like to share one story, about our sleepless night, having sleep war with Zahra, after Emir popped out.

The first night I was admitted (gave birth to Emir), my PIL helped to tuck Zahra in, and kira gamble habis. Because, Zahra never sleep without me. Not even once....in 1 year 10 months. So it was a disaster, as storied by my MIL. Zahra keep on waking up every hour and crying 'mamaaaa...dadddyyyy' and keep on pointing to my stuff and crying 'maaamaaa' again and again until morning.

Well that's not about it.

After I returned home, we decided to sleep separately, Zahra upstairs with MrComot and I'm downstairs in the confinement room with Emir. Big part of it because I don't want both babies wake up at the same time and I can't breatstfeed both of them yet. Emir has the priority. We gone cold turkey for 11 days and guess what? It almost drive us crazy!

Zahra keep on waking up every 2-3 hours and crying looking for me. Daddy pun dia tanak. The biggest reason is because she is so used to latch on me and she still wants it. I know it's partly my fault as I didn't wean her earlier but the thing is dia bukan minum sangat, she just want the comfort chest for her to hug. I read around and they said to wean a toddler at 2yrs old (zahra is 1y10m) is tough because they are emotionally attached.

And separating the sleep give huge impact to her. MrComot had to carry her downstairs upstairs repeat until she fell back to sleep, and do it again couple of hours later, again and again until morning. The impact not only affecting Zahra, but also MrComot. What happen to a human that doesn't have enough rest and sleep, and have to deal with a cranky toddler the next morning? A cranky monster! Hehe I'm exaggerating, takdela monster but kesian my hubby, penat sgt and that made him cranky as well. Dengan siang nya nak kena jaga Zahra, bath her, make her food, put her to nap (without me again), feed her, etc etc. It's an endless job..luckily he was on paternity leave for a week..so he can live with scarce sleep.

After 11 days of crying nights, I don't see our way working and coincidentally I spill my frustration over this situation to my makcik urut and she said;

'laaaa.....tido pisah ke. Patutla dia menanges..budak yg biasa susu memang mcm tu. Tido la skali..mesti tak apa-apa. Kesian dia'

And I gave it a hard thought, to sleep together with Zahra. Because once I do it, I can't fall back right? And it will ruined our hard 11-days of no-mummy-at-night training. If we want to fall back, it will start like zero days and might be tougher as she knows somehow she can get her mummy. But if it succeed, both of us can have our sleep.

Since MrComot is going back to work, I said jomlah we try Zahra sleeping with me and Emir. It was on Monday night, and guess what? It works!

Zahra sleep through out the night and so MrComot - get to get his sleep. Finally! If I know it will be this easy, I will do this from day 1 haha.

Anyway she woke up one or two times checking on me and I just say 'Zahra pegi bam balik, mummy ada' and she will fall back to sleep. Ocasionally she will want to latch, so I just give it like a minute or so and soothe her back to sleep and she's all alright. Phewwww...

Since it's not good for me to climb stairs during confinement, we squeeze everybody in the confinement room. Took out the baby cot and lay down cotton mattress and tripple up with 2 toto (cheap polyester mattress). It's not as comfortable as my bed, but it's good enough! Btw, it's queen sized so only 3 of us using the space. MrComot sleep outside at the hall on the ABC playmat. I asked him to sleep upstairs in the bedroom since I can manage both babies but he refused and said he can't hear me if he is upstairs, so whateverlah, as long as he can sleep peacefully :)

Our 'bed' with my two babies. Sleeping soundly as long as mommy is there.

The first thing that Zahra will do after wakes up, is to kacau her adik. Nak kiss la..nak sayang la.. She loves to rub Emir's head and face and when Emir open his mouth she will tell me Emir nak mamam haha. So comel.

The breastfeeding jealousy already toned down. She's fine now if I BF Emir, only sometimes she wants it too, so I have to give one side for her, one side for Emir. Susah jugak because sometimes dia macam compete with Emir. The faster Emir sucks, the faster she sucking too and drink all the milk. So I have to BF Emir longer for the refill and very tired as well. We are slowly weaning her and I'll share the story if we succeed!

Have a good weekend everyone!

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Sleeping Style

2011-10-24T21:20:00.002+08:00

One thing I noticed about Emir, pandai betul tido mengiring. Siap kaki silang panggung and tangan bawah muka. Hehe..

Ps: Abaikan baju bunga2, semua baju Zahra punya! :p

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Confinement's Nom Nom

2011-10-24T01:05:00.001+08:00

I miss blogging but I'm busy reading! It has been such a long time I didn't hold any book in my hands and confinement period give me the chance to indulge into it. Nanti I share my current reading.

Anyway, my confinement is a bit boring as I'm all alone, only me and Emir. But I get to sleep a lot, which is good. Plus my favourite tukang urut, K.Ain still couldn't come, and I had my berurut session with another tukang urut I found through agency. Ok la makcik tu, but still tak seterror K.Ain. I had 5 sessions with her and have another 3 pending sessions, that will be on the 20th, 30th and 40th day. After that I still want to see K.Ain for urut. If she can't come, I have to go to her house la :(

Despite the urut thing, I just wear long girdle and it helps! I feel more comfortable walking around compared to not wearing at all. Of course bengkung will be better but tak boleh la, since I have to move a lot, kalau pakai bengkung pun halfway je la..like few hours. I have to cook my lunch, have my bath, then bathe Emir, change his diaper, bf him, etc etc. So ladies, wear ur bengkung or at least girdle. It helps to support your womb, not to look cantik kurus ke apa. The womb still wobbly and soft, that is what K.Ain told me last time.

I skipped all the param pilis thingy because it is too hassle for me. I just make sure I eat right and don't move a lot. Hopefully ok la. Well, I do feel ok hehehe. Just to share with you all my confinement meals!

Steamed cod + ikan bilis w onions, pepper, ginger, goreng without minyak. This one prepared by MrComot. Anyway the ikan bilis is a trial recipe from my tukang urut and I don't quite like it. Maybe MrComot x pandai buat kut sebab the way makcik urut citer mcm sedap giler.

Grilled chicken thigh (salt n pepper only but yummehhh) with celery soup.

Grilled beef steak with salt pepper and choy sam soup. I grilled it in a slab, but the potong pakai gunting hehehe. Senang nak makan.

Chicken fillet fried with tumeric, onions, ginger, tomato, peas and garlic. Kannnnn.. Ayam goreng kunyit je nama sebenar.

Beef soup with leftover ayam goreng kunyit.

Overall it's a good food, takde la boring ke apa. I'm all ok as long as it's not ikan masin only hehehe, and as long as I get my soups. I'm a soupy girl, tak reti makab kering2. But the confinement food is a bit different between Chinese and Malay. As Malay, we can eat beef but not eggs and for Chinese, they eat eggs almost everyday but not meat. That's what my MIL told me lah. Anyway I already started to eat egg on my 18th day, telur dadar yg yummy because got lotsa onions and cili padi! Ooppss, makan sikit je cili padi..buat ubat hehe. Thank God Emir is ok, no sakit perut or whatever.

Oh not to forget, I loveeee plain grilled fish, meaning grill without salt then dip with soy sauce and onion cut. Tapi tu takde gambar pulak. But I can only eat selar. No kembung (mackarel) as they said can make the wound itchy. Basically you can only white meat fish, like cod, selar, white bawal, gelama, etc.

Talking about white bawal, I never know it's expensive! MrComot brought home 2 pieces at about my palm's size and it's RM20!

In between, I take hot milo with biscuits for snacks. You tend to be very hungry most of the time due to breastfeeding and I have at least 3 milo time in a day - morning, evening, and supper. Itu pun I budget2 because too much chocolate not good my digestion too. So I top up with milk, soy milk, and cheese. But nothing more satisfying than a mug of hot milo hmmmm....

As for supplement, I only take phytonatal (nona roguy), calcium and fish oil.

What else can I eat? If you guys have any idea, let me know! And recipes are welcomed! Tapi simple2 je please because I'm not that rajin to cook and wash up the dishes :)

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The Prince

2011-10-17T13:37:00.003+08:00

We have decided the name!

Welcome to the world, Emir Qalef!

Actually we already agreed with Emir, only the second name tak decide. And I'm fine with one word name only, Emir bin Elias, simple kan? But MrComot insists to have two words sebab Zahra two words kan. And it will be nice if we can find name started with Z but semua tak berkenan. In the end, Qalef it is!

Anyway, Emir is derivation from Amir and it brings the meaning of Prince and Qalef (pronounce as Khalif, Caliph) means successor (in Islam, it has narrow meaning to successor of Muhammad SAW).

It has been 12 days and Emir is such an angel. He sleeps most of the time and is a healthy baby. In fact, he doesn't have jaundice like Zahra's last time, only the minor jaundice that incur in breastfed baby.

On the feeding, Alhamdulillah, he is on breastmilk all the time. I'm practicing tandem nursing now, and the milk is not that much yet, thus Emir has to latch longer for refill when Zahra drank his portion, but he's getting what he needs, that is what important. And Zahra don't fancy my milk anymore, she just wants to latch together with Emir. It's more to attachment/bonding and rivalry. If I initiate plays or activities, she will forget about the boobies. But the diversion is harder than I thought, have to be very patience about it.

One thing I notice about Emir, he is the 'penggeli' type. He will squirm and squirm and refuse any feeding when he poops! Even it's only a squirt. I guess because he can feel it with his crotch. And he will only sleep tight and latch after I cleaned him. While Zahra pulak tak kisah berak ke apa, kalau bagi latch je tak tolak! Haha. I just finished a whole pack 52 pieces of diaper within 8 days! Pitam mak macam ni.

The stool already changed from green moss to yellowish mustard and very loose. It's the common form for breastfed baby..so Alhamdulillah, he's doing well. His umbilical cord falls off on the 9th day, the belly button not totally dried, but doctor said it's fine as long as we keep it clean and dry. We don't use the alcohol swab anymore, just clean it with damped cotton ball and wipe it dry.

His sleeping pattern also tuning to ours. He sleeps through the night, and even he wakes up, I just breastfeed him and he will back to sleep. This time it's easier and calmer for me as I don't stress myself anymore and listen to the baby without thinking too much. It helps! It's not literally listen to them but it's like you observe them and feel it with your mother instinct, sure you will know what he wants and voila, tak banyak ragam, senang je nak handle. Maybe because it's my 2nd experience too. And a tip not to tire yourself out, breastfeed while baring! It is a bit uncomfortable for early few times but you'll get it somehow and breastfeeding and sleeping will be a breeze! I don't have to wake up to feed Emir anymore, just BF him while mengiring and check his diaper if he still uncomfortable or refuse the feeding.

I can't tell yet he has whose face, but he has my fingers, neat with nice fingernails *ahem* unlike Zahra, she got MrComot's, the type terkeluar kulit2 kat cuticle. Kesian ok hehehe. Tak kisah, janji it's not painful.

Below is few pics of Emir Qalef..tak ikut susunan, uploaded via my phone.

Emir day #1

Emir day #11

Emir day #6

My confinement also a bit chaotic this time as I'm all alone. My mom is unwell so she has to go back home since she can't really take care of me, and I don't hire any confinement lady, just have normal tukang urut to massage me. We send Zahra to babysitter so ok la..I can manage it. MrComot also get back to work today, but I'm doing ok, only that the house memang sarang kucing la. And coincidently all the part time maids we used to hire ada problem, we deal with 2 agencies before and one senyap je no response, the other one has no worker, haishhh. But I managed to get another contact and she's coming tomorrow. We'll see how.

Anyway I'm ok as I don't have to do anything, except taking care of Emir and cook my own lunch. It's simple and easy, I just pop beef steak with salt and pepper into the oven and made some choy sam soup. Cewahhhh choy sam tuuu..it's sawi btw hehehe.

Have a good Monday everyone!

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Zahra and Nephrotic Syndrome: Almost Free!

2011-10-12T23:14:00.000+08:00

My baby had her checkup at SDMC with Dr Indon after a month tapering the steroid (4 tabs, alternate day) and we are pretty nervous with the result. Even though the urine dip test we do everyday showing a good result, trace and negative, it still depends on the protein reading in the blood. Plus, it is the first time she going to SDMC without her mommy, and they going to withdraw the blood :(

Luckily my MIL was around and Zahra is pretty close to her, so she accompany MrComot for the checkup.

Alhamdulillah..the result came clean - we can say that Zahra is almost Nephrotic free!

Her protein is 67 and her cholesterol is 3.8! That is a significant drop from before - 10.3 then 6.8. Syukur sangat2 ya Allah almighty.

Anyway she still need to be on steroid as we have to taper it slowly. So it's gonna be for another 2 months. Last month was 4 tabs, now reduced to 3 tabs for 2 weeks, then 2 tabs for the next 2 weeks, then 1 1/2 tabs for the next 2 weeks and 1 tab for final 2 weeks, all on alternate days, and she will be steroid free! InsyaAllah...

But Dr Indon already warned us that we have to be very careful during the tapering period as the leakage might triggered back if she has any sickness or infection, so we have to monitor the urine test closely. If it goes back to 3+ immediately give her antibiotic to treat any infection and if it maintained at 3+ for 3 days, we have to see her immediately.

Hopefully it won't shoot at all, maintained at trace/negative..amin amin ya rabbal 'alamin...

Other than that she still taking probiotic every night to help her digestion problem.

Get well soon sayang. Mommy so happy with this news and how well you are dealing with it. You stay strong to chase this disorder ok.

Zahra yesterday evening, doze off after back from the checkup. Tired with the blood withdrew because she's fighting it like usual.

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Third 10.10

2011-10-10T22:46:00.003+08:00

Today is our 3rd anniversary!

The first year, we were busy scouting for hospitals for me to deliver Zahra. I was about 6 months back then.

Second year we were busy doing..hmm i don't remember. But I remember we had lunch at papparich. No celeberation.

This year, we are busy handling a toddler and newborn baby. We only had a few moment this evening wishing each other happy anniversary with teary eyes haha! Teary because so tired and sad, no time to celeberate, also the tears of happiness, it has been 3 years ups and downs together! And the touching tears..how we are so grateful to complete each other and sail the life hands in hands.

Anyway, another thing that I'm sedih, I have to missed big bad wolf event! Benci benci benci! Last year I siap imagine I'm going to bbw and leave Zahra at babysitter so I can succumb myself with piles of cheap books. But not complaining here, a baby is better kan hehe. Hopefully I can go next year.

Oh ya, talking about 10.10, we are kinda hoping babyG pop out on this date. But terawal 5 hari hehe.

To hubby, I love you so much!

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Milk Jealousy

2011-10-08T22:23:00.002+08:00

Hi all,

Thanks for all the wishes and prayers. Sorry I can't reply each comment as I only manage to read them from my phone. Both mommy and baby are doing well, but still having a hard time coping with the changes.

Wanted to upload babyG's pic but we still don't give him any name yet! So macam x best nak introduce without the name hehe.

Zahra is very gentle to her little brother. She cheerfully will shout 'babyyyy' whenever she sees babyG and pat him gently while saying 'yanggggg' for sayangggg. She even point out all the features, taa (mata), dung (hidung), wambut (rambut), ka..kii..(kaki), etc.

Overall she looks fine with babyG in the house, BUT she went berserk when she saw babyG latch on me and screaming 'babbbbyyyyyy...mamaaaaa...bakkkkk... No no no no...' Bak is for my boobs fyi and she even tried to hit her brother during the breastfeeding session. We had to keep her far or better out of sight when I want to bf babyG but somehow she notice it when babyG making sounds or crying for milk. Automatically dia pun sibuk cry nak milk.

I can't stop her immediately as she will feel babyG is stealing the 'bak' from her and we let babyG wins. So I just play along and let her latch when time permits. The thing is, she always wants it when babyG needs it. And she purposely taking long time and refused to let go even though the milk is finished and keep on saying 'Za..ya' for Zahra while tapping my 'bak', telling me the bak is hers. Adoi...

But things getting better today as I slowly know how to tackle this, and also my milk start pouring in..so I get to drunk Zahra and babyG, hence both babies are satisfied now. BabyG sleeps longer and Zahra stop faster.

We also managed to wean her during the night, as I sleep downstairs and she will sleep with MrComot upstairs. I still can hear she's crying for me last night a couple of time asking for 'bak' but MrComot just carry her and after some times she will back to sleep.

Seems like it's gonna a sleepless night for 3 of us but I hope she's getting better soon. So much of milk jealousy and drama.

Zahra and babyG this morning

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My Baby Boy

2011-10-06T09:35:00.001+08:00

Both mommy and baby Alhamdulillah sihat. It was via normal delivery and totally different from Zahra's. Thanks for all the doa. Mwahhhhhh

Tough Day

2011-10-03T09:22:00.002+08:00

Had a tough day yesterday...maybe one of the toughest.

Everybody is not happy yesterday, since morning.. Me, MrComot and my little pwincess Zahra. It's medicine day and Zahra still rolling with 'I don't want to eat anything for breakfast!'. In fact she didn't want to eat anything the whole day.

I gave her lotsa thing this morning, toast, bread with jam, butter biscuits..I even made her chicken nugget, from scratch! And it is yummy kid you not. Tapi tanakkkk tanakkkk tanakkkk. Kalau tanak makan but drink milk pun ok..but she has been on milk boycott since last week where she only takes her milk before sleep. I even tried to change different milk, tanakkk jugak. In the end she had some brocolli soup at almost 11am and we managed to force feed her the medicine without her throwing up.

Then MrComot made her usual soup today. It's fish soup day and we faced another challenge. She refused her lunch. I was very tired to pujuk her makan and change the role with MrComot. He tried to feed Zahra while I had my hot bath and when I went down, MrComot was mopping and cleaning the floor while lecturing Zahra. Apparently she made a fuss with her daddy and the food was flying everywhere.

We had to go out for lunch and find booster seat for Zahra, so I said ok la..tanak makan sudah. Maybe she wants her lunch later. While dukung Zahra, hubby keep on lecturing her, about how other kids are unlucky not getting enough food, about how he spent the whole morning making her food and yet she doesn't want to eat, etc etc. Of course Zahra won't understand it, but I just kept quiet. What worry me is, it's so not MrComot to nag. It shows that he is very stress and frustrated with what is happening. Thus, it makes me sad to see him like this :(

We had yummilicious lunch at Village Park and thank God Zahra was all ok. Not really ok, but we managed to eat so it's a good thing. She threw a short tantrum when a family with kids wearing angry birds shirt sitting next to our table and Zahra keep on screaming wanting the angry bird. Haiyohhhhh...first time ok dia mcm tu. Normally she will be alright when I say, ok...nnt we see angry bird ok..say bye bye to angry bird. I even ON the angry bird video in my handphone and she still mad. Apparently she was angry at the little girl, telling me that the little girl 'can't wear' angry bird. Luckily the family found bigger table for them and moved and Zahra back ok when the shirt is out of her sight.

The drama didn't end there. She pooped after we back home and refused to be washed, instead want to play with the water. It's 3pm and I'm almost worn out and couldn't help it but pukul her kaki and dragged her to wash the poop. Sorry baby, mommy dah penat sangat tunggu. Haihh...I was really at the edge of my patience. She keep on crying because that's the first time I punish her and it doesn't end there, she refused to drink milk and all she wanted to do is breastfeed. It doesn't help that I'm so tired with my condition lagi and MrComot is mad as well. He keep on saying don't give in, let her learn, we are spoiling her, etc etc. Just imagine we are having a war on the bed...Zahra keep on crying sampai tersedak2 while pulling my shirt want to latch, while I keep on quiet prentending to be sleeping and MrComot keep on pujuk her to drink the formula milk. It was a heartbreaking situation. In the end I couldn't take it and my mother instinct saying 'bagi je la..she just want a comfort' so I gave in and MrComot marah la... I know he is frustrated, he is worried about me not getting enough rest. Siap apa analogy ntah apa2 ok, like..how I'm going to deliver if I'm tired breastfeeding Zahra. I'm draining myself la apa la, nanti how to nurse Zahra and babyG la.. He knows about tandem nursing, but he's more worried about my health. It's hard ok, to cold turkey wean Zahra..and it's a bit too late to me. Kalau nak wean, have to do it earlier. So I advise mommies semua, wean few months earlier.

Ok, enough about that..we thought we will have a nice night, when suddenly somebody rang the door bell looking for me, during Maghrib! Betul2 time Maghrib..tengah azan ok kat masjid. I have this pet peeves org datang rumah time Maghrib, unless it is unavoidable, like you are from somewhere far a way or just happen to come here ke apa ke.

And guess what siapa yg looking for me? MLM PEOPLE OKKKKKK!!!

What the ....

Definitely not a good day to mess with me. After what I've been through during the day.

And she's not even my friend!!!!

Actually she came to the house once, as part timer cleaner. Now she quit the cleaning job and doing MLM. Ok, I already know that she's involved with this MLM but it's quite daring of her to come promote MLM and bring TWO OTHER speakers to preach me right? I think it's a bit too much...

At first I don't know their intention, I thought they just want to visit me, so I just invite them in and siap apologize to the akak (cleaner) that I was so busy to re-hire her..busy with lotsa thing and plus Zahra not so well. Then she ask Zahra sakit apa, so I just briefed a bit and then they said..wahhh good for me, there is a cure for Zahra's condition.

I was like, what the hell... They ni bomoh ke apa.. Because I haven't finish explaining Zahra's condition and they are clueless like a blonde when I mentioned 'Nephrotic Syndrom' and just drop the topic as they don't know what the hell is that.

But ok la..I pun malas nak bagitahu banyak kan..so buat air and invite them for a drink and ask them directly what they want - despite of visiting me.

Haaa ni kebetulan, anak adik sakit ni..kesian dia kecik2..adik kena beli tilam panas dengan penapis air ni, memang boleh sembuh penyakit anak adik

Whhaaaatttttt the .#$#%$^^%^

Do you even understand Zahra punya sakit? How dare of she to diagnose and tell me the solution like that. And just by drinking filtered water? And tido atas tilam panas?

Hahaha.

Not I underestimate the product. Actually I've listened to this MLM group few years back, so I know what are they selling. It's nothing, a normal water filter and a chargeable mattress that can keep u warm.

And ada hati tu nak compare with other company when I said, oh nevermind, ada org already offered saya Hai-O water filter.

Ehhh tak sama adik..water filter Hai-O is reverse osmosis and ours are treatment water.

Ok now you tell me, am I that stupid? Treatment apanya?

I don't want either water filter okkkkkkkk. Hai-O ke, urs ke..dua-dua tipu overpriced. I want to buy Philips, baru berapa ringgit.

That's not the point.

Then they stayed up with their preaches (that up to a point I want to cry!) because I hate it. I hate MLM. I have nothing against MLM people, it's just MLM is not my thing ok. And dah la timing tak kena.

Oh oh oh..they said, if I can buy toys for Zahra thousands (siap pointing to Zahra's toys on the ABC mat) but why I'm not willing to spend for her health?

Like WTF kan?

Macam dia kenal I macam mana. I nak beli barney kat Zahra tu pun fikir seribu kali ok. But I never compromised about her health. I'm not being defensive, it's just, as a high ranking leader in MLM group, how can you approach people like that? When you don't even know them. It's like you are picking any point you can think of, hoping it is a jackpot! Yeah..kakak yg cakap mcm tu is about to get a BMW or Merc next month..she is CDM or DDM something I'm not sure, tak hafal lah!

Then the other kakak pulak have different approach, keep on saying about the money we spent buying things from the MLM will go to anak yatim and they will read Al-Quran for us 1000 times.

Double WTF kan?

Ingat derang takde keja lain ke nak baca 1000 kali? Kot yer pun nak propah..agak-agak la kan?

And bla bla bla bla...

At least the cleaner is being honest with me. She said please support her, as she needs people under her. I get her intention. She needs to move up. But bringing over the two other akak, unexpectedly to my home sweet home is too much la.

Anyway I memang dah tak tahan..so I just sign up for membership where I can buy stuff at member's price. It's less than RM100 per life, so I'm thinking, what the heck kan.. hahh sign cepat2 and that's it, I don't want to get in touch with them anymore.

Hopefully they won't kacau me again after this. I'm not interested in finding downline even I don't have to do the work.

Oh ya..they don't even ask if we are going to have our dinner ke apa ke. I mean, you are barging in people's house during Maghrib, it's dinner time la kan. Dah la I kelam kabut nak suap Zahra time tu, and as usual Zahra doesn't want to eat and want me to hold her all the time. They don't even care ok!!

As long as they can sell the thing to me. Sucker!

We had our dinner around 9PM with burger Ramly tepi jalan. I was so tensed and wanted to get some air, so MrComot drove me and Zahra there to tapau it. While waiting for the burger, I keep on whining about the MLM thing and told him that I want to weep about the MLM thing because I am so sad...and tired, after what we have been through during the day kan.

MrComot was tired as well but he pushed it aside and tried to entertain me

'Sayang jangan la sedih..you know dulu masa me student pun me kena pow by strangers..bla bla bla...'

Kesian dia..I'm so touched. He looks worn out as well, tapi tetap utamakan my happiness, and be chatty with happy face.

And again, Zahra refused her dinner. I even changed the menu, turned the fish into sweet sour fish. I even gave her rice with kicap!!! She can't take heavy salted food yet but I was thinking, what the hell, it's better than her not eating at all. But kicappppp pun tanak. In the end she ate a a hard-boiled egg. Phew...better than nothing.

What a day!

Anyway, I read that toddler refusing food because of control. It's something the figured out and they know they can have control over it. What I need to do is show NO frustration and let her. But keep on offering her food. Somehow she will take it when she's hungry. Tapi ya lah..risau la kan tanak makan. Furthermore, it'll be harder on medicine day. She has to eat something before the medicine.

So I'm going to change my tactic now. Kalau tanak makan sudah....I won't be mad, I won't force her. I'll wait until her lunch, somehow she will eat a bit for lunch, and then baru I give her the medicine.

Oklah..gotta update with happy entry before babyG pop out :D

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Sweet Thing

2011-10-02T01:36:00.001+08:00

This is not a show off entry, just something that made me went awwwwwww hehehe.

Well, it's already 2nd oct and I have no sign going into labor yet. My EDD is 6th by the way.

As usual I'm browsing blogs, reading lotsa things after Zahra goes to sleep (she dozed off at 12 midnight today! Phewww tough night) and MrComot was downstairs with his works. Suddenly he came up with a jar of water,

Hey sayang tak tido lagi?
Hmmm hmmmm(busy browsing, so tak menjawab sgt haha)
Me made you air yassin. Minum nanti.
Hahhhh? (paused a few seconds to absorb)
Awwww should me cryyyyyy?
No need (walked out from the room)

Hahaha.

I know it's nothing biggie air yassin or stuff like that, but knowing my husband..he's not the 'alim' side. Memang biasa habis hehehe, so this is a bit unexpected of him, and I find it's sweet for him to do this. I mean it needs some effort and the thought is count right? And I went awwwwwww for few minutes, that I decided to write about this. So next time when I'm mad at him, I'll read this entry and remember how kind he was to me.

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You know you are a mom when..

2011-09-30T15:32:00.002+08:00

...you are a sucker for diapers promotion!

I don't know if you agree with me, but I gotta say Mamypoko is the best disposable diapers in town! Not to mention it's pretty expensive too.

Since it's expensive, and Zahra can use other cheaper diapers well too, we just use Mamypoko for night usage - so far sekali pun tak pernah bocor! And her bum and front all good, smooth and no reddish whatever. If I use other brands, lambat tukar sikit je mmg merah sikit sbb Zahra's skin is quite sensitive.

Anyway, the point here is about Mamypoko. The normal price for S72/M66/L56/XL50/XXL40 is around RM54 right? And we always bought a bundle when the price goes down to RM46 and below. The cheapest I've even found is at RM42.99 at Jusco Member Card Sale and special promo in hypermarket (Giant/Tesco/C4) but today my MIL texting MrComot, that it is at RM40.99 in Giant!

Heyyyy!! That's the cheapest ever!!!!

See, we talk about baby stuff a lot sampai my MIL pun can register this in her head hehehe.

It's in Giant now for 30 Sept til 2 Oct only! And you have to buy it with coupon. 1 coupon valid for 6 packs max. I'm not sure where can you get the coupon, my MIL got it from The Star I think..have to confirm with her (tried to call her just now but can't reach, nanti I update ok). Not sure if you can print the coupon itself. Updated: yes the coupon is frm the star! By this time mesti dah sold out. My friend managed to get 3 packs only and giant KD only have 7 packs left when my MIL went, and it was on friday!

Anyway, here is the direct link!

http://www.giant.com.my/files/promotion/pdf/3DaySP-WM.pdf

Happy Friday and Mamypoko-ing everyone!

Monday Madness

2011-09-27T16:46:00.001+08:00

We had a very drama morning yesterday.

As usual, we have to feed Zahra the medicine every morning and it has become alternate days now, and yesterday is the 'lucky' day. So, i woke her up early at 7am instead of her bangun sendiri to warm up her and let her have some food before the medicine. She has to take at least 3oz milk to coat her stomach and lately, breakfast is impossible because she refused to eat in the morning.

Her diet somehow changed, she doesn't eat that much anymore, I'm not sure if it's either because we are tapering the steroid or simply a phase where kids don't like to eat.

Anyway, the week before was easier because I was on leave, so dia makan ubat lambat sikit around 9-10am but now I'm working , have to move a bit earlier, and boy...it was a challenge!

First, she refused to drink the milk, at all. Then I tried to bribe her with a lot of thing that she used to take in the morning, apples, grapes, cornflakes, etc. Semua tanakkkk tanakkk tanakkkk. All she wants to do is watching her barney on the iPad. So we waited and pujuk her..like every 5 mins, I will offer her milk and I even used the old trick, breastfeed her, then change to milk, tanakkkkkkkk. She will push the bottle away and marah me.

Then it's almost 9am, I said that's it la. We go work and I'll try to give her the milk in the car, afterall it's gonna be 1 hour journey kan. Mesti dia minum and sampai at babysitter's house, we'll crush the pills and feed her.

Guess what?

Dalam kereta pun tanak minummmmmm. It's like 3 hours after she woke up and tanak drink/eat anything.

So I decided to feed her soups we made, at babysitter's house and then wait for a while and then give her the medicine. Lambat pun lambat lah..what to do kan, this is unpredictable. Masa tu both of us dah tense. All we had in our mind 'Zahra kena makan ubat!'. When we arrived, lift pulak rosakkkkk. The whole button thing gone off from the wall. So macam bergaduh pulak kat situ..we have to climb to 7th floor and MrComot of course x bagi I naik because I'm very heavy now and we never let the babysitter feed Zahra this new medicine, it's a bit tricky as you have to crush la, mix with sugar la, etc etc. So it has to be us yg bagi Zahra the medicine. After all, we won't trust others to give her this particular medicine anymore because of the last incident.

So, scrap the plan, we decided to bring Zahra to the office, feed her soups, then the medicine, then MrComot will bring Zahra to the babysitter and go to 7th floor alone. Fair enough and doable la kan.

But there's a lot running inside both our mind.. MrComot keep on saying jom cutilah! Whilst I on the other hand want to go to work because I've been on leave before kan, need to settle few things. But maybe he has another concern, so I said up to him la, nak cuti jom cuti!

Both of us are contemplating with the decisions, and a few meters before we reach our office, he detour and take a different route 'jom cuti!'. Apparently he was thinking, how to give Zahra medicine in the office, with her screaming and all. I pulak jenis tak kisah hahaha. But have to respect his concern too. So we decided to call the day off and take emergency leave.

Before we naik the NKVE, we made a short stop to the nearest pharmacy to buy the protein sticks (it almost finished) and not available. Pasal protein stick pun satu hal, we've been scouting to 8 pharmacies and none have it. Sigh.... lastly just preorder it..hopefully it will reach us before the sicks finished.

I still on leave today, as I have my antenatal checkup. And tomorrow gonna be medicine day..wonder how it gonna be. We plan to wake Zahra at 6am biar dia segar lama sikit and hopefully she will eat something. Else..maybe I have to leave her to the babysitter, then after she ate, go again to feed the medicine..provided the lift is working. But I won't have car tomorrow as MrComot need to be in CBJ in the morning. Hopefully my girlfriends are in the office so can use their car.. Please please please either one, make it work

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The Best Person in Town

2011-09-23T09:43:00.002+08:00

I had my weekly checkup on last Tuesday, everything is normal but dr advice me to rest if I don't want to go into labor earlier than my intended date, so she gave me a week MC. How cool is that.

And do you know what is cooler? My mom is in town!!!!

Coincidentally my sister is having her convocation in Penang this Saturday, so both of my parents will go there but they decided to stop by for the whole week, just for this reason - to cook my favourite dishes / whatever I want to eat before babyG pop out. Howwwww sweeeeettt?

Ok, I think part of it they want to see Zahra as well, but let me indulge with my own story ok? Haha.

So far I had laksa penang, bubur lambuk, daging bakar, gulai ayam kampung, ikan aya masak kicap, kembung bakar kosong with onions and kicap dip and today let see...we are having sotong something2 but the most important thing is, the sotong is laden with their eggs. Nyum!!

And ikan kembong tu mmg nampak simple, but my mom specifically brought it here all the way from Besut as it's big and have eggs!

I have a thing eggs but not chicken eggs. I love love fish eggs, squid eggs, crab eggs, prawn eggs, nyummmmmmmm!!!!!! Tenkiu momma!

So that will summarize my busy week - EATING!

Happy Friday everyone and hope you have a good weekend!

My Sailor-Pwincess

2011-09-15T17:47:00.002+08:00

MrComot's auntie gave Zahra a sailor dress almost a year ago, and only now it fits her nicely. Coincidentally she hosted an open house last weekend, so I decided to dress her in that dress.

Not only new dress, Zahra also got new hair-clip from mommy! Haha..finally angin kerajinan tu datang. I have a lot of material in the house and suddenly thinking to do matching hair clip for her. It was a last minute decision, so I just whip out whatever cross the mind.

Zahra in the sailor dress. See the moon face, so chubby kan. Anyway, I tried to capture the whole dress, but susah dia asyik gerak-gerak.

The dress when she sits. It's a knee length dress, A line cut.

And the hair clip! This is the closest blue felt that I can find in my stash. Free hand cut, stitched with white embroidery floss, and stamped with white 4-hole button.

Zahra with the same hair clip, but different way wearing it.

Overall I love the hair clip so much because it's so simple yet chick looking to me. Plan to make more like this bu tin different colors. Maybe to match other dresses :D

Zahra and Nephrotic Syndrome: The Side Effects

2011-09-14T17:39:00.000+08:00

It's been awhile I didn't update about Zahra's condition. Alhamdulillah, she's doing well now, but still on the high dose steroid treatment. Up to date..it has been almost 3 months. 3 more days to go in fact.

Her urine dip test is fluctuating between trace and negative since 21 August but Dr Indon said, it's normal for her to have traces in the urine. So trace reading is acceptable. We have to be cautious when the urine raise to 2+ and have to give her antibiotic in any case the rise is because infection - hence her body is fighting it and the kidney 'koyak' again due to the antibody attack and we have to do immediate blood test to see the protein level in her blood if the urine stays at 2+ after 5 days taking the antibiotic.

Facts of the day: The medicine is called prednisone now since it's in tablet, instead of prednisolone - liquid form.

Dr Indon decided to taper off the steroid starting this 17th Sept for a month.. It won't be 5 tablets/day anymore. It's lowered to 4 tablets, alternate day.. but, if only the urine stay at trace/negative. InsyaAllah..

The protein count in her blood also in the acceptable range now, Alhamdulillah.

Here is her blood history:

Date / Urine Level	Protein (64 - 80 g/L)	Albumin (35 - 55 g/L)	Cholesterol (<5.0 mmol/L)
19 June 2011 / 4+	41	21	10.5
1 Aug 2011 / 4+	56	32	N/A
13 Aug 2011 / 3+	57	26	6.9
24 Aug 2011 / Trace	60	31	6.8
6 Sept 2011 /Trace	65	35	6.4

She will have another checkup and blood test this 11 October and most probably I already delivered babyG by that time. Hopefully everything is well, her protein is enough in the blood and the urine maintained no protein.

Talking about side effects, we definitely can point one or two by now. However, not all children will have the same side effects, but this is what we've been told and seen:

1) Harder to sleep - the first dew days she is on steroid on the evening (3tabs morning, 2 tabs evening) she had a hard time to sleep. Average time will be 12 midnight! Then she can't sleep through til the morning like usual. Normally she will sleep until 7AM but now she will woken up around 5AM. Her sleep also not that sound and sometimes I can see she is a bit restless in the sleep.

2) Fine hair - She started to have fine hair especially in the forehead, upper lip, and behind her back. However, I read somewhere that the hair will fall off when she's not on the medicine anymore.

3) Mood swings - She likes to bite even though nobody kacau her. It's like sometimes tiba2 dia rasa irritate and will bite anybody next to you. But lately the biting has lessen, maybe her body already get used to the steroid.

4) Stunted growth - This one hard to tell as she is still small, but according to the growth chart, she was 90% tall before and now fall to 50% (average group).

5) Calcium losses - One of her teeth chipped, but this one not sure because of the ubat or simply cavities. Hopefully sebab I tak gosok je la :(

6) Moon face - it's a term for chubby cheek. She has triple chin now and very chubby cheek due to the steroid. It will go off after 6 month out of the medicine. Tapi sometimes sedih tau tengok muka dia, sebab nampak tak ori sangat chubby tu. Memang obvious chubby sebab ubat :(

The moon face. Zahra having lunch - spaghetti with broccoli and tofu soup

7) Digestion problem - She starts having constipation after few weeks on prednisone. Most probably due to the 'heaty' from the medicine and not enough water. We tried giving her a lot of fruits and water but she still have the constipation and the bloated stomach. Her stomach will be very hard during evening due to all of the food and gas. Dr Indon prescribed her pro-biotic supplement, it's in capsule type, so we open the cap and mix the powder with the milk every night. Alhamdulillah, the bloatness went away and her stool is softer now.

And other rare side effects that might happen is like cataract problems, muscle weakness, osteoporosis, diabetes, etc.. Hopefully she doesn't encounter with those nasty side effects. Aminn aminn aminnnnn....

Talking about giving her medicine, she will struggle every time and MrComot has to hold her tight, and I will pinch her nose and push the syringe inside her mouth, press it on the tongue and make small shots until finish.

She will cry during the 'forced' time but tell you what, Zahra is a very good girl, she never throw the syringe or smash anything beside her.. Every after medicine time, I will say, 'Zahra, dah doneee yeayyy. Clever girl! Nahh..Zahra bawak ubat pegi letak kat sink ok'. And she will hold the syringe and ask MrComot to carry her and put the syringe nicely in the sink. NICELY OK. Not even throw it like marah or what. I feel like crying...seriously. She is such a strong girl...

Zahra with me waiting for the blood test result at SDMC..having her afternoon nap. I forgot to bring the stroller, poor little one, had to sleep uncomfortably like that.

Overall, she's doing fine now. Hopefully everything will run smoothly and according to track. I can't imagine her being sick anymore..kesian her small body. Stay strong sayang, we can go through this ok. Mwah!

37-weeks mommy

2011-09-13T15:31:00.000+08:00

I'm 37-weeks this week! It is considered full term already and I'm ready to go into labor anytime now! (37-42 weeks is full term period range).

BabyG is already engaged!

Wow, that is a scary thought. Let me take a new breath..

Ok, according to last week's scan, his head is already in the position, not as in going down only, but already masuk there.. Rough weight is about 2.6kg and will reach 3.0kg if delivered on 40 weeks (based on 100g per week add estimation). Ok la kan..Zahra was 3.4kg hehe and I delivered her in my 40 weeks. The waterbag looks fine too, air ketuban still enough for babyG and he is enjoying his stay inside.

But the scary part came when the doctor said, I can deliver in my 38 weeks if stressed. Life is a bit hectic with Zahra's checkup and all kan..but I really really pray that I'll deliver on 40 weeks (or more! doesn't matter) because Zahra is this close to zero Nephrotic Syndrome and she is on the way to taper of the steroid. I need to monitor her betul-betul.

So babyG, stay strong and hang on ok...mommy not pushing you to stay, you can come out whenever you are ready, but it will be nice if not sooner than October.

On mommy's condition, the heartburn is coming back and I only notice it slows down when I take a lot of fruits. So mommies, eat your fruits ok. And I feel very very heavy..in fact I can feel babyG down there! Scary... I also started to have some discharge, upon reading, it's a sign that my body is readying for the big day. Also started to feel the sharp 1 second pelvic pain. It's more like pelvic snap. Tiba2 je tangkap kat pelvic...

Oh ya talking about discharge, if you have too much discharge from 36 weeks, you may want to do GBS test (Group B streptococcus), it is a bacterial infection and can be passed through to the baby during delivery. Kalau pass through, baby ada high chance dpt jangkitan paru-paru and you may have pre-term baby. Normally doctor will give antibiotic to treat this. It is something rare I guess because I never heard about this during my 1st pregnancy, but it's good to know about any possibilities regarding your pregnancy. For more info you can read about it from here: http://www.americanpregnancy.org/pregnancycomplications/groupbstrepinfection.html. However, my gynea said I don't have to do the test since I don't have the symptoms.

Zahra still want to latch..it makes me pissed sometimes because my boobs is very sore lately..and I'm afraid it will stimulate the pitocin hormone as well. But kesian Zahra, she will want to latch especially after taking the medicine, probably due to the very bitter taste and want to comfort herself. Due to these situations, I had mixed feeling, pissed and sad. What a feeling.. But I can take it as I am an adult. Zahra is still small...so I braced myself and just let her..

And this is me in my 37 weeks.

Anyway, there are a lot of reasons why I'm not ready to be in delivery yet.

1) I haven't pack my hospital bag
2) The confinement room is not ready yet
- have to change the bed's frame, the plywood support is broken
- need to service the aircond
- need to bring down the babycot, it's still in the master bedroom
- jemur all the comforters and pillow
3) bought the confinement stuff - I don't know why I'm procrastinate on this, malas betul nak beli
4) book the tukang urut
5) confirmed on the cord blood cells banking

See...all is major stuff and it shows how I'm not ready yet.

Other than that, I think we'll manage. Hopefully I'll have a smooth and easy delivery, and cepat-cepat sembuh so that I can take care of both babies. Amin...

My Static-Baby

2011-09-09T16:10:00.000+08:00

Remember this entry, where I want sewing machine soooooooo bad?

Tell you what, MrComot bought me one!!! Yeayyyy!!

But another fact you should know... he bought me last May, 29th May 2011 to be exact, and it still in the box, untouched, unopened, unmoved, on the table in art's room (3rd bedroom) UNTIL NOW!!!! With a lot of dust of course.

That will be like, almost 4 months ago ok *sigh*

I chose the machine myself at one of the shops, and it took me almost 2 hours.. and was very excited. I already picture in my head that I'm going to rumble the box, snap a lot of pictures, the function, the mechanism, the capabilities, etc etc and share it in this blog. That explain why I didn't post up anything about my baby, just because I haven't explore it yet.

Then I became so optimistic that I'm gonna sew something for babyG and let see...babyG is due in another couple of weeks..or another month.. with my back pain and all-I-want-to-do-is-lie-down hormone, it seems impossible!

So most probably I'm gonna open the box after babyG popped out..after confinement.. and if only I'm not that busy (I can imagine myself with a growing up toddler and small baby, boleh ke tak busy? hehe)

Ok lets take a peep with my new-static-baby :D

Big and study...and quiet, on the table hahaha.

Maybe I should forget about it and sell it to anybody who is interested? And since the warranty is 1 year..it's almost half a year now..I'll give RM200 off?

Haha..don't know lah..kesian ok machine tu..

Anyway, even though I didn't touch the sewing machine, there is a lot of ideas running wild in my head - sewing/craft related. And I couldn't help it but starting on this one cute project by purlbee.

It's a citrus coaster!!!! --> click click click to see the end product

They are so colorful and summery! Ok, it's not like we have summer here, it's summer all the year round hehe..but I love love love the cheerful colors and ideas. So yeah, I'm making one set.

And guess what?

The project started 3 months ago and I'm just at my 3rd piece now *sigh* (another 3 more to go if I'm making for 6, or 5 more if for 8)

The work in progress.. 3 months and counting hehe

This project is more 'realistic' as it only involves hand stitching than sitting with the sewing machine. But mind you, hand stitching is time consuming... but surprised surprised, I just figured out that I'm loving it!!!

Somehow it's very therapeutic for me sitting on the carpet with my big belly and a plush pillow at my back for support, watching TV and stitch stitch stitch... The only problem is, I just used whatever material I have and most of the felt run out the colors, especially the white one. Bummer! So nak pegi beli ke apa ke macam leceh pulak. It kinda turning me off to continue this project. But I'll try my best to finish it before babyG pop out so that I show it off in this blog ha ha ha.. That will be a good motivation eh?

And another problem, time of course. But it's a lame excuse :P

Oh ya, while at the coaster, I managed to whip an itty bitty star hair clip for Zahra and she lovessssss it very much!! This is my first time working with a very small alligator hair clip, I think around 1.5cm.. Nanti I check and share with it with you guys. My normal hair clip for Zahra is around 3cm kalau tak salah.

It's not perfect, but it's a cutie alright. It's in bright yellow with orange stitch and I personalized it with very tiny star button in teal that I bought online. Seriously..I bought a lot of thing that I think I can open a craft supply shop or something now hahahaha.

Below is a couple of Zahra's pic with the star hair clip!

And that's the story about my sewing machine, and my current craft project hehe.

I plan to create a new blog just for craft/sewing stuff...but looking at the rate I'm going, I don't see it will benefit anybody. I only do craft once in a blue moon hehehe.

Hopefully I manage to finish the coaster soon. Soon as in before babyG pop out. We'll see how :P

Spongebob Baby

2011-09-08T16:19:00.004+08:00

Something funny happen last night.

As usual, we catch up each others life the moment we set our foot off from the office, and it will start with on the way back home where we will have various of conversations. Sometimes serious sometimes junk. MrComot reads about serious politics, cars, guy stuff, stocks, whatever important thing happen in this world and me on the other hands, read light blogs, parenthood, religions, gossips, artist, u know..junk stuff. So normally we will exchange our stories.

Since Zahra is still small, I didn't really filter my words. After all I am a woman with grace, I talk only good thing with good words ha ha ha ha.

Ok anyway, last night we were talking about pig and dog.

So last night I raise about this current trend where muslim in Malaysia having dogs as pet, and how some people bad mouthing about them and where this so-called good people say nasty thing up to a point they missed another perspective.... that it's not 'haram' to touch or whatever, only considered as najis mughallazah (the saliva). We always misuse the word and term right? Like pig too..it's haram to be eaten but not to touch..kalau terkena, samak je la kan...

I pun dengan bersemangat ni bercerita..

Tu laa..kita selalu salah faham..babi tu haram makan.. nak pegang babi, pegang la..tapi kena la samak, babi tu najis berat (something like that, I remembered repeating 'babi' a lot haha)

Zahra was latching on me like usual, and suddenly she stopped and pull my shirt

Maak..mak... (she has this habit calling everyone mak, whenever she wants attention) .. baaaa...biiiiii.. baaaa..biiiii

Kannnn!!!!

I was stunned ok! I mean, I never thought she is listening to what I say. After all banyak lagi words lain and babi yg dia pick up?

Hahaha

And then I was thinking back, what's wrong with it? Babi is just an animal. And I didn't use it in bad context, you know, like cursing or what. So I play along with her..

Yes sayang..babi bunyi macam mana? oink oinkk

Oakk oakkk

Coww?? Mooo moooo

Mooo moooo

Cat?

Nyaaaaaaaa

Bird?

Aaakk...aaakk..

Dog?

Woof woof

Babi?

Oaakk oaakkk

This reminds me how your kids absorbing every little thing, like a sponge! And it's time for us to be careful and watch our speech. She used to mock when I said 'Bodoh' or 'Damn' - she said doh! and dem! (it was bad traffic with bad driver all around to my defense hehe) But she was smaller that time and I don't think she really understands what it means. But now she's getting smarter, we really have to watch out.

I have this friend whom like to say 'fuck' a lot, even though when she drops her pen. It's not really a curse per se, just something she does out of habit. I know she thinks it's cool but it ain't cool to me.

Even though Zahra is still a small kid and will make her own choice later, but as a parent, I'll try my best to set a good example. I don't want Zahra cursing or loves using bad word, well just because I don't like it and again, it ain't cool. Who doesn't love Bill Compton, with the refined speech, instead of Andy Bellefleur the vulgar and crude sheriff. Told ya I am a woman of grace ha ha ha.

End of word, gotta start with myself first! Lepas ni mommy cakap sopan santun ok. And babi is animal tauuuu... don't use it to scold people. It's not cool :)

Ps: Even though 'babi' is only an innocent animal, I still find it vulgar hahaha. I feel more comfortable to use the word 'pig' :P

Eid 2011

2011-09-07T13:43:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone! How was your raya? I hope everyone had a blast. Mine biasa-biasa je, like usual, all the families will be at one's house and everybody will go there to gather. This year is at Auntie Zaza's where I had scrumptious dalca daging and vanilla cupcakes. Yum!

But I didn't eat that much because my stomach still adjusting and I have low appetite. It's so weird...

Anyway talking about raya, do you know that I only salam MrComot on the 3rd day!!! So kelam kabut and tak kisah ahahaha. No drama nanges whatsoever. At first I nak la salam2 on the morning macam biasa kan..but dengan tak siapnya lagi, then buat sup for Zahra, prepare her lunch because we are going out beraya, then siap kan dia lagi, and tup2 MrComot dah siap sembahyang raya (the mosque is few meters only from our house), then when he came back, I take my bath, have my solat sunat hari raya..then siap2 myself pulak and eh eh dah pukul 11AM! Rush to Zaza's house..meet families..then went to Auntie Jot's house..then balik rumah after Asar and the 3 of us terbongkang flat hahaha.

And guess what we have for dinner? Maggie goreng!!!!

Punyala don't know what to eat and I have no heart for rendang anymore. Ughhhh...I know they are yummy..but seriously I can't eat rendang anymore that dah. By the way, if I can pun, we don't even have raya food in the house, only some cookies haha.

Then we had a few open house invitations throughout the weeks and attend all of them. This weekend we still have a couple, by my aunties.

Raya this year might sound boring but it's actually a blessing in disguise. Both of us get to rest a lot, which we need the most and fully refreshed on the next week, to work. Even though deep down inside I still feel longer holiday will be a bliss, but I had enough time resting. And for the first time holiday with Zahra was so much fun and stress-free. Kalau cuti 2 hari weekend je, memang rasa penat sangat.

I have so many stories to share. Will try to write again later. Below is Zahra's pic on the raya morning, when I asked her to smile..and she sengih like that. Haha. And with her baju kurung from Giant! :P

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2011-08-31T14:15:00.000+08:00

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The First and the Last

2011-08-26T15:22:00.001+08:00

How's ur raya preparation? Semua orang dah mood raya giler2. Even in the office the production is like 20% only haha. But everything pun ok, and not so many emails to answer.

I'm going to spend my raya in KL again!!!!! Arghhhhh! Last year is because Zahra is too small to travel (edited: and because my brother gotten married, so instead of balik kg on Eid, we balik kg for his wedding :D) and this year is because I'm heavy (worried if I pop earlier) and Zahra is not so well too. Takpe, next year insyaAllah will be in Terengganu yeayy! A place that I can call jkampung. Where everybody will squeeze in the road to balik kampung, eating a lot of traditional food as gathering with the whole family, cousins, aunties, grandmas, makcik2 tua, where you'll ask their name over and over again, because you only talk to them once a year, so confirm tak ingat nama haha. Somehow balik kampung give a sense of thrill and happiness as it only happens like once a year hehe.

Talking about raya, I do NOTHING in preparation. Part of it because both of us were too busy and with Zahra condition lagi, takde mood nak raya. Then the spirit also not enough because we will be spending our time here. Not much of different than normal days, only will be visiting the families. Both of us didn't buy any baju raya, I have a couple of new dress, that's all. I bought Zahra one baju kurung though, itu pun kat Giant KD, kat bazaar tu la. Itu pun color ntah apa-apa.

The house also in a mess. We already arrange for cleaners to come tomorrow. But it's nothing much pun, they will clean the toilets, vacuum and mop the house. The mess will always be there hahaha.

Anyway, since Ramadhan is approaching it ends, I just want to spill something... I haven't cook a single meal for buka puasa this year except for last weekend! Hahaha. Ok, that will break the record. Masak la jugak kan sekali :P

We break the fast every day at PIL so ok la tak masak kan. There were a few days wheren my MIL didn't cook, but still.. we just bought from pasar ramadhan. But last weekend I was like, OK semangat nak masak ni. Plus my sister is in the house, senang sikit boleh tolong sana sini.

It's the first meal I cook and most probably will be the last for this Ramadhan. So, going to brag with pictures even though it's nothing much :P

Buka puasa with fruits - cherries, watermelon and persimmons. I've been trained to break fast like this, with fruits or light meal like kuih first, do the prayer then baru makan nasi.

Followed by the complete dinner. Daging masak hitam, grilled cencaru sumbat belah belakang and sayur bayam tumis air. Yum!!!

Even though it's normal simple food, it's so yummy!!!!! I tend to over buy if going to param and dah la the taste ala-ala je. Sometimes sedap sometimes errrr....don't even want to eat it. And I never bought cencaru in my whole life and was surprised how cheap it can be. For the big 3 fish, only RM2.70!!! Just imagine if I bought the ready made one..dah la tak confirm on the hygiene. That is the most important part.

I plan to cook more after this. After raya I mean, err..after babyG pop out lagi realistic kut? Hehehe. Because I'll have one more month before due date and the will be in confinement and all :P

And ahhh..Ramadhan going to leave us :(

I am so sad because I barely do anything more than normal days. I'm just too tired after breaking the fast. Siap2 kan Zahra tidur and dengan2 I sekali tidur. Tu pun sometimes I fell asleep faster than her, she will be latching on me and don't know when she stop. Tried to bangun malam doing the ibadah and only a few times managed. Other than that mmg tunggu MrComot kejutkan I sahur, where everything is already readied for me. Then..rest kejap..readied Zahra and all, rush to work. Sigh. I really wish I can do more. It's a total loss for me. Hopefully dipanjangkan umur for next Ramadhan, in the mean time, even Ramadhan is over, I'll try to be a better person each day.

So selamat hari raya everyone! Maaf Zahir Batin and hope you have a blast holiday! Most of us will be on 1 week leave kan.. and that's a big wooohoooo!

Zahra and Nephrotic Syndrome: Current Treatment

2011-08-24T08:24:00.001+08:00

I'm very busy bee these few days, hence no update, b,ut somehow have to write something about this as we have another check up today.

As the last meet with Dr Indon, she decided to continue Zahra on high dose steroid 25mg like before, only this time will be on pills, as she thinks the liquid prednisolone we got before is not so effective. The liquid has to be refrigerate all the time and very sensitive to temperature, so it might lost some effectiveness during the handling, like when we transfer it to the babysitter's house (even with cold pack) or when babysitter brought it out of the fridge.

She also prescribed us the powdered antibiotic in any case Zahra got infection and has to be taken for 5 days once started, so far Alhamdulillah... No other infection.

We decided not to go to HKL (again!) because want to try this pills first. Kalau tak jadi baru pegi..takut both doctors and Zahra pening, too many opinions at one go.

One thing about pills, since Zahra is only 1y7m, she doesn't know how to swallow medicine yet, and of course whe won't. Zahra jenis susah betul nak bagi ubat. MrComot selalu mcm nak nanges when have to hold her to force her taking the medicine, she struggles so hard. That will be in another entry.

Ok back to the medicine, it's in pills form, so we have to crush it and feed her. It's 5mg per pill so we have to give her 3 pills in the morning and 2 pill in the evening. No Zantac this time to coat the stomach as Dr Indon siad, she'll be fine if taken after meal. So we give it to her after 3oz of milk and so far so good, no stomach cramp or whatsoever.

As the crushed pills, we tried to give it nicely in spoon laden with jam, but she somehow knows it and refused. I even shoved it down into her mouth but jam is very jellyish, so she spit out the whole thing. In the end, we had to give it the usual brutal way. I crush the pills with some brown sugar, put in the syringe and shot it into her mouth, while struggling with her of course. We had to say sorry so many times...kesian betul tgk dia refused mcm tu :(

It's been two weeks after the last checkup, and that means 2 weeks she is on the pills, which total up about 2months and a half she is on high dose prednisolone. She shouldn't be on high dose for 3 months, that will be in a couple of weeks, Dr Indon will review her today to see the progress and decided on the next step/action. We have an appointment with her today in a couple of hours, where Zahra going to do another blood test to determine it.

This is her latest urine dip test done at home, the urine is at trace now, Alhamdulillah. It shows that the medicine working. But I still afraid to put high hope, as like last time when we were so excited, the reading went up back. Such a scare. Hopefully everything is ok today.

My 19-months Darling Pwincess

2011-08-19T14:40:00.000+08:00

Zahra is 19months already! She's a grown up toddler and yet, I still look and feel her like a baby. Never stop being amazed with her wits and cheekiness.

At this phase, I noticed she becomes so MANJA! Manja as in will come and rub her face against mine, then she loves to pull my cheek and kiss my lips. So cute! When I am in the car with her, she will kiss me left and right and won't stop until I stop her - that's when my face is already covered with her saliva hehehe.

She also knows how to mengadu nowadays. Whenever after we finished feed her the medicine (we have to pin her down and MrComot will hold her tight because she will fight the feeding), she will come to me and wailing 'Daaaadddyyyyyy...dadddyyyyyy', telling me that daddy is bad for making her eat the medicine.

She also will mengadu whenever she fell or ada orang kacau dia, mcm last night, she slip in between on the safety gate and her knees terkepit di tengah2 but sikit je, but keep on telling me 'tatetttt...tatettttt' while pointing to her knees. Then one of the cat tried to cakar her but missed, and I didn't see any scratches, but she will wail and wail showing me her hands. Haha so manja..

I don't think she knows she getting a brother because she seems don't understand when I put her hands on my ballooning tummy, but it's okay, we'll see how when babyG pop-out.

I didn't measure her height because too busy hehehe..but her current weight is around 9.5 - 9.7 kgs. Hard to know the real weight because she might have water retention due to her Nephrotic condition.

Oh ya, iPad is her bestfriend now. Buka mata je nak tengok Barney! Pening ok... But occasionally I will play with her, to stop her from being in front of iPad jer. She loves coloring and stacking the wooden block, so that would be a good distraction.

Talking about iPad, she knows how to operate iPad like unlock it..play the youtube (she recognizes the youtube button! I tried to move the button and she knows where to press), stop/play the video, adjust the speaker and understand that she has to close the iPad when we are going somewhere. So far she never throws the gadget and will hold it cautiously, so I always let her carry the iPad by herself. Good girl!

She also into ironing these days. She knows it will turn hot and sit still whenever I iron my cloths. Awal2 dulu memang nak berebut the iron with me, but I let her touch the place I ironed (it still a bit warm), so she knows it's hot and sometimes we play a game (while I do the ironing), 'Zahra zahra..cepat pegang, panassss' and she will put her hand on the spot and said aauuuuuwww" while bringing her hands quickly to her chest. Haha so funny.

Her current favourite word is 'tatotttt' and she will say it whenever she have a fright over something and will pat her chest repeatedly. Haha..macam makcik2 ok. I don't know where she learned the word takut, because we never use it in front of her, maybe she picked it up in the babysitter's place.

I think she's ready for potty training because she will tell me when she poop - 'Yek!' and always request me to bring her to the toilet whenever her diaper is full. However I'm not ready to potty train her yet, due to my condition. Maybe later when I'm in my confinement.

Her current favourite food still broccolli! and baby corn. Ok la..ada jugak new thing hehehe.

Below is a couple of her recent pics :D

Busy ironing. The switch is off of course, but I can't let my eyes out of her as she will try to switch on the power at the wall.

Watching Barney while sleeping on her Barney :P

She still very can be very angry sometimes, and have a hard time to sleep lately, due to the prednisone's effect. I will narrate that one in separate entry later. Other than that, she's one happy and active toddler.

Happy 19months baby! Mommy will always love you and stay strong ok!

Little Grasshopper

2011-08-16T13:45:00.003+08:00

image googled

I am 'busy' playing with Fruit Ninja on the iPad currently. Not really addicted, but just because want to beat hubby's score. We have this habit to beat each other score. After all nak beat score siapa lagi ye tak?

Anyway that's not about it. Last night, as usual we break our fast in his parent's house and we were cleaning up the letfover, washing dishes etc. Normally we do it together but last night he insisted he do everything alone and want me to rest. I was tempted because I was very tired but thinking how much work he has been doing for me, macam kesian la pulak. Lagipun apa la sangat basuh pinggan and all kan..so I better contribute la. He keep pestering me to stop washing the dishes while I keep on saying 'Ok, lepas basuh satu ni, me stop.' Tapi tak stop stop hehe..

Then he said:

Sayang...please la pegi main Fruit Ninja tu. Me tak tahan la me highest score now.
Alaa nanti me main la
Sayang pegi la main...nanti me gloat the whole night! Tak tahan!

At that point I dah nak tergelak. Haha. I mean, the trick he want me to stop washing plates. Macam I ni budak-budak :p

Since he keep on saying he will gloat la apa la..so ok, I stop washing and play the fruit ninja in the hall, but I still can't beat him and sooo gerammm..

Sayang want an advice tak?
Hmm...?
Little grasshopper, don't use your eyes. Be the blade!

I was like, what the..... ha ha ha ha!

His face was so funny that time, so serious and with a very sharp tone! And I knew it! It must came from a movie line or whatever.

Movie apa sayang cakap tu?
Kung Fu.
Ha ha ha ha!

I pun tatau la movie apa tu. When I googled up, it is an old series back in 1970s! So old skool lah my hubby ni.

On the other note, it's already half of the fasting month and he's been preparing all my sahur. Every single day *all teary*. There are the days when I woke up earlier than him but I didn't dare to go down and prepare the sahur sebab takut nanti dia marah I turun naik tangga. Seriously! 40% malas, but 60% I know he will be mad at me if I do that. So just let him do whatever he wants to do. I know macam kesian, but it's something he loves doing. I just want him to be happy, by making me happy ^_^

Yummy cherries is back!

2011-08-11T13:00:00.000+08:00

The yummy cherries is back! This time bigger and juicier than last year. Look at the comparison against BR's spoon. But not as sweet. Maybe they plucked it a bit early.

Same price as last year, RM5 per 100g. Bought a kilo and got it for RM48. Last year boleh dapat Rm45! Anyway another day I read one promotion (forgot Giant or Tesco or C4), RM9.99 for 250g! Itu lagi murah...

This has become a staple for Zahra. Pagi-pagi je nak suruh minum susu (because she has to take something before her medicine) kena pujuk with cherries.

'Zahra, zahra jom makan cherry..'. Then laju je dia lari ke fridge and select the cherries by herself and pass to MrComot to wash it hehe.. After a few cherries baru nak minum susu. Macam-macam la budak mummy sayang ni..

Zahra and Nephrotic Syndrome - Day #54, SDMC,Tung Shin, HKL

2011-08-10T13:01:00.005+08:00

Update about Zahra's progress.

After the allergy drama, we met Dr Anushree as per appointment on Monday to follow up on her condition and Dr withdrew some blood for test. Oh ya, she also gave Zahra some eye drop to treat the conjunctivitis bacteria as her eyes still have the thick discharge.

Surprisingly her blood reading is good (compared to her urine reading). Her urine still 4+ and the protein in her blood showing improvement, almost to normal level. Normally, if the urine is high, the protein in the blood will be low.

So we tentatively will see the Paed Nephrologist in HKL.

Since it will be on Monday 8th (it's about a week gap), we decided to set up another appointment with SDMC (Sime Darby Medical Centre) as they also have Paed Nephrologist, just to hear their opinion kan. What is the diagnosis and their judgement.

We met with Dr Indon Lajin but it was Saturday (6th August) and SDMC macam pasar malam. Ramai giler orang. I don't mind about that really, but Dr Indon was a bit in rush as she has so many patient queuing behind us. So it was a brief meeting only. Luckily we brought the urine sample (it was at 3+ that time) and all the test result, test at home, cretin reading, blood test, etc for her to analyze.

She took a quick glance and told me that there is basically 4 types of Nephrotic Syndrome in Childhood:

1) 30% - The NS is straight forward, gone after high dose of Prednisolone
2) 30% - The NS is gone after the treatment, but relapse once or twice in their life (about 1-2 years)
3) 30% - The NS is treated, but flare up after any infections (cough, flu, bug bites, any simple thing that triggering your antibody). So everytime relapse, kena makan ubat balik.. but it'll be better over the years and maybe will jump to the #2 condition
4) 10% - Not the normal minimal change NS, kena buat biopsy

After that, she decided that Zahra's NS relapse during treatment because of the infection (where when she got the allergy) and prescribed an antibiotic (Augmentin) for 6 days and kebetulan Zahra ada flu, so she gave her Hydroxine. She also prescribed new dose of steroid, a lower dose as she's taking antibiotic - 10mg (2 tablets). This time she gave us in tablet form, so we have to crush it and give it to Zahra because according to her, tablet form is more effective than the syrup type.

The medications

The syringe. Rumah kitaorg dah macam junkie.. We have to give Zahra 3 syringe now.

We will meet Dr Indon this Friday (12th August) for follow up and some blood withdraw (again *sigh*, sorry baby).

About the HKL pulak, got different story.

Sebab we already met Dr Indon and mcm ok la..lega, Zahra ada infection sebab tu relapse, and dah dapat ubat baru kan..so we decided to put on hold on HKL. Then since we mmg cuti on that Monday (8th), I decided to go to Tung Shin (at Jalan Pudu), it is a traditional Chinese Hospital and one of our friend yg ada Nephrotic ni pegi sana too. So just to hear what the doctor want to say kan.

It's a very very Chinese hospital and I don't think they speak BM/English, ok..maybe little English, but since we are seeing Prof Liu, we assumed he can speak English la. Prof ok..takkan la tak boleh kan hehehe (but he is Prof from China, so it's not the same like Prof in Malaysia) So off we go, mmg gamble habis and thank God he can speak English, even it's not as flowy but we can understand each other. So ok la.

The interesting part is when I ask, it is possible for Zahra's NS to relapse because of an allergy. He quite taken aback because steroid is used to treat allergy and yet she got allergy? Kann... and he said normally it won't relapse because of that.

Anyway Prof Liu didn't prescribed us anything because Zahra is too small and he said the western medicine will be fine for her. If it's a normal case of NS, she will be cured (insyaAllah...).

We finished seeing Tung Shin around 12, and Jalan Pudu dah dekat ngan HKL, so I decided to go to HKL jugak. Sampai2 sana unfortunately the counter is closed! Apparently the Paed Nephrologist (for first assigned case) is only on Monday morning. Another slot is on Thursday but that one for follow up I guess.

Nama Zahra ada dah dibook in the morning session but kitaorg terlambat. Well, part of it salah us jugak sbb awal2 mmg macam tanak pergi kan. But now I was a bit rasa rugi la..sbb it's not easy to get the slot kan. By the way, I already reschedule it to next Monday (15th August) and we'll see how la.

First thing first, we'll see how's the blood test result this Friday.

Up to date, the reading still 3+.

The purpose I write all the details is because I want to share the experience of dealing with NS and to keep track the record. Now looking back from the entries written, the high protein urine reading is not because of the allergy. Macam salah bagi info kat Dr Indon je..hmmm.. I'll jot down balik all the info later, after I collect all the result..semua ada dalam kereta.

32-weeks

2011-08-09T13:26:00.002+08:00

I am 32 weeks!!

Time sure running so fast and I hardly can catch up. Poor my babyG, I rarely update about him :(

Anyway we did the 4D scan (it's 3D and 4D - video as well!) when I was about 28 weeks. It's said the best time to the scan but since my amniotic fluid (air ketuban) is still a lot, it's a bit kosong through the scan.

When with Zahra Elena, we just managed to do a quick 3D scan at TMC with NO CD, only one piece of printed pic :(

This time I am more prepared so I scout around to find the most affordable place to to the scanning as most private hospitals will charge you around RM250! I checked with Vission College, they are the cheapest so far, around 100++ but fully booked til next few months! Dahsyat ok! Thank God a friend of mine told me about this service in www.kasihkusayangku.com.my.

For direct link you can go here: -
http://www.kasihkusayangku.com/index.php?l=product_list&c=170

And it's only at RM100! Plus quite near with my place hehe. The only weird thing is they won't reveal the place until you made the payment. But trust my experience, it's all alright. The 'scanner' is a profesional sonographer and the procedure is done in a appropriate clinic. So nothing to be worried of.

I made the payment via online transfer, got the confirmation email and address, then just go to the clinic on the mentioned date/time and my session is ON!

But my baby was taking an afternoon nap that time and he refused to wake up after a few gentle shakes, and just give us this smile :D

Sleeping..

Smiling! But still sleeping hehehe

We got a few printed pictures (2D) and a CD comprises about 50 pictures and 10 short movies!

We confirmed on the gender and check other condition, so far so good, he is developing well, despite of my underweight condition.

Talking about my pregnancy, I already see the gynea in TMC as I'm in 7 months now - Dr Fidak, same doctor with my first pregnancy and everything is good. I also feel good, only that I can't walk for long period and having shortness of breath. Time bercakap pun have to stop for a few times which is so not me hehehehe. The heartburn is no longer there, Alhamdulillah..

Last checkup 2 weeks ago showing babyG is about 1.6kg (that indicates he will be 3.2kg in full term!). Wow..sikit2 sudah yer..jangan over2. Zahra was 3.4kg but I was bigger that time. Hopefully can do normal delivery this time.

He also already pusing ke bawah, but can go back up anytime. I don't really mind as long as he is well positioned and engaged when the time comes.

Other than that both baby and mummy are doing well. Oh ya, only that this fasting month, my weight drastically fall to 51.5kg, compared to last checkup before fasting, it was 53kg :(

I think macam tak cukup makan. Masa buka puasa can't take much and planned to have late supper around 11PM mcm tu but by that time I just finished tuck Zahra to sleep, I will pengsan sekali ngan dia sampai sahur :(

Still fasting up to today..nak buka pun mcm no reason as I OK je puasa... If my weight keep on dropping off, maybe I won't puasa..will give another week and see how.

Stay strong babyG. Mummy so sorry mummy neglect you most of the time, but mummy knows you are doing OK inside. It's the safest place for you where you'll get everything you need. So hang in there and just come out when you are full term ok. Hopefully by then your sister will be recovered so that mummy can attend you 100%.

Seriously, another thing that worrying me is, if I ter-deliver not on full term, because of the stress and tiredness, with a lot of thing going on kan..pasal Zahra sakit, pegi sana sini and she still latching on me - releasing the Oxytocin hormone.

But babyG, mummy telling you..the Oxytocin is not a sign for you to be out yet ok? Just wait..until October. That's the real time :)

Stay strong darling!

The Drama of My Shiny Black Push Present

2011-08-04T13:34:00.004+08:00

Ok, time to rant about my push present :D

It's not really a push present, but since tak ada hadiah lagi, I declare la cannn? cannn? hahaha.

Anyway got it a couple weeks ago. It's an iPad2! Actually we wanted to get it online as the price sama je, free shipping and the big plus point is, you get free engraving behind!! So classy ok. But we had to cancel to buy it online because I feel like having it now and if you buy online, it will reach you about a month! It's too long to wait! From the website, it says will be delivered 3-4 days. Ye lahh tu...2 of my friends bought it online and it only reached them after a month. Hmmppphhh!!

But the main story here is not about my iPad..it's about the drama behind.

Right after MrComot decided to buy the iPad, I call every MAC centres in KL to check the availability. We specifically want black and 16G, WIFI only. No white iPad for me pleaseee..comot ok! Anyway..susah ok nak call2 ni. I called about 5 branches..ada yg rude giler like heloooooo, I want to buy ok, what's wrong with you? Ada yg macam.."ha..takde" and senyap, I wanted to ask more question, terus terbantut. And finally the only place whom still having it, Digital Mall PJ!! So I quickly said book it for me satu, tomorrow morning we will go pick up!!

Seee..semangat kan.

The next day is Friday. Both of us took annual leave just to take the iPad in the morning and then jalan-jalan after that. We also planned to send Zahra to the babysitter like usual. You know, it's kind a date lah..after so long kan. We've been very busy before, and with Zahra's condition lagi. After all I'm going to deliver and confinement lagi, when to go out like this.

But the night before, ada work crisis pulak, so MrComot had to attend crisis meeting after Friday's prayer. So goes our so-called cuti. He's still taking the leave, he said the meeting will be a brief one only and he will join me to shop in MidValley after that.

So ok la.. then we send Zahra to the babysitter in the morning around 11AM mcm tu. Before that dah la Zahra cranky bagai. All she wants is to latch on and we are in the middle of weaning her for good. Until that day dah 2 hari she managed to be in the car without latching. So kira hari ke-3 la tu..and then she keep on crying and crying and pulling my shirt and scratching my face and it's hard for me to handle her tantrums sebab tanak dia langgar perut lagi kan. And I wanted to give in jer, but MrComot pulak keep on saying if I give up now give my boobs then when she going to learn bla bla bla..

Helooo..susah ok..I was struggling behind and kalau dia nangis mengada je ok la..I can pretend not to listen but this time crying hard sampai tersedak-sedak and keep on pulling my shirt. In the end I gave in jugak, itu pun dah nak sampai rumah babysitter. Memang tense la in the car.

Dah la he keeps on receiving calls..since from the house until we reached there. Dah la keluar lambat around 11AM because he had to reply mails la attend the calls la.. And we already plan to go out early, have a nice breakfast, etc.

Then at the parking, I was so clumsy and dropped Zahra's thermos, and the cover opened and half of the soup tumpah ok!

Ok lah..dah tumpah nak buat mcm mana. Then we sent Zahra to the babysitter and saw her hubby tengah smoke pulak dekat hall. You know, I don't have anything against smoker, it's your choice, but boleh tak jangan smoke kat tempat budak2? Please?

Then I went to the kitchen to wash my hands and the babysitter was there too and maybe dia perasan my face semacam je..and ask how am I doing..I gaduh ngan MrComot ke apa.. terus I burst out crying!! In her kitchen! Damn!

That's the first time la I cry in front of strangers like that.

It's too much for me to handle that time, the disappointment of our date won't be like as planned, the frustration of can't make Zahra happy in the car, the bengang-ness soup tumpah and nampak pulak her hubby smoking (padahal pernah nampak before but that time bengang sangat)..too much in my plate. And maybe the pregnancy hormone as well.

And I keep on crying in the car, that MrComot is apologizing if he made me unhappy. It's not about him..it's about everything.

But the moment we reached Digital Mall, terus stop nanges haha. I don't think because of the iPad, but because of finally I get to let out everything. Lega sangat.

Anyway below is a few other thing that I want to share - a yummilicious soya bean and kuih nyonya stall!

It's a mobile van located right in front of Digital Mall. Since we reached there around 12PM already, a bit rushing and decided to call of lunch together and have a light snack. I had cold soy bean milk with agar-agar cendol.

The agar-agar cendol is super yummy ok!!! So thick and creamy and cendolicious! It's a bit pricey at RM1.10 per piece (that's normal price for kuih nyonya actually) compared to the one in pasar malam, RM1 for 3 pieces. But mehhh..that one rasa agar-agar ngan gula je la.

The drama didn't end there..I dropped MrComot to his office for Friday prayers and went to MidValley after that. He said the meeting will start after prayers and kejap je he will join me. Then ok la..I lunch sorang2 dengan penuh kesedihan, jalan sana sini..and guess what, his meeting done at 530PM!!!! Dating lah sangat.. ughhhhhhhhhh!!!

Then I picked him and we off to babysitter to picked Zahra pulak.

So?

Di manakah kegunaan annual leave saya. And his of course la.. baik tak payah cuti. I was so pissed (I know that's not his fault but couldn't help it to feel that way) and said 'Baik tak payah cuti'. Then he said he can cancel his cuti, considered keja. That's not the point ok. The point is, we want to go out together.. and dah plan bagai, but end up I stranded there alone.. and with my condition lagi, sakit pinggang bagai. Bukannya masalah cuti :(

But ya la..what to do..not enybody's fault pun. Things happen kan.

Anyway there is another story.. I stumble upon one of the blogger and dia tak shy-shy cat tegur me! Thanks darling! At least I managed to talk to somebody jugak, takde la masam je the whole day hahaha.

And talking about her, she's so pretty!!! I terus semangat nak pakai night cream after met her :P

Ok talking about the iPad2. Takde la best sangat hahaha...no la..I mean because I am used to touch screen phone kan. I've been using XpressMusic almost 2 years now..so the experience is the same. Only it's bigger and ada banyak apps la. So for browsing takde la mata kena focus sangat. Furthermore I don't really have the time to play around with the iPad..so busy these days. Balik malam terus tido and it's somehow easier to browse using my phone because it's smaller hahaha.

In fact, it has become a toy to Zahra. Everytime nak pujuk dia je, "Ok Zahra don't cry, jom tengok youtube kat iPad" or "Zahra mamam first, then kita tengok ipad". Ikut cakap okk..terus jadi. Dulu I selalu bribe youtube to her but using laptop. Laptop is a bit hassle because I have to ON lah, and the it's not that portable and it contains my work inside, so a bit dangerous, sometimes don't know what she press and documents might be deleted.

But she pun ok je kalau takde iPad, as long as she can watch her Barney!

Zahra watching youtube via my XpressMusic

Using iPad2

So the point here, any device will do as long as you can browse. The power of internet. I feel crippled kalau takde internet ok haha.

Oh ya, talking about this, we only bought the WIFI one because we mostly use the iPad in house or office (both got WIFI) so I don't see the problem. Even if we buy the 3G one will be another problem as I have to subscribe to another data package kan, because my phone already ada data package, so macam membazir.

Another solution if we are moving around, like in the car.. I can connect the iPad to my 3G using my phone as a router. Don't you think Nokia XpressMusic is awesome? *I heart my phone so much!*. And it's a crackable android apps hehehe.

Connected to the world from iPad WIFI to Celcom 3G via JoikuSpot Premium using XpressMusci 5800.

I think I brag about my cheapo phone more than the fancy iPad haha. But poor Nokia, I heard they are sinking down :(

Last but not least, both my babies enjoying the new gadget.

Tak habis2 Barney, up to a point I dah nak muntah ok.

And thank you hubby :*

Mommy is Wangi =D

2011-08-02T14:32:00.000+08:00

It's second day of fasting month and Alhamdulillah I managed to fast, well..until now. Yesterday was a super tiring one as it's the first day and we had to go to the hospital twice, in the morning for Zahra's checkup and in the evening for my pregnancy. I'll update on Zahra later, need to confirm on a few other issues with the Paed this evening.

Anyway talking about Ramadhan, thank God my hubby is not a fussy eater. He eats roti with serunding/tuna/spread pun ok. I mean, kalau dia fussy eater pun ok jugak, dia nak makan dia cook lah..tapi of course rasa bersalah kan? hehehehe... so kalau roti ni kurang la sikit rasa bersalah kalau dia buat sendiri.

And yeah, even bread with spread, he does all the work! Bad wifey! Actually I planned to wake up early and ready everything but seriously tak sedar and it has been 2 days, he woke me up with everything ready in the room - bread, spreads, chocolate milk, Anmum milk for me, dates, apricot, cakes, and even my pregnancy supplements! Semua ready, tunggu I basuh muka makan je haha.

Adoi!

Anyway, thanks hubby! I'll remember this for life! :*

Buka puasa pulak as usual at PIL, oh oh oh thanks Mak! I'll be gratitude for life too =')

Actually want to talk about Zahra. This little cheeky cutie pie kan..soooooo cheeky these few days. She learnt new tricks by following what we said. Not the whole sentence but only follow the ending.

For example,

Zahra notti or not?
Nooooott! --> With the cutest tone ever! Haha

She thought it is a game and she has to follow it, hence the tone. So most of the time I selalu buat macam ni

Zahra Zahra...daddy wangi ke busuk?
Sukkkkkk!
Mommy busuk ke wangi?
Ngiiiiiiii!

Hahaha clever girl!!!!!

Below is a short video taken by my brother and his wife, around 3 weeks ago, where they are playing with her and she keep on calling me Mama!

Mama pun mama la. And do you know that she also calls Barney mama? Ok, this is weird, I don't know why but it's not something random. She seriously recognize Barney and calls it Mama! Whenever she sees Barney, she will say Mama! And I already test it to confirm, when she wants me to play the youtube:

Ok, Zahra nak Mickey Mouse?
*Geleng*
Zahra nak boboi boy?
*Geleng*
Zahra nak Barney?
Nak..Mama!

And she will point to the purple dino and keep calling him Mama! *pengsan*. MrComot says maybe because she sees my tummy is like the Barney hahaha.

Rockin' Ramadhan

2011-07-31T23:28:00.004+08:00

Salam Ramadhan everyone!

Coincidently it falls on 1st August 2011, it's a good booster because we can stock up Baskin Robbins on 31st July!

We went to BR in Giza as early as 10am and about 5 people there, don't have to push around or queing! The only drawback is it's quite a small outlet, so the flavour is not that extensive. Even the normal Old Fashioned Butter Pecan wasn't available.

This time we bought 4 quartz! So tamak! It's Pistachio Almond, World Class Chocolate, and Baseball Nut x 2. Yum yum, Baseball Nut is my current flavour.

Talking about fasting month, how's your preparation? I wanted to go to talk or seminar before this, to prepare myself. You know, as a catalyzer to do my best this Ramadhan, baru la semangat kan? But things has been very chaotic this few weeks and have to sail through this without much preparation.

Mentally I'm ready, only on the physical side, I'm very tired lately. Feel so heavy and with Zahra yg a bit on emotional side. Banyak tantrums and very angry, I think it's because of the medicine as I ask around patients yg pernah Nephrotic, yes they have the emotional side effect. Hopefully I manage to puasa penuh this year, ameen...

Wishing you guys a very meaningful Ramadhan. May we achieve a better Ramadhan this year. It's a good time to shape ourselves to be a better Muslims, and may it lasts throughout our life, not only for a month ;)

I

zahra and Nephrotic Syndrome: Allergy Drama

2011-07-30T23:26:00.002+08:00

We had another scare last Thursday. Zahra had a few allergy bumps around 145am but since it's nothing serious, I just rub her and put her back to sleep. In the morning, the bumps went away, so I thought it must be something she had last dinner, even though we ate pretty much the same food. The only different is the mint chicken that I gave her, it is cooked with yogurt but I already wash the sauce and gave her only the chicken.

During lunch time, I received a call from her baby sitter that some red patches appeared around her cheek, legs and hands. It's not that bad according to her, so I didn't go and take a look. Furthernore, both of us had training at TTC that time. We called Dr Anushree and she said it looks like allergy reaction if it comes and go. During evening when we picked her, the patches gone, so okay lah..

She had her usual dinner and suddenly the red patches reappear. It seems like it flares everytime after meal. It's so weird because she is on Prednisolone, it's like the strongest medicine and is also used to counter allergy, and yet, she has allergy? Since she is not showing any discomfort, I just let it be and around 10pm it went away.

She had her before sleep milk and I was woken up at 1245am by a very sore boobs. One thing about Zahra, she won't cry if she feels uncomfortable during sleep, instead she will keep on latching and bite my boobs. I was tired as well and fell asleep and didn't realize she was sucking hard, almost gritting actually, hence the soreness.

When I pull my boob, she will cry, then I knew it she still not in deep sleep and it's so unusual of her, so I switched on the lights and so panic to see her whole body is covered with red patches!

We've been dealing with allergy few times already so normally I won't be that worry but since she is in Nephrotic treatment, I am afraid this is something else so we quickly rushed to emergency at TMC.

We brought along the steroid treatment letter and the Dr on duty checks her up and made a call to Dr Anushree to brief her. Since her airways is clear, she is given antihistsmine medicine to stop the allergy reaction. Poor my baby, has to take another medicine...

According to the Dr, yes, Prednisolone is used to treat allergy, but since Zahra is on high dose of Prednisolone for over a month now, it will bring down her immune system, hence she is easily attacked or infected. That's the drawside of the steroid. The allergy can be triggered by anything, food, insect bites, dust, pets, etc..as she is totally immunocompromised.

The patches gone after 2 dose of antihistamine (that will be 16 hour gaps, 8 hour per dose) but I decided to give her 3 complete doses to make sure it's gone for real. Alhamdulillah, no flare after she taken any food after she finished the medicine.

Kesian my baby, she's so vulnerable now.... Not only the allergy, she had a thick discharge from her eyes after that. I read online and it's because conjunctivitis bacteria or her body is dispelling toxin. But the discharge gradually reduced today so we decided not to go to doctor yet as she will have her checkups this Monday.

On the protein reading (test done at home) is very confusing. After the hike at 4+, it reduced to 2+ yesterday, and today back to 3+ *sigh*.

I hope all is well this Monday. Aminnnn..

Zahra and Nephrotic Syndrome - The Update

2011-07-26T16:15:00.002+08:00

It has been confirmed the reading shoot back to 4+ which is weird because she still within treatment and it is an indicator of steroid resistant but at the same time conflicting because she's responding to the steroid well for the past 1 month.

An appointment has been made with Nefrologist team in HKL on 8th August 2011. We don't know how it's going to be yet, most probably change the medication which only can be prescribed by the Nefrologist or continue with higher dose of Prednisolone. That's what we are told for now but still up to the Nefrologist. How the Nefrologist going to diagnose/check, I still have no idea. Hopefully nothing scary.

As for now, we are continuing the 25mg x 5ml Prednisolone and Dr Anushree will see Zahra next Monday for some blood test.

Wish us luck!

The BoboiBoy Girl

2011-07-26T10:57:00.005+08:00

Ok, enough of sedih-sedih. Lets talk about happy thing to kick the morning :D

We went to Sushi King Ikano last Saturday and below is a couple of happy faces of Zahra Elena! I love these pics so much she is not the photogenic type and most of the time her pic will turn out like a boy! Haha.

But she was very happy last weekend, most probably because it is 9PM already. That's the normal her, she will be all giggling and happy before going to bed. It's like she's on high or something.

Eating edamame and udon!

Singing something - swinging her head left and right hehe.

After the dinner I took her walking around and she went to the Speedy next to the Sushi King (because that's where kids like to be sbb ada TV haha) and look what she found:

Boboi Boy!

It's her current favourite show and she spotted it by herself! Mata Zahra ni boleh tahan tajam, kalau nampak mickey mouse ke boboiboy ke, barney ke..cepat giler. I mean, I will have a hard time to spot those character especially if they are small. Maybe sebab mata mummy melilau tengok baju kut hehe.

Oh ya, the moment she saw the CDs, she shouted:

"Boboiboyyyyyyyy"

And I pun pulun la cari where is it where is it and tak sempat nak cari, she already showing me the place :D

And fished out the whole CDs and give them to my sister. I am too heavy to chase her around, thank God my sister was with us that night, she's keeping an eye on her.

If you haven't heard of this cartoon, it's an animation series by Animonstamedia - a local product! *proud to be Malaysian!*. Cerita dia best okkkk! Haha. Sometimes me pulak yg ketagih to watch it instead of Zahra.

Below is the making of the soundtrack. Yuri Wong (the composer) is so handsome kan? Don't cerca my taste ok..but well, most of girls senang cair with org yg macam cool and pandai main gitar kan? Hahaha.

*off topic*
Oh oh oh do you know that MrComot plays guitar too? In fact, he plays classical. Wowwwwww.. Ok, I didn't know that until after we gotten married. He never la nak show off dia pandai main ke apa.. and he doesn't have the time pun. But yeah..he plays classical! *heart*

Ok enjoy the music video and happy Tuesday everyone ;)

Zahra and Nephrotic Syndrome - A relapse?

2011-07-25T14:30:00.002+08:00

I wanted to rant about my shiny black push present, but I got bad news this morning..so..hmm yeah, lets talk about the bad news first.

As per her progress last week, we pretty much excited about her condition and send the urine to TMC this morning with peace of mine.. until this noon when Dr Anushree called us up and inform us that her reading is bad. It's 4+!! The exact count is 5.0mg, while last week was 0.75mg. Such a big difference.

So it's most probably a relapse. Ok, I get it, Nephrotic syndrome can reoccur, but a relapse within a treatment? And she hasn't even finish the treatment yet.

We have to repeat the urine test tomorrow to confirm on this issue, and if it maintains at 4+, she has to be referred to HKL for nefrologist (kidney expert) for further diagnose.

It's too much for me to absorb.

I was stunned at first, part of me in denial, part of it just don't know what to think.. or what to expect. I mean, if we are not dealing with straight forward Nephrotic, what it's gonna be? How are they going to take kidney biopsy from Zahra? Are they going to poke her around?

After about an hour in haze, I burst out crying because I was too sad. And can't stop crying for ther next hour.

Now I'm all alright :)

Hopefully the reading was wrong. We gave the sample 1 1/2 hours late and maybe it's contaminated. Well, urine within 2 hours is acceptable, but can't think too much now, just wait for tomorrow's result pulak.

I'll rant again later.

The catalogue girl

2011-07-22T11:33:00.002+08:00

Zahra's current favourite hobby, browsing through catalogues while baby-talking like explaining the product hehe..

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Zahra and Nephrotic Syndrome - Day #34 and The Progress

2011-07-21T11:29:00.006+08:00

It has been over a month my little Zahra on the Nephrotic Syndrome's treatment. Alhamdulillah, she's progressing well even though I have this urgency, cepat-cepat lah turunnn bacaan protein, so that she can stop eating that ubat! But what to do..it's a long process, I have to bear with it to get a good result.

We went to see her paed last Monday and her urine lab test came out with a very good reading, 0.75 (2+). The week before it was 1.5 (3+). She still taking the high dose cortisteroid, 25mg prednisolone.

Oh ya, talking about medicine, I was a lil bit mixed-up previously. I thought we will start with low dose first, if no response then will go for higher dose. Actually it's the other way round. The treatment starts with high dose, then if good response, will go to lower dose.

So, Zahra has taken the high dose for a month now..and is going to continue it for another 10 days. According to the latest study, a 6 week high dose treatment will make it most likely not to relapse. So we are following the track. We going to submit her urine next Monday and if the reading is 1+, we will start the lower dose treatment - prednisolone 20mg x 5ml taken on alternate days.

If the reading achieves 1+...

Please please please Ya Allah...let it be on track.

BP check by the paed

Her blood pressure is also good, Alhamdulillah....

She still cries when we meet the paed, maybe remembers about the blood withdraw but turn to cheeky and happy baby towards the end. She will say bye-bye to the paed and even throw her a flying kiss! Haha..macam tahu2 je nak balik. Oh ya, she also hates the blood pressure check and will cry whenever her paed wrap that thing around her arm but finally we found a way to avoid the crying..just by standing! Maybe she feels farther from the paed, thus safer :P

Below is her progress tracking. Dr Anushree said I don't have to test the urine everyday anymore, can do it on alternate days. So sometimes I do selang sehari, sometimes 2 hari hehe..Depends on how busy the morning is.

Date	Result	Weight	Dosage
2 July 2011	3+	9.0kg	25mg x 5ml
3 July 2011	3+	9.0kg	25mg x 5ml
4 July 2011	3+	9.0kg	25mg x 5ml
6 July 2011	3+	9.0kg	25mg x 5ml
9 July 2011	2+	9.0kg	25mg x 5ml
10 July 2011	2+	9.0kg	25mg x 5ml
13 July 2011	1+	9.0kg	25mg x 5ml
15 July 2011	2+	9.2kg	25mg x 5ml
18 July 2011	2+	9.5kg	25mg x 5ml
21 July 2011	2+	9.5kg	25mg x 5ml

Her urine test this morning, my eyes is saying it's between 2+ and 1+.

^_^

On other health issue, Alhamdulillah, she's doing well without any extra sickness. Last week she had a small cough and it almost gave me this heart attack, afraid she couldn't take it and it will get worse but thank God, nothing serious, kejap je dia batuk, tak sempat bagi ubat pun and it went away. Allah Maha Penyayang...

Overall my baby is doing great. And please stay healthy ok? with the haze and hanky-panky weather now.. Mommy try to contain you the best I can. Oh ya, we also have to burn our flight tickets to Terengganu to visit my parents..well, I haven't cancel it yet, but most probably have to la..sbb it's gonna be this weekend and a high time to monitor Zahra if the reading going down or not. But at the same time I miss my family there and we not gonna be in Tganu for Raya because I'm gonna be 8 months then.. then confinement pulak..sigh. We'll see how lah. Yang penting Zahra okay! ;)

The Most Expensive Ever Kurau

2011-07-20T15:00:00.000+08:00

Giant KD has become our second home lately. We rarely go to mall, most of it because I don't have the energy to walk around and handling Zahra at the same time. I feel too heavy! Giant has become the most convenient place for us to shop, because somehow we need to buy wet food for Zahra's soup - chicken, beef, fish, vege, stuff like that.

So we are more or less can fold-blind our eyes and know exactly where to get the stuff haha. Last couple of weekends, we encountered with kurau and MrComot's eyes lighted up "Wahhhh sedapnya kurau!"

I was like, is it? Ok..I think I had kurau before, but I don't remember how it tastes, not to mention how to cook it. I just recognize the taste of ikan kembung, ikan sardin, ikan terubuk (yum! my fav!) and ikan tenggiri.

So I said,
kita beli lah! But I don't know how to cook it.
Alaaa..goreng je
You sure? It won't taste weird or something like that?
Takpe..goreng je

Hahaha.confident je kan. So we bought 2 slices of fillet and went to the counter to weigh it and guess what? It's freaking RM20!

Ok.. I know Kurau is expensive. But I never know it can be THAT expensive. And we can conveniently put it back if we don't want it, but since MrComot said want to eat la sedap la apa la..why not, just try it la kan.

So here is my expensive Kurau.

RM20!!

That's not the highlight of the event. The best part is..

we burnt it!!!!

Ok, to my defense, it wasn't my fault ok. First, the flesh is tooo soft, more to mushy texture I will say. When it is nicely brown, I pick it up and taste to check, cooked or not..and it still mushy. So I put it back on the fire and after a few mins, it burnt! To my horror, the taste still mushy! Ok, maybe that's how the texture should be but MrComot said it is different last time, firm just like Tenggiri.

Nevermind, we just eat it (in my heart still fearing it is undercooked despite of the long fry). Then I called up my mom and ask, she said normally people use kurau for asam pedas and not cook it too long. The flesh is soft (but I don't know her level of softness as mine is too soft!) but takde la hancur.

Nak cakap tak fresh, it looks fresh to me T_T

So there goes my most expensive Kurau. Kalau ikut tekak ni, memang tanak makan okk..but to think how much it cost and tak baik membazir, makan jugak. Nasib baik 2 keping je..kalau tak, sia-sia je *nanges*

Banana with M&M's

2011-07-19T11:00:00.007+08:00

We were roaming around in MidV yesterday and I saw this bright color blocking dress in Arcadia, Jusco and spontaniously asked:

Cantik tak?

And to my horror MrComot replied this:

Sayang nampak macam pisang kalau pakai baju ni..and with M&Ms!

Kannn..pisang ngan M&Ms la.. To me macam comel je baju tu.. It's interesting to see how people see things hehehe..

My 18-months biter

2011-07-14T17:13:00.000+08:00

Zahra Elena is 18months! But it's 17months according to the ticker. Lebih kurang la hehehe.

She's one fine lady..so cheeky and make me happy all the time. Well, maybe not all, but most of the time. I love staring at her while she's sleeping and can you believe that she still co-sleeping with us?? Ahhh so much want to teach her sleep in the cot lah. Actually part of it is my fault as I have no patience to lift her and pat her or whatever and then bring her back into the cot. She's too comfortable snugging with us and want to be next to me all the time. If she doesn't feel me next to her, she will roll roll roll and making some sounds in her sleep.

I forgot to tick her height (later will do, already bought the cute height measurement for her :D) and she's about 9.5kgs now.

Lately she loves to biteeeeeeeeeee and she will bite everywhere especially if it's not covered - direct to your flesh, eg: when you wearing shorts, she will bite your leg but when you wearing jeans, she will attack your arms. Hahaha.

This is her current teeth. She already has the four big molar and can you imagine when she bites me using the molar? Berdesinggg ok. If using the thin front teeth pun berdesing jugak hehe.. depends on where she bites me.

Sometimes I find it cute but sometimes when she went overboard, it's quite irritating and dangerous. She even bites few of the kids in the babysitter's place! Luckily it lasted for few days as the babysitter will jentik her whenever she does that.

At home, when I tried to jentik her, she will laugh it off. And when the daddy jentik her, she will cry. Haihhhh tak takut dengan mommy!

Her favourite songs are twinkle-twinkle little star and itsy bitsy spider. She even dances with the song. For twinkle-twinkle, she will do the blinking stars using her pointer and thumbkin, and for itsy-bitsy spider, she will do the itsy bitsy fingers and put both of her hands on the head at "out came the sun and dried up all the rain", to show shielding the head from the sun. So cute!!!! I tried to record it but whenever I on the recording, she became conscious and stop dancing hehe.

She still calls me Mama! We've tried it so many times,

Zahra, Zahra, nama sape?
Zaaaya
Daddy?
Deeedii
Mommy?
Mama
Nai-nai?
nai..nai..
Yeh-yeh?
yeh..yeh..
Auntie Pijat? --> my sister
babat

Haha I don't know why she calls my sister babat, but that's not fluke, mmg call for real.

Her favourite food still broccoli and tofu!! I want to call her broccoli girl la! Haha. On the weekend, for a quick brunch food, I just sauteed some garlic slices, add tofu, broccoli and then boil it with baby spaghetti (baby pasta is a smart ass invention! nnt I show pic) and a small pinch of salt, yum!! She will wallop it a whole bowl.

Oh ya, she also become a bit aggressive lately but it could be due to the cortisteroid side effects (I'll share about this later in the Nephrotic Syndrome entry). Sometimes she will become easily irritated and temper and quite possessive. If any kid wants to touch her stuff, she will shout "No no no no!" and become angry. And last 2 weeks we went to OU, she grabbed one girl's hair because the girl took her chair in the baby room. Sigh.

I tried my best to teach her it's wrong, but not by pukul or snap her (depends on how bad the situation is). Most of the time, I'll take her hand, look into her eyes, and said "No, don't do that, Zahra good girl. Good girl don't do that". Sometimes terbabas I will pukul sikit her hands, but I notice that she doesn't resort well to violent. If I pukul, lagi dia tak kisah and repeat it. So I have to be very patient and tegur her nicely again and again to make her listen to me. After all she's only a kid. You have to keep repeating. I hope this is really temporary and will be gone once she finished the treatment.

Other than that, Zahra is such a wonderful and clever girl. And also healthy one, except the NS. Stay good and strong yer sayang, mommy loves you so much and happy 18months!

Zahra in the tunnel, at TMC's playroom.

On the swing, singing twinkle-twinkle.